MA Heroin V We Overdraft Our Shit 2

Status
Not open for further replies.
Uhhh. I kinda had a hard time reading that. Idk you worded that pretty strangely man.. Maybe it's just me, cause I am kinda high off this dope that I copped an hour ago... lol
Actually, after re-reading your post.. You did indeed type that up weird as fuck.. I'm having trouble understanding you, man. lmao

Edit:
From what I can understand - You've already done a blast this week, and you're planning on blasting off again in the same week.
I think that's okay, actually.
If you're not doing it in consecutive days, then imo, it's deemed as 'okay'
Just don't make a habit out of it, but you already know this.

I say go for it, man! Blast off!!!! & I'll see you in space! hahaha
 
Last edited:
yea, something like that. just go tall new shit for apartment, bought a ton, spent like 2k, and now that I am back out, nice new place, have it all, etc, right away my mind goes.. "lets get dope to celebrate". should that even be something I consider? sounds fucked up, no?

I want to go use my "drugs" to celebrate my new apartment?
 
Hmm. Yeah, buddy.. As much as I'd love to say "Yeah man! Fuckin' celebrate!"
I really can't.. I mean.. I would certainly celebrate that with drug use, but that's just me. and part of me says it's wrong.
Look at it this way - Right now, you have something good going for you. Shit is getting back on track, and you're flying right.
Why fuck it all up, AGAIN?

If I remember correctly, you've been clean for awhile now, with just a few minor slip ups...
If you start using again, you're not going to have a nice new apartment anymore.
Don't fuck it up, bro. Stay clean. From one brother, to another. Don't fuck this up.
You're lucky to be where you are right now. Don't throw it all down the drain, man.
 
BostonBrownTown said:
yea, something like that. just go tall new shit for apartment, bought a ton, spent like 2k, and now that I am back out, nice new place, have it all, etc, right away my mind goes.. "lets get dope to celebrate". should that even be something I consider? sounds fucked up, no?

I want to go use my "drugs" to celebrate my new apartment?
Click to expand...

So... you're trying to justify relapsing again.. ? Go for it. But if you do, that should be the end of all your high and mighty speeches about how well the suboxone is working for you, how happy you are in sobriety, and how you're never going to go back to dope...
 
i agree as well. The suboxone is obviously not working. if you're thinking about this now and give in then what is gonna happen when you get off and no longer have this crutch? You're gonna go back to being a dopehead. thats why im gonna be on vivotrol soon, because subs are not working for me and if i got off them now id just go right back out so im gonna try a different approach.

For me the subs give me a very small overall boost but not really like before when i first got on them. That boost made me wanna go look for the real thing and now i know subs wont work for me so im getting the shot. And also the fact that i can stop taking them for a few days and go get high isnt good in my book either so im trying to help myself and X these things out. fuck subs. they suck and dont work for me but im not gonna say that my experience is gonna be someone elses but BBT if you've relapsed once and you're about to relapse again with a bullshit excuse then its apparent the subs are not working and you might wanna find a new plan or listen to your doctor and not try to do it yourself. just think. if your way didnt work before then why are you trying your way again. let your doctor know whats up and start listening to his advice. Good luck Broski
 
right now im on subs at 8mg a day but ill be going on the shot feb 5th. theres this new thing theyre doing where you dont have to be clean from subs for 10 days. they give you the shot then load you up on subs for a few days and the transition is smooth. its been done on others in the program and no one complained. If something was gonna go wrong someone in my groups would have told me im sure but everyone whose done it had a painless transition.

i know i see him feb 5th and im pretty sure i get the shot then or hopefully at least very soon after.
 
For some reason, having a bunch of nice stuff and a nice place to live never really did it for me like getting high...Unfortunately, sooner or later, I always choose dope over everything.

I can go months, maybe even years if I'm not around the shit and I'm doing other shit....but sooner or later I just go crazy and I just have to shoot dope no matter what. Once I make that decision, I don't think I've ever just walked away...and I've had family and friends crying, begging me not to do it!

