StoneHappyMonday
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FUBAR’s right.
@F.U.B.A.R.: what kind of flower is a hypochondria. egyptian, chinese, martian maybe?
@F.U.B.A.R.: i have heard of that one, it grows on the banks of da nile. i'm not keen on it's fragrance cause it really sphinx.
I'm in USA the lawyers have made everyone offended at farts.Americans are generally a bunch of whining winge bags.
Americans are generally a bunch of whining winge bags.
I got brain zaps from discontinuing rascal benzos but mdma only gave a hangover on par with a bad alcohol hangover minus the vertico and nausea.
FUBAR’s right.
I must have an insane threshold because I had brain zaps for days. I didn't know you couldn't quit cold turkey went from snorting 12mg Xan powder at a time 3x a day to nothing because it stopped working after a few months. Didn't go to the ER until day 5 and they gave me 16x 25mg Librium which were thankfully capsules I could break down further. Then two years later I got way worse with etizolam powder was taking 70mg at a time orally and that was after I went to the hospital again from using propylene glycol to vol. dose which gave me metabolic encephalopathy. Hallucinated for days the memory haunts me still. People turning into batteries and hammers, thought my cat got sucked down the toilet just from me flushing it. A little machine in the walls driving me insane keeping me awake. Lasers, military police, went to riots/ demonstrations in cities around the world with cops on giant wierd metal horses on train tracks. Wierd barometric chamber jumbo planes and pulled helicopters with my head, not my brain. Very wierd gravity effects. Much more shit I can't explain like splicing of worlds. But yeah, after that happened was doing 70mg etiz at a time (so stupid) and luckily diclazepam is miraculous, never touched bensons again. Thank God for r/c market. Never had a seizure afaik but maybe blacked out during or something idk. Then right after I went to college (G.I. Bill) and got a decent desk job after working in shithole factories my whole life. Funny seeing semi-distant relatives right after. They think I'm insane because my uncle told everybody and recorded me instead of taking me to the hospital. Then I tell them about an awesome new job and show them a video of me playing Bach - Solfeggietto on keyboard and their brain breaks.Benzo brain zaps = imminent seizure. If you missed it, you were sailing very close to a grand mal.
When I get benzo brain zaps it makes music glitch because my brain has just been scrambled with electrical signals for a split second.
I must have an insane threshold because I had brain zaps for days. I didn't know you couldn't quit cold turkey went from snorting 12mg Xan powder at a time 3x a day to nothing because it stopped working after a few months. Didn't go to the ER until day 5 and they gave me 16x 25mg Librium which were thankfully capsules I could break down further. Then two years later I got way worse with etizolam powder was taking 70mg at a time orally and that was after I went to the hospital again from using propylene glycol to vol. dose which gave me metabolic encephalopathy. Hallucinated for days the memory haunts me still. People turning into batteries and hammers, thought my cat got sucked down the toilet just from me flushing it. A little machine in the walls driving me insane keeping me awake. Lasers, military police, went to riots/ demonstrations in cities around the world with cops on giant wierd metal horses on train tracks. Wierd barometric chamber jumbo planes and pulled helicopters with my head, not my brain. Very wierd gravity effects. Much more shit I can't explain like splicing of worlds. But yeah, after that happened was doing 70mg etiz at a time (so stupid) and luckily diclazepam is miraculous, never touched bensons again. Thank God for r/c market. Never had a seizure afaik but maybe blacked out during or something idk. Then right after I went to college (G.I. Bill) and got a decent desk job after working in shithole factories my whole life. Funny seeing semi-distant relatives right after. They think I'm insane because my uncle told everybody and recorded me instead of taking me to the hospital. Then I tell them about an awesome new job and show them a video of me playing Bach - Solfeggietto on keyboard and their brain breaks.
Monday
18:25 - Etiz 126mg
19:09 swallowed
I need to feel good tonight because that first dose was borderline. I need this to reside into tomorrow so i can order more tonight and ride the high tomorrow. Otherewise the last dose wille do zilch.
19:40
lots of coffee and a line of ephenidine to get me on decks. Parents noticed speech was slowed but believed it was the propranolol. Ended on good terms. Need to be alert.
21:25 ~ - cdp choline
21:35:
Sulbutiamine 650mg
Phenylpiracetam 204mg
tues
etiz 72mg~ and licked bag etc 10:25
thurs
etiz
dose: 120mg with plastic dish, 126mg with golden dish/card *************** last dose before cheapchems - took 140mg
time: 13:05
wasnt enough, but i dont know how much i took. Need more. Lots to do today.
*The plastic dish is out by 6-8mg~
Dose: 20mg with golden dish
time: 13:40
Feeling okay. this is probably a low maintenance dose. I feel positive. Cant go higher now.
