MDA nightmare/ Advice

[thumbellina]

Ok, i was actually wondering about your experience of the MDA pill you took. Understanding that could lead to potential truths. Thing is MDA is already known to be more stressful on the body then MDMA and can cause more negative side effects.

Personally when i unknowingly got MDA tabs instead of MDMA, it was the best experience of my life still to this day compared to every other drug, the MDA visuals as the most incredible I have ever seen due to the detail and realism. I loved the MDMA visuals. The MDA experience is very psychedelic like LSD with some MDMA qualities. Is that what you experienced?

Well, lets see. I enjoyed if for a good 2-3 hours. I took a little less than half a pill which after talking to my friend was called "white lightening" I looked it up on pillreports and that's exactly what it looked like. I came up quickly on that and it felt amazing, I was dancing and very talkative/lovey as per usual. About a half hour/hour in to that I took the rest of the pill and was feeling great again just wanetd to dance and was talking to my friend about all sorts of things like sex and what not. I do remember at one point in this thinking I had lost my jacket which spiked sliiight anxiety(almost a fear), however I got over that quickly. Continued to dance and I should mention I was also drinking while this was happening. I felt really great but I wouldn't say it was the "best" feeling in the world. I do remember wanting to talk and be close to everyone which I expected. fast forward to when my friends decided to go home and I decided to walk home(I live very close to where this party was at). I live downtown but kind of in a fancier part so at this time of night there really was no one out. As I'm walking home that's when it all went downhill. What follows is what I believe to be a hallucination, it looked very real for the most part but I just don't think it happened. I saw two men walking on the sidewalk towards me, and just to be safe I felt like I should cross the street, however when i did this I saw one of the men cross the street which sent me in to panick. I tried to go down a different block but that block was shutoff due to construction(this is actually true). Decided to just walk really fast in hopes that they wouldn't bother me and I remember walking past one and he kind of sneered at me. once I got past him I remember seeing a man hidding under A boards(sandwich boards) and hearing/seeing him move which sent me running home. Once I got home I calmed down a little and felt relieved. I wasn't ready to go to bed and felt the need to putter around. cleaning, organizing, I remember texting my friend that I felt really productive. Finally around 4 I decided I should go to sleep and thats when I realized I could not shut my brain off and started having chills and the shakes and started crying. I did not feel good. I felt a loss of control and wanetd it to end. The next day was easter sunday so I had to endure everything that comes with that, feeling completely out of mind. After a little bit of sleep that next day I thought I felt better on that following Monday, buut here I am still feeling very much like I did after my initial comedown. My friend who took the drug feels fine and says she has taken it in the past. I don't know if this triggered something in me but the high was definitely not worth how I'm feeling now.

 

[thumbellina]

thumbellina I have been like this for 4 and 1/2 months lol. I am experiencing pretty much exactly what you're describing.

Some people have told me it can take 6-12 months to recover. I don't know if that's true but I'm holding on to it with my life!!

Please let us know if you begin to feel any better.

I'm trying my best to hang in there but I'm getting so worn out. EVERYTHING feels like such a task and drains me physically/emotionally. I'm considering going on an SSRI as i've had success with them in the past to treat my general anxiety disorder. It was really hard to get off them when I was ready but not nearly as misserable as I feel now, so I do feel that the risk of dependency/having to detox from them is outwieghed by how I feel now. I want to hear what my psychatrist thinks as he's brilliant and knows so much about how the brain works with different chemicals. However my biggest fear is that he won't know what to do either. Just gotta hang in there. Positivity is hard to maintain but I'm not going to give up.

 

[Folley]

^ I've always felt that SSRIs and similar drugs slowed down the recovery time. You have to get used to them, heal while your still on them and then you need to taper off of them and once you stop taking them there is even still more recovery that will need to be done to reverse the downregulation that SSRIs can and will cause.




I know things can seem bad now, but really they WILL get better. Medication won't help.. other people's advise usually won't do shit either. You're going to have to have to just take this head on and convince yourself to not give a fuck anymore! Once you stop giving the anxiety and depression all the time and energy it needs to feed on your soul, the sooner you'll go back to being "normal"

 

[thumbellina]

^ I've always felt that SSRIs and similar drugs slowed down the recovery time. You have to get used to them, heal while your still on them and then you need to taper off of them and once you stop taking them there is even still more recovery that will need to be done to reverse the downregulation that SSRIs can and will cause.




I know things can seem bad now, but really they WILL get better. Medication won't help.. other people's advise usually won't do shit either. You're going to have to have to just take this head on and convince yourself to not give a fuck anymore! Once you stop giving the anxiety and depression all the time and energy it needs to feed on your soul, the sooner you'll go back to being "normal"

^ I've always felt that SSRIs and similar drugs slowed down the recovery time. You have to get used to them, heal while your still on them and then you need to taper off of them and once you stop taking them there is even still more recovery that will need to be done to reverse the downregulation that SSRIs can and will cause.




I know things can seem bad now, but really they WILL get better. Medication won't help.. other people's advise usually won't do shit either. You're going to have to have to just take this head on and convince yourself to not give a fuck anymore! Once you stop giving the anxiety and depression all the time and energy it needs to feed on your soul, the sooner you'll go back to being "normal"

Hey Folley,

Thanks for your input. I really do appreciate your positivity. I just wonder if this will be beneificial for me as I've had a lot of success with them in the past. I've dealt with terrible anxiety in the past but this feels so much worse because there are so many physical symptoms. I feel dizzy almost always. I'm really against taking anything that will give me instant realieve i.e. Xanax or something of the like. Even when on SSRI's i had to work on myself quite a bit but it atleast re-arranged my brain chemistry enough that I was able to do so. I have never felt this out of control in my life and I fear losing my job and things of the like because it's so hard to keep it together, which would probably make recovery even more difficult. Eh, I understand that it takes time but worries me is that I have not seen any improvement. I think I'm gonna start doing jazzercise or something. I could use the distraction.

 

[thizzlemonster86]

The best thing you can do is eat healthy, take vitamins and supplements, and try to exercise if you can. I personally think smoking pot helps with anxiety, but for some people it can make it worse as it depends on how you would usually respond to weed. So if you don't usually smoke weed then it might be a bad idea as i personally have got panic attacks from weed because i got way to high and i hadn't smoked weed for about 2 weeks so my tolerance was really low. But like some others have said, benzo's help with anxiety ect. The best way to get relief if you feel like you just cant take it anymore is opiates like vicodin and oxycontin and percocet ect. But I would only use the opiates as a last resort type thing as they are VERY addictive so be careful of that. Just hang in there. It does get better eventually believe it or not. It just takes a long time to start to feel better sometimes.