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Im pretty young (16) and no doubt do i feel like i know quite a bit. I do understand however that there is a certain kind of knowledge that can only be obtained with age.

If you could go back to the time when you were my age and speak with yourself, what would you say?

I want a truely psychedelic opinion on this, from one who has experienced psychedelic mind states, thats why i feel its relevant here.
 
i would tell my younger self that yes, you are quite incredibly intelligent compared to the average, just stop being a cockhead about it in the back of your own mind. i never used to outwardly act smart, but that streak of elitism took a long time for me to realise. in fact, playing dumb around people was my way of dealing with the fact i thought i was "better" or "smarter" than other people.

now i realise that i know nothing, even though i know a lot. that means a lot to me, and probably not much to most other people. i feel i am intelligent because of my abilities to empathise, my rationality and logic, and ability to take a step back from my own pre conceived notions when im completely sober and reattack a problem from a strange angle i had previously been unaware of. when i was 16 i thought i was smart because i never studied and got straight A's all the time. now i know thats just retarded.

thats what i would actually tell myself. everything else ive learned on the way i am satisfied with the time frame in which i learned it, and how i came about learning it, even if it hurt or sucked or whatever. i feel that path would have started earlier and more productively if i had realised that the fact i seem to outperform most other people in academia/intelligence testing is not a reason to try less at things i enjoy. if anything, its a reason to extend myself more.
 
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jiffilube said:
Im pretty young (16) and no doubt do i feel like i know quite a bit. I do understand however that there is a certain kind of knowledge that can only be obtained with age.

If you could go back to the time when you were my age and speak with yourself, what would you say?

I want a truely psychedelic opinion on this, from one who has experienced psychedelic mind states, thats why i feel its relevant here.
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I would say "speak with more girls and listen to even stranger music"

On a more serious note I think Eldaren makes a very good point above. I don't have much to add.

Also don't trust psychedelics to bring you any knowledge. That's just bound to fail as far as I can see. There is a time for being focused at worldly endeavours (such as your own personal development) and that's not the time for tripping.
 
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if you're bored and can't sleep, try doing something constructive with your brain like learning a language or solving crosswords/sudoku/tetris
 
I'd tell myself to be less self-conscious and accept myself for who I am instead of trying to fit in. I was never very happy or popular growing up, yet I somehow resented some of my friends who were similar. I wish I had been a better friend to them instead of wishing I were someone else.

I would also tell myself that sometimes things are just meant to be, and that a lot of things I worry about would fall into place in time :)
 
I would tell myself to not smoke pot or drink alcohol until I was 21, also snorting sleeping pills is a bad idea. Even if the only friends you have are in your head it's better than having none at all. I'm almost twenty and I abused a variety of drugs very heavily for the past three years until I came to my senses and cut way back. I think I'm starting to get hppd now but I don't really care about that. Psychs never caused me problems, it's the downers and stimulants that have gotten me in big shit. I'd also tell myself to stop trying to commit suicide, it never solves problems, it only increases shame.

I'd also tell myself to not get weird when I finally start taking psychedelics. I'll never be able to communicate with trees and LSD will never give me super powers, no matter how hard I try.

I was a totally different person at the age of 16. My entire life was crippled by depression. Now I'm in love with living, extensive neuro feedback therapy turned my life around but I didn't start that until I was 19. I'd tell myself to get on that shit right away, it will solve every problem I'll ever have to face for the rest of my life.

I feel like I've missed out on a lot of my life. I was dead inside from age 12 to age 18. The entirety of my high school years passed me by without me even realizing how fun they could have been. It's like I never started living until was 18, it feels like I have to catch up to everyone else who has been normal their entire life. There are a lot of things I wish I could have changed but what is done is done.
 
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I'd probably have told myyoungerself to listen to what my heart was telling me and not my irrational and fucked up (at that time at least ;)) brain was blasting at me.

Either way, its all as its meant to be :) <3
 
I'd tell my younger self to be patient and hang in there... the experiences you were craving for so long are around the corner. Also, to not change yourself for anyone, or try to seem like anything you're not.
 
Dito, I wouldn't try and bestow certain insights and understanding upon my younger self for the very reason that I didn't yet had them thus lacking the frame of reference needed to adhere to that.
When it comes to more experienced older people passing advice onto teenagers, the one thing that may be emphasized is: Don't try to live like there's no tomorrow. I haven't completely got rid of this strange blend of impatience some of us might have, but that is one of my major downfalls, making it also a lesson being learned. I knew of nothing, when my ego annihilating mushroom trip caused me to have an existential crisis. It was like I needed to understand and my life depended on it for it is 'it'. My metaphysics journey began.
My life took unexpected turns but I gained a whole lot of development from it and enrichment of my life by deepening it so!
Man it's so weird!! My mother gave me a shirt a whole while back that says "I feel so free that I am no longer my own master". Well... my rationality I can control and I consider myself conscientious, but the quote on the shirt might actually define me much better than anything else. A blessing and a curse, I always say. A blessing and a curse.
 
Tell those around you how much you care about them... Look around you... The divine is everywhere; "seek and you shall find..."

One thing that I've realized: if you want to change something, start as small as you can. The whole "psychedelic experience" certainly helps to illustrate this point. There are things like an inherent self-awareness that I could not "teach" a past self... Experiences both "favorable" and "unfavorable" have conferred Knowledge of Self. So much of that knowledge is impossible to transmit via text or speech...

As Socrates said, 'The wisest of you men is is he who has realized that in respect of wisdom he is really worthless.' The important thing is to BE HUMBLE. All the "stumbles" in my life have been due to a lack of humility...
 
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