14:43 - Phenylpiracetam 224mg
14:45 - Sulbutiamine 674 mg
14:49 - Oxiracetam 508
14:49 - cdp choline
54:02 l-theanine in coffee
high fat smoothie
saturday
14:46 - 136mg etizolam powder
15:33 - 30mg etizolam powder
15:59 - 36
= 202mg so far(nothing)
16:34 54mg etizolam
!!!!i.e 256mg etizolam in total!!!!
17:15: 44mg etizolam sublingually
17:35: swallowed above 44mg
** I have now taken 300mg in four~ hours) and felt fuck all**
**Maybe a very mind anti-anxiety effect but also a feeling of tiredness**
19:00 pm - 66mg orally consumed in orange juice for taste
214mg L-Theanine (weighting in cup)
sunday
weigh out 66-70mg Diphenidine for waking up
600mg Sulbutiamine
cdp choline
600mg Oxiracetam
214mg L-Theanine
Tuesday:
Tuesday:
12:18am - 148mg etizolam
12:40 - 50mg etizolam
*so 200mg in 22 minutes
Feel tired. Maintenance dose to put off the seizures/withdrawals but dont feel amazing anymore. No Magic. Feel tired. Is this even etizolam? Do I just need more? Lets find out
12:40 50mg etizolam
13:15 - 50mg etizolam
so 300mg again.
I've had a good day sorting shit but it's just not the same. so slow.
Need coffeee. Feel maybe tired and sluggish. Somethings up.
nootropics:
from 14:33
Coffeee
L-Theanine - 120mg
cdp choline - 14:35
oxiracetam - 14:37 - 656mg
phenylpiracetam - 204mg - 14:51
L-theanine - 134mg to have with strong coffeee
Sulbutiamine 15:01 - 608mg
Definitely more switched on.
cdp choline - 18:22
1500mg aniracetam -
Aniracetam 1500mg
coffee
Fri/29/4/2016
10:41am - 250mg etizolam. Felt good for a short while when coming up, then just generally tired and it wore off fast. None of that wholemark etizolam energy. or positivity, except a very short while. Usually this lasts two days!
Tried blasting it away with nootropics and I can't really remember if they worked. They musn't have done because I've spent the day doing very basic ordinary tasks (weighing out the rest of the etiz and seeing how much their was (18mg - ish), for wedinos.
Its 16:34 and I'm going to blast nootropics to try and get my brain on track:
I can not believe it's onl 16:37. I've just send a massive text including google research and all sorts.Time dileation? Unless if was 16:24 I guess..... more likely really. Or is it?
16:41
2 Ginseng
16:41
100-200 phenylpiracetam
Aniracetam 750mg
Oxiracetam 500mg
Sulbutiamine 800mg
Tues May 10th 2016
11:25: Toook 5mg etizolam from the red tablets
Felt a very nice borderline tizzie dose. Tolerance massively dropped since abstinenance/seizures.
12:01: took three more, so have 2 x 1mg etizolam left, and 6 10mg roche.
14:59pm: Took 6 x 10mg roche and 2 x 1 mg etizolam, somewhat sublingually
sat: 4.30 remaining tizzie cap - nothing happened
Tues 17/5/2016
11:40am: etiz powder 2mg~ on scale
12:05am: Etiz powder 2-4mg on paperclip dipped to bottom of bag
*A few cases of licking powder from hands - couldnt have been much a couple of mg, if that.
*First go with propelene Gylcole: Going for 20mg ~2mg (Probably 20-22mg etizolam) in 10ml glycole.
*So
10ml propelene glycole (solution) / 20mg etizolam Powder (Substance)
= 10ml PG (solution) / 20mg Etizolam (Substance)
= 0.5ml = 1mg etizolam
- 1ml = 2mg
Using liquid dropper on olive oil dropper bottler =
10 single drops = 0.25ml
20 single drops = 0.5ml
30 single drops = 0.75ml
40 single drops = 1 ml
***1ml solution = 2mg etizolam
*Feeling very mildly tizzied; a bit slow without the good bits.
took nootropics - sulbutiamine 150mg, aniracetam (3 scoops), oxiracetam 400-500mg, noopept 40mg, l-theanine, lots of coffee. Sorted me out a bit
Filled 5ml pipette with 10mg etizolam
15:10 - took 1ml aka 2mg etizolam
15:34 - nothing so 1ml aka 2mg etizolam
16:05 - nothing so 2ml aka 4mg etizolam
16:24 - nothing so taking rest 1ml = 2mg
10mg in total - feeling nothing much, just slow
Only 4ml left in pipette - should be 5ml
17:35: Taking 2ml i.e 4mg
17:50 Taking 2ml i.e 4mg
nothing happened. weighed out 20mg and took half, then the rest. didnt make note of time with the first one but took rest at 9:07
19:35: 20mg in one go
19:54: 24mg in one go
feeling nice but want notropics
took depheidine felt moderately dicciated
*it it crucial that i plan my time better
Inevitably ened up canny fucked off tizzies, it's just i didnt notice because it came on after so long.