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LSD-experienced- Oh god, why another bad scene in this world of windows?

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The night started out quiet but raining slightly. I was laying on my couch watching tv, after a long tiring day at work, when the phone rang. It was my friend, he had finally gotten ahold of some acid; a 10-strip. I instantly woke up out of my fatigue and got excited. He said he would be over in 20 minutes, so I took that time to clean up and prepare a trip friendly environment.

He got over, and suprised me with his generosity when he handed me half of his 10 strip; 5 bright blue geltabs. I asked how powerful it was supposed to be, and he said "I don't know but I am taking all 5" he said with a mischevious grin. I thought about it for a minute, thought about how much trouble i would get in if something happened, because I am on probation for a drug related incident in which I sort of lost my mind.

I decided to take 1 and wait and see how hard my friend B was tripping. We sat and played GTA san andreas while waiting for it to kick in. After about 20 minutes B said "Oooh man. I'm feeling it!" he said with excitement. His eyes looked wide and dilated. Then, after 40 minutes after taking them, I started feeling that nervous odd stimulation. It was good in a way, but weird also. I started seeing visuals; squiggly lines wiggling all over everything and shimerring with bright colors.

B kept staring at his hands.. like really staring into them without moving or saying anything for minutes at a time. At times he muttered "wow.." then at about T+2hrs, he was laying down with his eyes wide open, ocasionally twitching or talking nonsense. He had a big smile most of the time. I started craving an intense psychedelic experience, as i was just getting a tease, so I looked at the other 4 hits and without hesitation put them under my tongue.

***

The world is melting, I am melting, my ego is gone. I am flying out of my body existing as different shapes in some kind of weird, bright reality. There is an intense but dissasociated fear that went right along with me, even if "I" was some weird consciousness stuck in a time loop in between dimensions. A face, very twisted and unrecognizable appears in the center of my viewing area, which seemed to be 360 degrees. The face was angry and yelling. It was a threat to the flow of consciousness, I thought... In this reality "I" had no concept of right or wrong, death or life, up or down, time and space, nothing. There were mirrors and windows that appeared everywhere, and I thought (not using words) that these were portals. Then I started getting more negative vibes. The face was threatening my waves of energy. A window appeared and showed me that I had force potential.

I send out an emission of force towards the face, and use what I think is my body now to focus the force. I am feeling some resistance from this entity.. it is strong in its powers almost like me. The zaps thump against my 4th dimensional consciousness. My vision twists backwards and to black as my body tries to tell me somethings wrong.

***

I wake up from some state of mind that wasn't sleep, but I don't remember it. I am leaning against kitchen cabinents, my ass on the floor, legs stretched out. Electric signals of pain fly through me in random places. My vision is still active in producing bending and breathing but it is like calm lakewater compared to the tidal wave of visual activity before.

I get up. Blood is on my hands. The living room is trashed; couches moved, books ripped up, my expensive lamp broken. I feel dread sink all through me, with mixes together badly with the physical pain. I see B laying beside the heat register. He is in the fetal position and appears to be sleeping. He has red and blue marks all over his face.

We later get ourselves together and clean up the mess. It appeared we both went nuts and beat each other up, and tore the room up. We didn't suffer serious injuries besides cuts and bruises which hurt to the bones. B had to tell his parents he got in a fight with someone and he got in trouble. Both of our knuckles were swelled, blood splattered and red.

I can still remember unleashing some of that insane "force" i used. I didn't really know what I was, I just thought the concept of sending out force beams but I wasn't thinking in words. It was definately not me, I was a psychotic ghost.

B said he will never trip again.

I said I will take just as much, but next time I want to be in the woods where its safer.
 
That sounds really traumatic, I hope you are feeling OK now.

I'm just reading PIHKAL and Ann Shulgin describes the first time she encounters a malevolent presence when tripping. She realises that to try to counter it with an opposing force will only result in a conflict from which she could not possibly emerge unharmed. So she turns her attention away from it and focuses entirely on imagining herself cradling a baby. In other words she concentrates on all the good human emotions, loving and caring and nurturing. I never had a baby, and I'm lucky enough not to have come across any nasties on my trips, but if I did I could do the same kind of thing by imagining cuddling my boyfriend or my cat. When she next looked, the figure had gone - lost interest because it wasn't able to exert that pull on her. I'm only saying this because maybe it was your "concept of sending out force beams" that got you into trouble - I can just imagine what they translated into when you were off your head! :\

I know someone who had a similar experience years ago. He and his mate pulled a knife on each other. Luckily someone turned up and sorted them out. Must be a boy thing...8)

Good luck next time, if you try it again. Pity you didn't have someone filming this, you could have made a fortune showing it as a follow-up to Jacob's Ladder!
 
