Hi guys, you don't know me, but I've been reading various threads on here for years. You guys have answered countless questions and your stories have intrigued me. I really admire the compassion that I've seen some of you (Harry, rose, Dave, kikker and others) display towards people trying to kick opiate addiction. You guys should really be proud of yourselves. I think the world of some of you because of your willingness to devote your time to help someone you've never met. Well you've never met me so here's what's been going on...
About 5 yrs ago I got hooked on Percs after a foot surgery then went to those blue 30 Oxys after a couple years. 3 yrs ago I met my fiancé and got her hooked. We got up to about 90mg each 8 months ago. Mostly snorting and eating sometimes smoking. Sometimes 120mg each per day funds permitting. 8 months ago they stopped becoming available and the girl who I was getting them from offered some black tar H instead. Been smoking that every day since. Not too long I know on the H, but we've been burning up about $120 a day and recently when I run out we get sick to the point where it feels like if we don't get to the hospital we'll die. Dramatic I know, but lately it's been horrific with the vomiting, panic attacks, RLS, sweating, etc. No fun.
So after a particularly nasty round of WDs Monday night we decided to go for clean. We got about 120 strips of 8mg suboxone from a doctor from a while ago. Now it's been about exactly 96hrs (4days) since my last hit off foil and so far so good. First day sucked bad, took like 16mg of sub which I know is way too much but I was hell bent on feeling ok and it finally worked. Day 2 I let that mega dose from day one carry me till night then I took 8 so I could sleep. Felt ok day two. Took 2 walks and a jog and ate well. Slept well too. Day 3 yesterday - felt strong. Went to work, got home did some exercise, and ate and slept well. Only took about 6mg of sub. Today day 4 I'm feeling a little week but ok. I took about 2mg this morning at 7 am and now it's 5pm and I'm still feeling fine.
So yeah, I'm taking this sub like a moron- way too much up front and tapering too fast but I want off altogether. I'm going to stop the sub completely now and only take some if I get clobbered with terrible PHYSICAL withdrawals. Anything mental I'm going to deal with. So yeah, phew! That was a lot to type from my phone on the train home from work!
Love you guys - for real I do!
Wish me strength
Joe
About 5 yrs ago I got hooked on Percs after a foot surgery then went to those blue 30 Oxys after a couple years. 3 yrs ago I met my fiancé and got her hooked. We got up to about 90mg each 8 months ago. Mostly snorting and eating sometimes smoking. Sometimes 120mg each per day funds permitting. 8 months ago they stopped becoming available and the girl who I was getting them from offered some black tar H instead. Been smoking that every day since. Not too long I know on the H, but we've been burning up about $120 a day and recently when I run out we get sick to the point where it feels like if we don't get to the hospital we'll die. Dramatic I know, but lately it's been horrific with the vomiting, panic attacks, RLS, sweating, etc. No fun.
So after a particularly nasty round of WDs Monday night we decided to go for clean. We got about 120 strips of 8mg suboxone from a doctor from a while ago. Now it's been about exactly 96hrs (4days) since my last hit off foil and so far so good. First day sucked bad, took like 16mg of sub which I know is way too much but I was hell bent on feeling ok and it finally worked. Day 2 I let that mega dose from day one carry me till night then I took 8 so I could sleep. Felt ok day two. Took 2 walks and a jog and ate well. Slept well too. Day 3 yesterday - felt strong. Went to work, got home did some exercise, and ate and slept well. Only took about 6mg of sub. Today day 4 I'm feeling a little week but ok. I took about 2mg this morning at 7 am and now it's 5pm and I'm still feeling fine.
So yeah, I'm taking this sub like a moron- way too much up front and tapering too fast but I want off altogether. I'm going to stop the sub completely now and only take some if I get clobbered with terrible PHYSICAL withdrawals. Anything mental I'm going to deal with. So yeah, phew! That was a lot to type from my phone on the train home from work!
Love you guys - for real I do!
Wish me strength
Joe