Heroin Makes me very angry - emotional

[ItsclearlyFake]

When I snort heroin, as with almost any opiate in the past, I do them to forget my life/avoidance, but is funny because with snorted heroin I actually have the biggest opiate rage/emotional thought rambling of all.

I usually take it at night 'to chill' but literally after 2-3 bumps I almost start always getting depressed/emotional rambling.

The first bump there is no issue because it has this euphoria/stimulation to it, but once it settles and the opiate more downer vibe sets in I literally start thinking about stuff non stop until I get depressed/rage. Lol.

For those that say 'but is because you are not doing enough', I am doing enough. I literally take until I get to the nod, but even in the nod I can 'unswitch' myself fast from that state and I start thinking again and get emotional rage because how the angry thoughts it produces in me in regards with some things or persons in my lifer in my life.

I find funny that literally sometimes I end up feeling mentally worse after taking heroin than before taking it. lmao.

 

[Dreamflyer]

The first bump there is no issue because it has this euphoria/stimulation to it, but once it settles and the opiate more downer vibe sets in I literally start thinking about stuff non stop until I get depressed/rage. Lol.

Yeah. When I was abusing Oxy years ago, it used to put me in an angry funk the same way that alcohol does. It's amazing that I never got fired because I had absolutely zero tolerance for customers, managers and co-workers.

I spent years using just to avoid withdrawals, because I no longer got anything even vaguely resembling a 'high'.