~Long Hair and Bracelets~

[MynameisnotDeja]

long hair and bracelets
laying on your back
while he does his thing
it feels good
it doesn't feel good
it doesnt matter

long hair and bracelets
beads and pens
hes walking out the door
it feels lonely
it doesn't feel lonely
it doesnt matter

long hair and bracelets
little blue pills
stripper heels and bending down low
it feels powerful
it doesn't feel powerful
it doesn't matter

long hair and bracelets
a dark and empty apartment
sobbing as the shadows dance
it hurts
it doesn't hurt
it doesn't matter

long hair and bracelets
dirty with the days
crying at the toilets edge
it's hard
it's not hard
it doesn't matter

long hair and bracelets
full eyes and red skin
looking in the mirror
it's you
it's not you
it doesn't matter

long hair and bracelets
strength and pain in one
pills flushing down the drain
it's over
it's not over
it doesn't matter

long hair and bracelets
sunlight and soothing wind
it's perfect
it's imperfect
it doesn't matter

 

[Mehm]

very zen

 

[Jabberwocky]

i agree with Mehm. It is not just the emotional evolution that concerns us but the knowledge that it matters and matters not, something is an attachment and to detach is to look with reality and emotion in context. Good job Deja.

 

[MynameisnotDeja]

Thanks. Written on a wicked comedown from a 3 day ecstasy binge.

Pain = awesome creativity for me.

 

[glitterbizkit]

I love it

 

[feelgoodhit]

this is beautiful, I love the last line.

 

[MynameisnotDeja]

 

[psychedelicate]

i liked this part,
"long hair and bracelets
a dark and empty apartment
sobbing as the shadows dance
it hurts
it doesn't hurt
it doesn't matter''
sums up an evil comedown pretty well

 

[psychedelicate]

ps- i love that quote from closer in your profile. such a good movie, i wasnt expecting it to be good, but wow. vaya con dios

 

[feelgoodhit]

I just love how you subtley change up the last line in the end, shifting its meaning to something positive.

 

[MynameisnotDeja]

Thats how i felt after I flushed the rest of the pills down the toilet and went and sat on my balcony for awhile.. it doesn't matter.. let go.

 

[PoP_IdLe]

Wow. Just, wow.

~ Plum

 

[MynameisnotDeja]

Thank you! It's interesting looking back on this short but chaotic time in my life. This poem represents a turning point for me.

 

[Raz]

I am very impressed with how you manage to use the same words over and over again and it comes across as insightful rather than repetitive...I like it!

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

I found myself reading each verse in the anticipation of the second line (which stands out for me as the most powerful each time) and to see how the repetitions would work with it. :D