Yea, next time I will at least try to be more cautious about where i throw my energy beams, heheh.

I am just glad nothing worse happened here, because we were both so far out, we could have killed each other, or broke my big window, ran outside, etc.

So heres another warning trip report (in addition to my idiotic valium one). I guess I haven't been to careful with my drugs sometimes but thats changing :/
 
Thats an insane trip report.

I would suggest you take a smaller dose next time.
Ive never seen or even heard of any one losing control like that and becoming violent while on acid.
Iv had illusions of being god before but it was always in a purely loving, joyous way.
I dunno man. be safe.

peace.
 
Although things don't always take a violent turn, people do see this personification of threat quite often, don't they? It takes different forms and I wonder if represents the really bad things that have happened to us, that we want to hit back at in the hope of disabling their power and ensuring they don't threaten us again. But there's never any point trying to settle scores with destiny, it doesn't work. Human experience proves you always get back what you put out, sometimes more than you're prepared for, so maybe try another approach in future and it might change more than just your trips. It's about distancing yourself from the threat, refusing to let it trick you into thinking it's all yours to deal with, and not just the random terrible shit that happens to us all in different ways. Acknowledging its presence but focusing on the good, true, loving things about yourself gives you a different kind of power you might not have realized you had.

If you're going to trip again, maybe have a sitter with you who knows what's happened and can help talk you down a different route if you need it. Or just equip them with a bloody big net and a stun dart just in case! :)
 
^ I think the cause of it is too much adrenaline, on top of being fucked up. The adrenaline triggers a flight or fight response and you feel anxiety and danger.
 
Cat Again said:
Iv had illusions of being god before but it was always in a purely loving, joyous way.
I dunno man. be safe.

peace. [/B]


You too?

man....i dunno if they're illusions or not, but "being God" was the most mysterious, fun, breathtaking, confusing" time of my life while tripping LSD.

what a trip man...what a trip..

can you tell me some about what you were thinking possibly at that time?
 
Yeah, i've known people to flip out on acid like that, in a dream world where they cannot understand how they are really affecting reality. This guy on a boatload of acid took all his clothes off and ran around screaming at a rave. He woke up in hospital beaten way up, probably by security. I agree with the idea of flowing with the forceful energy and trying to thing happy thoughts rather than fighting it. Kinda like a tai chi thing ;).
 
That's happened before with LSD... completely being unaware of what happened while some seriously incredible stuff is being released to the surface. Who knows what else you guys were saying or doing during that phase... It could have actually been helpful to get to the bottom of your mental issues..

The LSD can still help you experience your inner problems -- but for Gods Sake have a sober trip sitter next time !!!!!!!! you definitely need one!
 
That's damn crazy as hell. Too much testosterone. Two guys in a house/apartment is like cageing two tigers. Next time think about doseing in a pleasent, stimulating environment.

When I dose at home, after about two hours I have to go outside somewhere, like a club with gorgeous dancers, cool forest, desert wash/canyon or a fresh water lake/river.

Peace & Love!
 
why do people take silly doeses of drugs - i don't think i've take a full tab or pill (for that matter) for 2-3 years and still have as much fun.

In fact once i'm well into partial dose and comfortable i push forward with the remaining dose and extend experince.

seems to me people thing more equates to a better effect......which is bullshit of course
 
you took 5 hits of acid, beat someone to a pulp and are still happy to take just as much? good luck with that.
 
Jesus, had a bit of a bad one at a festival recently but not that bad, could of been that bad had i taken your extreme dose, its funny i find mushies to be quite gentle in the "i don't know what the fuck im doing in the present, past and future" but acid is a different scope all together, been concentrating on yoga recently and that has helped some unpleasant energies subside maybe you should try that out, hoping to trip before my summer runs to an all time low.

Take it EASY

peace
 
wow, sounds like some of my crazy trips or maybe this was crazier. I never kicked anyones ass though (that didn't deserve it)
 
Wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 8(
I have had some experiences just like that. The bad can be just as intense as the good. Very scary to wake up in total disarray with blood on you.
Sometimes less is more.
 
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