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Long Term Comedowns: How's everyone doing?

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Dawglaw

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4 months for me and I can say I am getting better. Recovery definitely slows down as time goes on but I have started to care less and less and just accepted that this is a process. When I live my life, I can't even tell anything is wrong. The hardest part is acceptance that something is wrong.

I have for the most part overcome the anxiety but the minor/moderate derealization is still there. It may have to do with my eyes, when I close my eyes everything seems normal?

I took a tiny line of blow last week and it did not send me through the roof with derealization or anxiety which is hopefully a good sign, my simpsons definitely increased the day after but are almost baseline. Two months ago if I had three sips of coffee I would have a week of panic attacks.

I am definitely going to abstain from all stimulants until I am far out of the woods.

I don't come on BL that much because I don't want to focus on what's wrong with me, it definitely gets worse if I harp on it. I know there are a lot of us and many more lurkers experiencing these terrible feelings so I think for HR and the sake of everyone I'll try to upday every few months and definitely do a recap post once I'm back to 100%.

How is everyone else doing?
 
hey mate you're not alone,

i too experienced a heavy comedown after rolling 2 days in a row in July. Not really depression, but I felt like i a mess very much so socially. I was very concerned about my physical appearance and my eyes were very dark for quite some time, like the color darkened and it made them look freaky for some reason.... anxiety only made this worse...
I experienced extreme anxiety, and I thought strangers I walk past or come in contact with look at me funny and judge me (still kinda do sometimes now)....

im feeling much better however tho. My anxiety is not completely gone but its not nearly as bad.

Exercise helps the process. hope to get better soon and hope u will recover 100 percent too.
 
I like this thread. Glad to hear that you two are making progress. I also agree with Dawglaws strategy to avoid frequenting bluelight so as to shift focus away from mdma related issues. I could see where it helps not to dwell on it. Keep up the good work, exercising, and taking care of your minds!
 
I lived on the shit for years and I'm fucked ATM chronic depression for the past 12months. Had serious thoughts of topping myself but I'm still too young...27 next year, il keep.

Done grams in 12hrs done 8ths over weekends done the 3 or 4 nights in a row multiple times... Seriously flushed my skull of serotonin repeatedly and I am now paying the price

What goes around comes around... Would I do it again I dunno... You only live once
 
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I lived on the shit for years and I'm fucked ATM chronic depression for the past 12months. Had serious thoughts of topping myself but I'm still too young...27 next year, il keep.

Done grams in 12hrs done 8ths over weekends done the 3 or 4 nights in a row multiple times... Seriously flushed my skull of serotonin repeatedly and I am now paying the price

What goes around comes around... Would I do it again I dunno... You only live once
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what you mean with ATM?
 
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