looking back, how ive grown

[harraser]

Today I finished the last page in my old notebook
So I went back to the start to see what Id done
Poems, songs, miscelaneous words
A poor attempt at recapitulation
Sayings that touched me
Letters to freinds
And as I read all these
I realise that Ive grown.
My poems have grown
From crap to mediocre
My tastes have broadened
Ive been happy and sad
Smitten and hurt
And now Im a bit of each.
I see my scribles and doodles
And remember frustration and boredom
I read all my old plans
That never came through
And I smile at the thought
Of how inocent I was
Just a couple of years ago.
Now Im a little more bold
A little less scared
A little more jaded
A little less trusting
Ive a little more muscle
A little less fat
My scars have faded
But will never dissapear
Im just as confused
But a little less overwhelmed
Closer to those that I love
and further from the painful past
Closer to the unknown future
And excited at every step
Im so much more than I used to be
But deep down inside Ill always be me
I could have gone on with this forever but Im also a little more impatient than I used to be

 

[skarazira]

And I smile at the thought
Of how inocent I was
Just a couple of years ago.
awww
I have had the same realizations lately.
I like.
sara

 

[E-girl]

Im so much more than I used to be
But deep down inside Ill always be me
this was fantastic. its nice to be able to sit down and look back at your life and say you've grown for the better, which i think you definitely have. you look back at all the mistakes you've made and learned from, you remember how much shit you got yourself through, how you toughed it out. i believe that makes you a better person in a lot of ways, and i hope someday i will take the time to sit down and do that do, and i hope what i reflect on, will be just as positive.

 

[ice-9]

 

[AngelicK]

Right on. If I were to look back on my journal, i believe i'd write the same about it as you did. Some nice realizations, huh? Hold onto the power.
k