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I feel very lost and any help would be appreciated. Although the forums can be entertaining and informative i think with different opinions and contradictions it may hinder my life struggle. So i thought i'd write my own thread to hopefully get direct answers.
Apparently I was diagnosed with schizoaffective. But having read up on p.a.w.s is it even possible its all withdrawal?. Weed was my drug of choice, i smoked it from about 16 onwards. When i got to 24 ish i really made an effort to cut the weed out for good. After quitting for several weeks i encountered pretty bad psychosis with and attempt on my life. I spent sometime on a mental health ward.
To cut a long story short the last 10 years has been living hell. I have had few periods of normality, many attempts to quit weed and alcohol which is also a problem. I feel its got so complicated and i've been through so much that i don't know how to express this, but will try.
Ive never been off weed more than 2-3 months and i've had more psychosis during this withdrawal period. Weed gives me chest pains now.
I'am completely confused about how to live either a drug free with moderate drinking life or an abstinent life. I tried AA , NA , and it wasnt for me, thats a different argument though. I believe AA prescribes relapse, its depressing and they mourn the addiction ... one day at a time. I'm too diplomatic and objectionable to think there scare tactics and cult procedures . I went on the intuitive recovery four day course which is the same approach as jack trimpeys rational recovery book. This was by far the best approach for me but i feel i didn't last long in sobriety because of my psychological problems.
I have offered counseling but they say i need to be sober.
Ive been on various combos of meds, at the moment its resperidone and sertraline. Non have worked. If i'm on a sober run I end up losing the plot and life is more difficult than in addiction. It almost feels like a need these addictions to feel relatively normal.
Is there any such thing as addictive personality? Doesn't it run in the family? Genetic research suggest it does after looking into it. Yet other people say it's a predisposition.
I really want to be a good person, job , house, girlfriend but I feel sapped of all ambition, self esteem and confidence.
Obviously I could go into a lot more detail but that's the basics. Anyone else with schizoaffective have any advice? What do I do? sorry bout the spelling i'm a bit rusty.
Cheers
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Baconstrips &
Apparently I was diagnosed with schizoaffective. But having read up on p.a.w.s is it even possible its all withdrawal?. Weed was my drug of choice, i smoked it from about 16 onwards. When i got to 24 ish i really made an effort to cut the weed out for good. After quitting for several weeks i encountered pretty bad psychosis with and attempt on my life. I spent sometime on a mental health ward.
To cut a long story short the last 10 years has been living hell. I have had few periods of normality, many attempts to quit weed and alcohol which is also a problem. I feel its got so complicated and i've been through so much that i don't know how to express this, but will try.
Ive never been off weed more than 2-3 months and i've had more psychosis during this withdrawal period. Weed gives me chest pains now.
I'am completely confused about how to live either a drug free with moderate drinking life or an abstinent life. I tried AA , NA , and it wasnt for me, thats a different argument though. I believe AA prescribes relapse, its depressing and they mourn the addiction ... one day at a time. I'm too diplomatic and objectionable to think there scare tactics and cult procedures . I went on the intuitive recovery four day course which is the same approach as jack trimpeys rational recovery book. This was by far the best approach for me but i feel i didn't last long in sobriety because of my psychological problems.
I have offered counseling but they say i need to be sober.
Ive been on various combos of meds, at the moment its resperidone and sertraline. Non have worked. If i'm on a sober run I end up losing the plot and life is more difficult than in addiction. It almost feels like a need these addictions to feel relatively normal.
Is there any such thing as addictive personality? Doesn't it run in the family? Genetic research suggest it does after looking into it. Yet other people say it's a predisposition.
I really want to be a good person, job , house, girlfriend but I feel sapped of all ambition, self esteem and confidence.
Obviously I could go into a lot more detail but that's the basics. Anyone else with schizoaffective have any advice? What do I do? sorry bout the spelling i'm a bit rusty.
Cheers
bacon strips &
Baconstrips &
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