When I need to get high I need to get high, that's the only way I can explain it. Anyone who tries to stand in my way I end up hating...until I get high, then I feel kind of bad for being an asshole, but mostly just happy that I got high!
 
^Whats all the nice shit matter if you can't enjoy it? I dream of a world where I can have both.
 
BlueHues said:
For some reason, having a bunch of nice stuff and a nice place to live never really did it for me like getting high...Unfortunately, sooner or later, I always choose dope over everything.

I can go months, maybe even years if I'm not around the shit and I'm doing other shit....but sooner or later I just go crazy and I just have to shoot dope no matter what. Once I make that decision, I don't think I've ever just walked away...and I've had family and friends crying, begging me not to do it!

When I need to get high I need to get high, that's the only way I can explain it. Anyone who tries to stand in my way I end up hating...until I get high, then I feel kind of bad for being an asshole, but mostly just happy that I got high!
Click to expand...
I can totally relate to this Sums it up really well.
 
BlueHues said:
For some reason, having a bunch of nice stuff and a nice place to live never really did it for me like getting high...Unfortunately, sooner or later, I always choose dope over everything.

I can go months, maybe even years if I'm not around the shit and I'm doing other shit....but sooner or later I just go crazy and I just have to shoot dope no matter what. Once I make that decision, I don't think I've ever just walked away...and I've had family and friends crying, begging me not to do it!

When I need to get high I need to get high, that's the only way I can explain it. Anyone who tries to stand in my way I end up hating...until I get high, then I feel kind of bad for being an asshole, but mostly just happy that I got high!
Click to expand...
right now I have a new sick place to be living; making good money at the job, etc. but I know what youre saying. although, I was fucking miserable toward the end of my dope run but there were times that money, places, things didnt matter. just chilling there w/ that feeling/buzz/jam got to you. in way nothing else could. kinda a sick thought to be saying right now esp cuz I am thinking of using today. havent take a bupe since yesterday morning at 9AM - took 8MG's - waiting to see how long this plays but I am truly thinking of getting high; so maybe time to take?
 
BostonBrownTown said:
right now I have a new sick place to be living; making good money at the job, etc. but I know what youre saying. although, I was fucking miserable toward the end of my dope run but there were times that money, places, things didnt matter. just chilling there w/ that feeling/buzz/jam got to you. in way nothing else could. kinda a sick thought to be saying right now esp cuz I am thinking of using today. havent take a bupe since yesterday morning at 9AM - took 8MG's - waiting to see how long this plays but I am truly thinking of getting high; so maybe time to take?
Click to expand...
Thinking like you are is what brought me to my latest run. Sure you can use once in a while that's how it gets you. That is what I used to do skip my bupe then get loaded for a few days. Pretty soon you are blowing your bill money on dope.
 
I was back on the East Coast again, for the second time in a month. I got high on dope for about 60 straight hours with my friend who just buys however much he wants.

I have nowhere near the tolerance I used to, and I was fucked up, nodding out the majority of the time. That...remembering how I used to feel never doing anything or ever going out for years and seeing how fucking ridiculous my friends habit has become, really depresses me.

I've been trying to take my Suboxone since late Friday night...ha!

Its not like I shot a few bags and took my suboxone the next day, I had to keep doing more every few hours for the better part of three days! I almost just kept going...but finally managed to walk out of there. Driving long distance by yourself half dopesick is not fun...getting chills cranking the heat in the car up....sore, nasty dope sweatsp...I would just avoid it and take suboxone. I don't think I know anyone with a dope habit who's truly happy...
 
boys- I took 8MG bupe yesterday morning around 7AM; I still feel OK; I have a gram coming and was gonna shoot half cuz I used to shoot half to full at once; should I just stick w/ a half? or maybe a 1/4? not sure cuz I've been somewhat sober for 5 months w/ no SHOOTING of dope; I did sniff a gram but it was 6 hours later after I did 6MP dope.

advice? its on its way any second.
 
Status
Not open for further replies.
Top