Benzopiates
Bluelighter
Hi guys, I've been using quite alot of hydromorphone lately, What pisses me off the most is I can't seem to be able to stop even tho everyone is telling me my dosing is very low.
At the moment I'm using around 8 to 16mg per day, Injected from pills of course.... I normally inject from 2 to 6mg per shot, from the brand name Dilaudid who produce the diamond shaped white pills with a cutted 8 on one side and 2 diamonds seperated by a | line on the other side.
Info : http://www.drugs.com/imprints/8-logo-logo-2428.html
Image Side A: http://images.ddccdn.com/images/pills/mmx/t100086f/dilaudid.jpg
Image Side B: http://images.ddccdn.com/images/pills/mmx/t100086b/dilaudid.jpg
Of course, I cut the pills to be able to make 2mg shots, I cut it in 2 directly in the center, then I cut each part in 3, I assume it makes each "chunk" around 1.25mg ~ 1.40mg (7.50mg ~ 8.25mg)
I tried to stop 2 times so far, I've been going in meetings, I've been reading on it etc. The first time i "stopped" was because I was out of dilaudid and I had no source to fill me up. It lasted around 10 days, it was hard but not THAT bad because at that time I was consuming alot less. The second time I tried to stop I lasted for 2 days then the withdrawals were really too hard and what really made me consume was when I went in a frenzy mode where I had 7 blankets on top of me, a bag of heat on my feets and a hot towel on my forehead and I was freezing like if I was naked outside in the snow and I couldn't stop shaking. It stopped around 25 seconds after I injected myself even if that was hard by itself to do ... Imagine the pain...
Ive recently tried using Loperamide, I used like 10 capsules before to go to sleep 5 days ago, and I slept very well that night, then I used another 10 capsules on the next day, I didn't really feel much better from the withdrawals, as I was still using but alot less, but when I wake up I always try to not take a shot, and I've never been able to do it, the morning is the hardest
But that time, I had my shot prepared and all, because I prep it before to go to sleep, all I need to do in the morning is strap myself up and inject but that very morning I felt like I could have not consumed it... at least not right now, and its been days since I took the lope. This morning I also felt like I could not take it, But I hadn't a shot prepared, even I had to go get a syringe cuz I had none left, and of course it felt horrible, I was almost crying, not like crying emotionally but just tears running down and me snorting whats going down back up my nose and the eyes blurry etc. After I brough the needle back home I shot myself up and all was good.
Is it possible the lope is still acting this far away from when I used it? It's been almost a week.
I know the next 2-3 days my tolerance was fucked up
I'd like more info on how it works, how many should I take based on my experiences and how long till it will affect me, and in what way.
I bough 10x 8mg from a Montreal dealer (I really hate having to drive 35km all the way there to just get this shit I need ... I'd really prefer to have one more like near where I live, but life is shitty and so is this situation, 14$ + 4h of my time when I have to go by common transports and 2 hours + 10$ Gaz when I have to go by car, I'd MUCH more prefer to find nearer to Laval or closer to Ste-Therese but atm theres nothing I can do and this isn't really relevant to the thread just expressing my anger and it's calmiing me)
So atm I have 9x 8mg left, and I'd like to try to not have to need more when i'm done... This is my goal...
How do you suggect I go through with it? I got loperamide for the withdrawals and even benadryl to help with the side effects.
And I also wanted to know what kind of relief I could get from benadryl ... I use 3x pills of 2mg(I think its 2mg, its the generic type) and I'm not sure if it has any good effect, should I take more, less?
Any help is appreciated, thanks for your time reading my story
At the moment I'm using around 8 to 16mg per day, Injected from pills of course.... I normally inject from 2 to 6mg per shot, from the brand name Dilaudid who produce the diamond shaped white pills with a cutted 8 on one side and 2 diamonds seperated by a | line on the other side.
Info : http://www.drugs.com/imprints/8-logo-logo-2428.html
Image Side A: http://images.ddccdn.com/images/pills/mmx/t100086f/dilaudid.jpg
Image Side B: http://images.ddccdn.com/images/pills/mmx/t100086b/dilaudid.jpg
Of course, I cut the pills to be able to make 2mg shots, I cut it in 2 directly in the center, then I cut each part in 3, I assume it makes each "chunk" around 1.25mg ~ 1.40mg (7.50mg ~ 8.25mg)
I tried to stop 2 times so far, I've been going in meetings, I've been reading on it etc. The first time i "stopped" was because I was out of dilaudid and I had no source to fill me up. It lasted around 10 days, it was hard but not THAT bad because at that time I was consuming alot less. The second time I tried to stop I lasted for 2 days then the withdrawals were really too hard and what really made me consume was when I went in a frenzy mode where I had 7 blankets on top of me, a bag of heat on my feets and a hot towel on my forehead and I was freezing like if I was naked outside in the snow and I couldn't stop shaking. It stopped around 25 seconds after I injected myself even if that was hard by itself to do ... Imagine the pain...
Ive recently tried using Loperamide, I used like 10 capsules before to go to sleep 5 days ago, and I slept very well that night, then I used another 10 capsules on the next day, I didn't really feel much better from the withdrawals, as I was still using but alot less, but when I wake up I always try to not take a shot, and I've never been able to do it, the morning is the hardest

Is it possible the lope is still acting this far away from when I used it? It's been almost a week.
I know the next 2-3 days my tolerance was fucked up

I'd like more info on how it works, how many should I take based on my experiences and how long till it will affect me, and in what way.
I bough 10x 8mg from a Montreal dealer (I really hate having to drive 35km all the way there to just get this shit I need ... I'd really prefer to have one more like near where I live, but life is shitty and so is this situation, 14$ + 4h of my time when I have to go by common transports and 2 hours + 10$ Gaz when I have to go by car, I'd MUCH more prefer to find nearer to Laval or closer to Ste-Therese but atm theres nothing I can do and this isn't really relevant to the thread just expressing my anger and it's calmiing me)
So atm I have 9x 8mg left, and I'd like to try to not have to need more when i'm done... This is my goal...
How do you suggect I go through with it? I got loperamide for the withdrawals and even benadryl to help with the side effects.
And I also wanted to know what kind of relief I could get from benadryl ... I use 3x pills of 2mg(I think its 2mg, its the generic type) and I'm not sure if it has any good effect, should I take more, less?
Any help is appreciated, thanks for your time reading my story