Ego death is ...amazing... in a few words it is just feeling... just percieving. merely being. and finding massive release through it.
your thoughts are no longer restraining. your thoughts are all there at once, you are a culmination of all you ever have been, all your are... but you feel no anxiety. if you repeat the words.
I AM
repeatedly you could possibly catch a glimpse.
people use certain methods to bring ego-death into play.
drumming... chanting...physical exertion... mental excersizes
i'm a little off base but it really is beyond explaination.
Your in a trance and your no longer confined to your body. you observe. and you see your personality for what it is... a network of illusion and "not enoughs", and "too muches"
you simply ARE
I AM
we all are. but if you want a universal truth just say it
I AM
then maybe start humming at the end of AM
expectations fade. just know what the mind does, study it. and eventually you will see yourself... but your also thinking about seeing yourself. view yourself objectively. or third person.
theres no real YOU, there are alot of people, everywhere, were all biological organisms and we all think were far different from that. we think we are what we think. shortcomings, we focus on shortcomings and create our personalities from them.
you see your hand.. you can move it... any way you want... what is compelling me to do this? who is me? what AM I?
a human? who told you this? it's just reliable information, its everywhere. I can see me and can tell that i'm one of you so i'm what you are, and everyone says were human. every answer leads to more questions if you simply accept these things then your falling short of the whole perspective. Of course were all human but were also all .. alive and doing things very hard to explain things and why do we do them? instinct? intuition... well what the hell is guiding that?
just ask questions every chance, even if you can't or wont answer them... know that everything is relative and if you ask enough questions then the reference point is gone.. words are made of words and they describe other words. where is the universal reference point?
The bold fact that this plane of existince is HAPPENING, i'm not saying it's real i'm saying that it is all indeed happening. that wording is harder to disprove than other perspective frames of existence.
but really... you are wild, you are impolite, your real! you are on a slope of evolution...a slope, I mean what is now came from something before it. and that is wild, we came from the wild uncivilized, but what makes us there at this big important point? well our perspective.
and if you want ego-death is you want to experience, well it is pure perception itself, like how an animal retreats for its like it doesnt think of all these things it is and isn't, it fucking runs!
you get pulled from you, and you realize alot at once. but mostly that the mind is NON-LOCAL
I wish I could do a better job at this. I've experienced this 3-4 times, only out at my cabin, my dream-like happy place.
oh my god I want it to be summer!!
(please critisize this experts, but just don't claim I havent been there)