Right i started doing mcat in march 2011, it started off as small amounts (0.5-1 gram between 2 of us throughout the night) and the effects were amazing. after a comedown which wasnt actually that bad atall i could get up the next morning feeling fine. i would do this with my friends almost every weekend but then occasionaly stop for a few weeks because we didnt want it to get boring. However about 2 months after the starting point our usage increased to maybe 2 grams each every weekend but we would still be fine with no mental change and again, not much of a comedown. However, long story short, by around november sort of time i was using around half an ounce or maybe more to my self at all night (10pm - 7am) 'mcat sessions' at a mates house, in the morning when it ran out i would crave so much that id stick straws filled with water up my nose and chain through packs of 20 in minutes just to try get the buzz back. The comedown would be unbareble and after id came down off say 10 grams, the next four would give me no positive effects but i still had to do it, i just wouldnt come back up. It then got to the stage when i stopped feeling euphoria from it and due to family issues i decided to stop - my last heavy session was on december 16th. since then i have done small amounts (1 gram each time) about 6 times over the last 3 months. Each time i have felt very little euphoria but got a huge comedown afterwards. Also - i have recently tried good pills (170md aprox) which seems to get everyone else absolutely wired but i remain feeling the same but jut gurning alot.
my questions -
1) will my seretonin levels ever get back to normal?
2) will i feel euphoria again? why do pills and mcat do nothing for me now?
3) this feeling has pretty much gone now but for weeks after a heavy session i would feel empty and emotionless, eg i would feel no love for family or girlfirend and no connection to the world, is this normal? has anyone else experianced this?
4)if i wait like 3 or 4 months would i be able to get high off a small amount and not experiance a comedown like i used too?
any other comments on your experiances with mcat would be truely apriciated, no one seems to know much but i need help with this.
my questions -
1) will my seretonin levels ever get back to normal?
2) will i feel euphoria again? why do pills and mcat do nothing for me now?
3) this feeling has pretty much gone now but for weeks after a heavy session i would feel empty and emotionless, eg i would feel no love for family or girlfirend and no connection to the world, is this normal? has anyone else experianced this?
4)if i wait like 3 or 4 months would i be able to get high off a small amount and not experiance a comedown like i used too?
any other comments on your experiances with mcat would be truely apriciated, no one seems to know much but i need help with this.
have you ever heavily abused meph? and also with regards to question number 2) i had been heavily abusing it and noticed euphoria had gone and so i stoped for about 2 weeks and a friend had some very good quality stuff, and offerd me a line, i felt the amazing effects again and ended up having another night (did about an eigth) on it which went well untill i ended up on a huge comedown in the morning - this was the last time i heavily abused it and since then i have only done small amounts ( a gram each time) do you think its possible for the feeling to come back as it did last time i quit? (as i just described) also when i talk about the 6 grams i did over the last 3 months, they were off random people i met, not my trustworthy dealer who sells good quality stuff, do you think that theres a possibility that i didnt feel euphoria because it was bad quality? is there anything more you know about the euphoria stuff? is there any chance it will come back?