Hawain Baby Woodrose Seeds
Recently got a 5g bag of these seeds after doing a lot of research into them first so I knew what I was getting myself into. Every single minute of the experience was a totally different experience in its own right and so is hard to put it all down and give it justice for what happened.
Anyway, onto what happened.
24-Apr-2003
The seeds were not prepared in any way before-hand. No stripping of seeds or soaking in water.
Initial come-up
19:14 - Lightly chewed 7 seeds one by one.
19:37 - A VERY light change. Almost unnoticable. Put it down to placebo.
19:5x - When talking to a mate realised I felt "different" and the rooms I was in felt new. Realised I was looking around the room with the curiosity of a baby.
20:00 - Things were now definately happening. Almost as if I had become a child in a strange world. the music that was playing began to envelop my head and I was getting incredible stereo effects without any effort to stand in postion with the speakers. The seeds definately couse you to laugh a lot. Everything seems to have a funny side to it. Objects, people. I was constantly grinning like a lunatic for a lot of the time I was talking to friends.
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The come-up continued beyond this but
there was a complete loss of time perception or need for structure in life at all. Almost felt like the minds own internal structure had broken down and all perception became a mix. There was definately a lot of confusion which on a couple of occasions caused some difficult parts of the trip(bad trip). The trip could definately not be described as either ALL good or ALL bad. It was a very transient state.
In the house I felt almost like human beings were a burden as I felt the need to teach them....."something". I went from periods of being scared of people to connecting with them almost as strongly as with MDMA. There was also a period of time when playing music alone in the dark of my room I felt I was on MDMA. The whole effect lasted probably 15 mins but like I say all moods are very changeable. I spent time outside on a derelict area near my house communicating with nature(I know it sounds odd!) taking pictures with a digital camera. I seemed physically capable and rarely forgot things but I never trusted my own ability on this as in this state anything could happen!
There were VERY temporary clearings of mind in which I felt almost completely "human/sober" but these quickly went.
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A quick glimmer into the peak of the trip
22:18 [I wrote this at the time of the experience so it won't make much sense but will give an idea of mind state]:
Explaining this in words is almost impossible. Semantics do not comprehend the enormity of this experience.
To become one with colours of the minds eye is intense. To see the true nature of the hand.
I see electricity in all I represent of the things. I'm jabbering like a lunatic. I apologise.
Let us begin:
Shapes........form........have special meaning like no other.
Must eat. Be back in a mo.
I realise a lot of thingas now about myself that I never knew before.
People I associate with nutmeg.
I hope what I fear you are is not real My mind is nowehere and everywhere at once. The room is moving more than I can comprehend in wordsd. I feel like the keyoboard is me. I'm Linked
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The bad parts of the trip included a feeling of rejection from nature because I was human and human beings I felt were a plague which caused me to feel ashamed and hurt. There was a lot of passing but intense paranoia and fear. The most intense feeling was that of feeling I had upset one of my friends which sent me into loops of rejection, fear, and loss. BUT friendship was also the ultimate guiding light in it all and so it always seemed to bring me round. It was after 10 hours(yes 10 hours!!) with me trying to sleep and still being affected with hallucinations and strange thought patterns that felt I was loosing touch with sanity, as if I'd never recover.
NOTE: I found humour always helped to bring me back out of a bad trip and my own mind often seemed to help by causing me to laugh. Its as if I was protected in a strange way from harming my mentality to much but was allowed to learn from the experience, which I did.
Sleep
It may be hard to sleep at the end but when you do try and rest as long as possible. I got up to early and regretted it. Felt like I'd been hit by a bus so had to go back to bed. Get at least 9-10hrs.
Nausea
The nausea was very strange. I had an iffy stomach before doing the seeds. Its hard to decide but I think the nausea - for me - was purely psychological. I only vomited three times. All of which caused by me forcing it with my fingers. I did it due to a mild sickness but definately not worthy of vomiting.
