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thumbellina

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Exactly three weeks ago I took MDA at a party with a friend of mine. She introduced me to it and it seemed like a good idea. Please know I realize how DUMB it was to take a drug I have not researched before, but I'm not an avid drug user and I made a beginners mistake. I've been living in what feels like perpetual hell for the last 3 weeks with very little relief(usually only a few hours at a time i feel normalish/calm). I've read just about everything I can regarding this and it seems that I am experienceing nuerotoxicity. I am also aware that there is no guranteed timelime for getting through this, but I feel like I've really fucked my brain. I feel dizzy/lethargic most of the time which heightens my anxiety/depression. All of this makes it extremely hard to concentrate. I also have a lot of trouble sleeping as I often twitch myself awake into a panic attack. I slept for 40 minutes last night without being able to go back to sleep. At times I feel like I have no control over falling asleep like I could knock out sitting up, but when I do try and sleep the same thing happens. I've been eating really well, and taking care of myself with vitamins, and trying to workout when I can, and I've also noticed drinking only makes this worse, so I have stopped that. From what I've read it seems as if it can take months for this to pass but what I want to know is what I can do in the meantime. I've read all about 5-htp being great, but I've also read that it can be harmful when trying to heal because I've already pretty much overloaded/obliterated my seratonin receptors. I have started to see a therapist to atleast talk me down but would getting on anxiety/depression meds be a good idea to help regulate me? I've had severe anxiety in the past, but this has far surpassed that feeling. Anyhow thank you for listening. Please be nice

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Hi thumbelina, like you I also consumed was supposedly mdma/mda but we did not test the product. I had similar symptoms like yours and I am on month 5 of recovery. The only lingering symptom is this weird feeling in my head and it feels like my brain is fixing itself. I can't consume alcohol, caffeine or smoke cigarettes as it makes it worse. All I can say is continue what you are doing. I am a lot better than a few months ago so there is definitely progress. Avoid anything that will exacerbate your symptoms
 
Honestly I don't know. The person who supplied it is a good friend of mine and I trust her, however who's to say if she can trust where she got it from. Please forgive me as I really am not drug savvy, and have only done MDMA 3 times in the past. This was my first time with MDA and I took half of a pressed pill and about an hour later the other half. I'm learning soo much about all the mistakes I've made now lol, live and learn I guess. I had a great time for the 3 hours I was dancing, but on my way home I'm 99% sure I hallucinated a rather scary encounter and then ran all the way home. I was good and active for a little while before I tried to sleep and that's when this horrible come down started.
 
Jonnavi said:
Hi thumbelina, like you I also consumed was supposedly mdma/mda but we did not test the product. I had similar symptoms like yours and I am on month 5 of recovery. The only lingering symptom is this weird feeling in my head and it feels like my brain is fixing itself. I can't consume alcohol, caffeine or smoke cigarettes as it makes it worse. All I can say is continue what you are doing. I am a lot better than a few months ago so there is definitely progress. Avoid anything that will exacerbate your symptoms
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Thank you for your input. The more I'm reading here the more I'm realizing that it's just going to take some time. I've been stressed in general lately and my anxiety was coming to a head before this incident so I'm hoping that seeing a therapist will help. I have a really hard time at work as my job forces me to interact with the public and i write a lot of emails. Hard to do when your brain feels fried. I'm mostly worried because of my history with anxiety/panic attacks that I was once medicated for and worked my way through. I feel better reading others stories and relating but last night I thought I was losing my mind! Anyhow I'll continue to do all the good things for my body that I can and stay away from any alcohol or smoking.
 
thumbellina said:
who's to say if she can trust where she got it from
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Unfortunately this is a big issue in todays ecstasy market. I cant tell you how many times i have been offered "moon rocks" that were methylone, "sass" that was just a cocktail of nasty rcs, or my favorite, "acid based" pills, that were pipes. The only way to know is with a test kit, no matter how trusted your friend is.

IMO these symptoms were probably caused by something other than mda. You said it was a press pill, do you happen to know the logo from the press? If so pillreports.com may have a regent test up on the press in question.
 
I do not know. Like I mentioned I'm really not that savvy of a drug user because I don't do them often at all. All I know if I have absolutely no need/want/desire to put anything but food and maybe alcohol some day in my body. My friend took some, not as much as I, and she's fine. She only reported a mild hangover the next day with slight anxiety.
 
It sounds highly likely that what you took was not MDA. It is an extremely rare drug, and often times people will try and pass off piperazines or other chemicals as it.


Do not worry though, this will subside eventually. There is very little chance that one pill could cause brain damage, you'll get over this in due time. Until then, do NOT go on medications... it will only hamper your recovery back to normal. I know it sucks.. I've been there man. It gets better though :)





You ought to ask what pill she gave you though.. I'm a bit interested now.
 
Folley said:
It sounds highly likely that what you took was not MDA. It is an extremely rare drug, and often times people will try and pass off piperazines or other chemicals as it.


Do not worry though, this will subside eventually. There is very little chance that one pill could cause brain damage, you'll get over this in due time. Until then, do NOT go on medications... it will only hamper your recovery back to normal. I know it sucks.. I've been there man. It gets better though :)





You ought to ask what pill she gave you though.. I'm a bit interested now.
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Thanks for your advice. I keep trying to tell myself I'll be okay and I'll make it through this but it's hard when you feel absolutely crazy. I did drink quite a bit on friday and it's been pretty bad every since where as earlier on friday before the drinking I felt atleast calm and somewhat clearer. It's all been kind of a learning curve for me but so far you all have been super helpful. I will ask her and report back with news.
 
She mentioned that it was 1.6 milligrams and as far as she knows it was MDA. that seems like an awful lot to me for one pill?
 
wow... yeah it's a low dosage.. my last time as 6 pills lolls
 
Folley said:
1.6 MILLIgrams? That would be a very, very, very low amount... an amount you could not even feel. 1.6 GRAMS would be impossible to fit into a pill too... so I'm even more confused now lol..
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Lol as you can see I don't know what the hell I'm doing when it comes to drugs. That's what she found out from her broyfriend who is pretty knowledgeable. I definitely felt lots of things though including a hallucination, there's a slight chance what I saw actually happened but I HIGHLY doubt it.
 
I think the last time I had an instant hallucination was years ago when I took blue dolphin which was so strong btw I was messed up for a pretty good 8 hours lolls yep only one pill and I was out lolls
 
Jonnavi said:
I think the last time I had an instant hallucination was years ago when I took blue dolphin which was so strong btw I was messed up for a pretty good 8 hours lolls yep only one pill and I was out lolls
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Well now I feel extra crazy for being so fucked up of such a lil pill, but again who knows that it was, not to mention weird shit always happens to me. The best part was having to cry to my mom the next day about how I was such a shithead and was too fucked up for easter sunday lol. I can't wait until this is just stupid funny story.
 
yeah.. I think you'll get better.. I abused mdma more than you did and I am way better than months ago.. Exercise helped me a lot plus lots of sleep and healthy food.. I am actually at work atm so keeping busy will also help you take away your mind from the comedown
 
Did you have trouble sleeping in the begining? I go back and forth but mostly I get very little sleep. Probably have had 5 hours of sleep in the last 3 days.
 
yes I did.. the night after the binge my whole body was twitching everytime I fall asleep. I went to the emergency room and was given a sleeping pill. the twitching went away after a few days and I had withdrawal symptoms for two weeks.. My sleep didn't get better until after a month.
 
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