Hear me out I'm gonna give some context please don't Bash me just tell me if im being a dumbass and I won't do it.
So I've been on probation the last 4 years (only 22 years old) and I'm about to be done in 2-3 months. It's really starting to suck though, surprisingly knowing a time frame actually makes it worse even though it's soon. It's like time ticks so fucking slowly. Not to mention I'm struggling a bit mentally and could use some breaks. And I can't just go out to relax for a plethora of reasons (no car , 60 hour a week work schedule, can't risk getting covid as I live with someone with a compromised immune system etc etc) so having some days I can relax is something I've been struggling to find and would like to use some substance to help get by until I'm off probation and can smoke weed.
I was planning on taking mdma once every month for the next 3 months to help me get by. I know this isn't super reccomended , but my thought process is that weed is my drug of choice. And once I'm off probation I can just smoke and not take mdma for like 6-12 months to let my synapses rest.
But I actually ended up getting mda I realized after testing it , after doing some research I read that it's more neurotoxic than mdma. But by how much I have no idea. Is my idea of taking it once a month for 3 months a terrible idea even with my plan to abstain for 6-12 months now that I know it's mda?
I know there's not enough research for a definitive answer but I'd like some idea and I can't seem to find any specific answers online.
Tldr: is mda once a month for 3 months dangerous if I take a 6-12 month break afterwards?
So I've been on probation the last 4 years (only 22 years old) and I'm about to be done in 2-3 months. It's really starting to suck though, surprisingly knowing a time frame actually makes it worse even though it's soon. It's like time ticks so fucking slowly. Not to mention I'm struggling a bit mentally and could use some breaks. And I can't just go out to relax for a plethora of reasons (no car , 60 hour a week work schedule, can't risk getting covid as I live with someone with a compromised immune system etc etc) so having some days I can relax is something I've been struggling to find and would like to use some substance to help get by until I'm off probation and can smoke weed.
I was planning on taking mdma once every month for the next 3 months to help me get by. I know this isn't super reccomended , but my thought process is that weed is my drug of choice. And once I'm off probation I can just smoke and not take mdma for like 6-12 months to let my synapses rest.
But I actually ended up getting mda I realized after testing it , after doing some research I read that it's more neurotoxic than mdma. But by how much I have no idea. Is my idea of taking it once a month for 3 months a terrible idea even with my plan to abstain for 6-12 months now that I know it's mda?
I know there's not enough research for a definitive answer but I'd like some idea and I can't seem to find any specific answers online.
Tldr: is mda once a month for 3 months dangerous if I take a 6-12 month break afterwards?