This is a VERY powerful drug, possibly THE most powerful drug I have had(I've done most). Although most people are ok on this stuff I can definately see how it could send some over the edge. Be careful. Peace
Recently got a 5g bag of these seeds after doing a lot of research into them first so I knew what I was getting myself into. Every single minute of the experience was a totally different experience in its own right and so is hard to put it all down and give it justice for what happened.
Anyway, onto what happened.
24-Apr-2003
The seeds were not prepared in any way before-hand. No stripping of seeds or soaking in water.
Initial come-up
19:14 - Lightly chewed 7 seeds one by one.
19:37 - A VERY light change. Almost unnoticable. Put it down to placebo.
19:5x - When talking to a mate realised I felt "different" and the rooms I was in felt new. Realised I was looking around the room with the curiosity of a baby.
20:00 - Things were now definately happening. Almost as if I had become a child in a strange world. the music that was playing began to envelop my head and I was getting incredible stereo effects without any effort to stand in postion with the speakers. The seeds definately couse you to laugh a lot. Everything seems to have a funny side to it. Objects, people. I was constantly grinning like a lunatic for a lot of the time I was talking to friends.
-----------------------------------------------
The come-up continued beyond this but
there was a complete loss of time perception or need for structure in life at all. Almost felt like the minds own internal structure had broken down and all perception became a mix. There was definately a lot of confusion which on a couple of occasions caused some difficult parts of the trip(bad trip). The trip could definately not be described as either ALL good or ALL bad. It was a very transient state.
In the house I felt almost like human beings were a burden as I felt the need to teach them....."something". I went from periods of being scared of people to connecting with them almost as strongly as with MDMA. There was also a period of time when playing music alone in the dark of my room I felt I was on MDMA. The whole effect lasted probably 15 mins but like I say all moods are very changeable. I spent time outside on a derelict area near my house communicating with nature(I know it sounds odd!) taking pictures with a digital camera. I seemed physically capable and rarely forgot things but I never trusted my own ability on this as in this state anything could happen!
There were VERY temporary clearings of mind in which I felt almost completely "human/sober" but these quickly went.
-------------------------------------------------
A quick glimmer into the peak of the trip
22:18 [I wrote this at the time of the experience so it won't make much sense but will give an idea of mind state]:
Explaining this in words is almost impossible. Semantics do not comprehend the enormity of this experience.
To become one with colours of the minds eye is intense. To see the true nature of the hand.
I see electricity in all I represent of the things. I'm jabbering like a lunatic. I apologise.
Let us begin:
Shapes........form........have special meaning like no other.
Must eat. Be back in a mo.
I realise a lot of thingas now about myself that I never knew before.
People I associate with nutmeg.
I hope what I fear you are is not real My mind is nowehere and everywhere at once. The room is moving more than I can comprehend in wordsd. I feel like the keyoboard is me. I'm Linked
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The bad parts of the trip included a feeling of rejection from nature because I was human and human beings I felt were a plague which caused me to feel ashamed and hurt. There was a lot of passing but intense paranoia and fear. The most intense feeling was that of feeling I had upset one of my friends which sent me into loops of rejection, fear, and loss. BUT friendship was also the ultimate guiding light in it all and so it always seemed to bring me round. It was after 10 hours(yes 10 hours!!) with me trying to sleep and still being affected with hallucinations and strange thought patterns that felt I was loosing touch with sanity, as if I'd never recover.
NOTE: I found humour always helped to bring me back out of a bad trip and my own mind often seemed to help by causing me to laugh. Its as if I was protected in a strange way from harming my mentality to much but was allowed to learn from the experience, which I did.
Sleep
It may be hard to sleep at the end but when you do try and rest as long as possible. I got up to early and regretted it. Felt like I'd been hit by a bus so had to go back to bed. Get at least 9-10hrs.
Nausea
The nausea was very strange. I had an iffy stomach before doing the seeds. Its hard to decide but I think the nausea - for me - was purely psychological. I only vomited three times. All of which caused by me forcing it with my fingers. I did it due to a mild sickness but definately not worthy of vomiting.
This is a VERY powerful drug, possibly THE most powerful drug I have had(I've done most). Although most people are ok on this stuff I can definately see how it could send some over the edge. Be careful. Peace
