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Ha! My dog is sooooo happy now! Man, I've neglected him so much when I was slamming that shit. He was pretty confused then.
I remember locking my bedroom door and staying in there for days, rarely coming out. Most of the time he hung downstairs with my roommate but often he would scratch at my door and whimper. I would let him in and give him a shaky handed head rub and return to the bathroom. He would come in and firmly press his head against my leg and wag his tail as he pushed as close as possible against me.
If I was in the bathroom then that meant I had a needle in my arm (I was always in the bathroom). I would snap at my boy because I didn't want to be jostled while I was fishing for a vein. It had to have hurt his feelings because he would either go lay down somewhere in the bedroom or go downstairs. All he wanted to do was spend time with me and express love and be loved. I was too selfish to bother.
During this time frame I could see my boy aging and the facial expressions he had were those of sadness, confusion and hope.
Now my boy is acting like a goofy puppy again (he's almost 11)! He plays with every single toy in his toy basket and... ...haha! He gives me what I call 'magical kisses' all the time now.
Let me explain... ...I always lay on the floor with my boy and rub his ears, scratch his belly or kiss him on his face and nose. He'll often raise his head and lick my face and more particularly, my shaved head for about 5 minutes non-stop. Sometimes my head will be DRENCHED afterwards. He's probably just licking me to get salt but it still makes me feel like he's telling me he loves me.
I get TONS of magical kisses now that I'm somewhat clean.
He deserves happiness
Ha! My dog is sooooo happy now! Man, I've neglected him so much when I was slamming that shit. He was pretty confused then.
I remember locking my bedroom door and staying in there for days, rarely coming out. Most of the time he hung downstairs with my roommate but often he would scratch at my door and whimper. I would let him in and give him a shaky handed head rub and return to the bathroom. He would come in and firmly press his head against my leg and wag his tail as he pushed as close as possible against me.
If I was in the bathroom then that meant I had a needle in my arm (I was always in the bathroom). I would snap at my boy because I didn't want to be jostled while I was fishing for a vein. It had to have hurt his feelings because he would either go lay down somewhere in the bedroom or go downstairs. All he wanted to do was spend time with me and express love and be loved. I was too selfish to bother.
During this time frame I could see my boy aging and the facial expressions he had were those of sadness, confusion and hope.
Now my boy is acting like a goofy puppy again (he's almost 11)! He plays with every single toy in his toy basket and... ...haha! He gives me what I call 'magical kisses' all the time now.
Let me explain... ...I always lay on the floor with my boy and rub his ears, scratch his belly or kiss him on his face and nose. He'll often raise his head and lick my face and more particularly, my shaved head for about 5 minutes non-stop. Sometimes my head will be DRENCHED afterwards. He's probably just licking me to get salt but it still makes me feel like he's telling me he loves me.
I get TONS of magical kisses now that I'm somewhat clean.
He deserves happiness