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*Llittle~Things: that mattered today*

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whaaat, how awesome :-)
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i thought she was familiar with that, ,,, its great it was with you, and here, but here is unlike anywhere i guess. were the rocks ticking and rolling back in with the tide??

shared a few laughs, with some of whom i hadn't in a while.
:-)
'twas needed.


i also received a thoughtful caring friend~request today- much love.


Life Love & Laughter!
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^Innocence is a beautiful purity that is being stolen from the world and children - I'm uplifted reading that ocean. Good stuff.
 
PIP - I've been working on trying to get repressed memories from > 10 years old , looking at albums of photos - seeing the smile I had CONSTANTLY I see that innocence then, it really does a number on me man I admittedly shed a few tears it's all very sudden stilll.
 
I don't even know where to start.

My life has been so intense lately. I feel uhm, close to god? I can't even describe it.

I guess... "We are all one" serves me best for something to say.

Lately the stuff that has been coming out of my mouth is so so loving and pure feeling. I feel like a guardian of life. It boggles my mind.
 
i know what you mean, as of late this is almost overwhelming,,, whens your b~day?

TAoW, i was slammed with repressed memories from 6,7 or 8 until 10, while after being in jail for two months, then in an in patient rehab, a very good one honestly i was lucky. these memories started coming back, clear as day, obvious and awful.
the speedballs and lsd helped tidy it all away aswell, until the inevitable. i was eighteen then, so ten years, sometimes stuff comes back.,, but for me facing and accepting as part of the past, like other traumatic or perfect positive events, they make, ~US up, and others in many ways all the time.

once you accept, you are in a new position, one where you have to make a choice.
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let this negative time in your life control you and your out look on life.
or
realize it for what it is, let it hurt as much as its worth-if you haven't already,,, and grow forward.

dont try and force it, just allow it; accept allow let become further in your past, and eventually only a relative thought when needed. respect the thoughts and situation as a whole, and dont try fighting any "intrusive thoughts", or fighting any of then at all really, its a lot to accept and respect, but can be done at a pace.

hmm, heh~
in my experience...

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PIP ~ I find I can unlock that door for a day or so w/occasional ketamine use - lsd doesn't do the same. W/ptsd and severe depressive episodes ketamine has been quite useful.

Today ~ just grateful I've been able to get out and about again - got a good night lined up with solid ppl just so fucking tired of this cabn fever. Being able to go out again is a life saver. Oh and blackberry torches are ignorantly good...
 
was just out-side smoking, and heard some noise coming from 40-50yds away in the side-yard of my house, which has fruit trees etc around the perimeter; a cleared orchard.

i went under a tree to look - there are 5 deer; a Buck(8-10pt.maybe) a Doe, and 3 Fawns; i could hear a 6th one in the trees still, the youngest or smallest probably.

now ive never seen this, i had to blink my eyes a few times as the sun was almost set, BUT, the mama Doe, and a Fawn that was sticking near her --
were both white+
solid white deer, the mom and a baby...
all i have is my phone-cam(which wasnt on me), and with any camera it was practically dark any how, so -- maybe another day;-)

that was amazing though... the buck came forward, and well 'bucK'D up, so i stayed low and walked back to my door and went in; trying not to bother them for the moment, or discourage them from coming back.


this mattered;-)
=D
 
panic in paradise said:
was just out-side smoking, and heard some noise coming from 40-50yds away in the side-yard of my house, which has fruit trees etc around the perimeter; a cleared orchard.

i went under a tree to look - there are 5 deer; a Buck(8-10pt.maybe) a Doe, and 3 Fawns; i could hear a 6th one in the trees still, the youngest or smallest probably.

now ive never seen this, i had to blink my eyes a few times as the sun was almost set, BUT, the mama Doe, and a Fawn that was sticking near her --
were both white+
solid white deer, the mom and a baby...
all i have is my phone-cam(which wasnt on me), and with any camera it was practically dark any how, so -- maybe another day;-)

that was amazing though... the buck came forward, and well 'bucK'D up, so i stayed low and walked back to my door and went in; trying not to bother them for the moment, or discourage them from coming back.


this mattered;-)
=D
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I heard deer are swarming with lice. Just be careful..
 
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