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*Llittle~Things: that mattered today*

panic in paradise

panic in paradise

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hiya -

the intention here is to share small a detail of the day, that deserves introspection.

most are, but some turn particularly striking.
i know ive walked into a pump station, pass my last 5vr*; wondering where the next one will ever honestly come from - then a little kid runs up all wobbly and smiling, saying "HEY,HEY!" with a pack of M&M's held up and a shoe untied.


*snap -
you forget about yourself...
and think about you, us, and everyone else.

the collective and how the strength of, matters a lot, but is always there in subtle form mostly, very un-notably...


this "ButterFly~Effect" reciprocated on me recently, while getting my normal coffee.
they made the prior order wrong, - my extra shot
;)
i got it for 1/3 the price, the barista looked happy to please =D, i gave a good tip(5vr*) i felt sociable. with out success asked for a song id from clerk that was playing; later got it, and then me and another TDS'r got back into the soul~funk.,. 40 minutes later.


so please share, what Little~Thing struck you today, that pulled you back into yourself-persay...
why not share, if it was important enough to you, it probably would be to others.


t/y t/y for your insight.



=D
 
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Today there were a few things that stuck out- that were small, but meaningful.

I went down to the beach for just a few minutes and found a cool shell for almost every minute I was down there........
I feel the ocean brought me to her at this time in my life and I really love the little gifts she gives me when I need them.........

I had a good texting time with someone who I needed to speak with.
It was good and felt like a positive bit of closure.
Not a little thing- but I think it fits.......


I will have more tomorrow:)
 
maybe you also learned, by typing out loud(?!?) that if you broke down some further, and opened up more; you might notice extra glimpses of these things.
making it easier naturally to open up further...

civilness seems simple enough~
its a seed of respect, mutuality.
allowing and accepting on my part~
will help these things grow and stay strong.
 
Grateful for communication , no matter how it comes.

better control of the ol anger issues. (esp in docs offices for around 5 hours and then a fuck up at a pharmacy ending me payin lawyers kiddies thru colleges until it was resolved...)

PATIENCE - been reading so damn much, it'll be worth it though.

most of all being able to lift, nothin else can compare for my own sanity.
 
Went to the rehearsal for my 2 best mates' wedding today. They ran through the ceremony and even just the way they were looking in to each others' eyes made me melt!! I nearly cried, and it wasn't even the real ceremony haha. I'm going to be a mess on the actual day =D
 
Got a text from someone this eve, saying they missed me.
Dont know if its 'true' or not but it still feels good to be consideed on some level.

Also my cat looking up at me, eyes semi-squinting, endearingly in contentment, purring, while I scratched her head- she is a little, divine imp. :D
 
^^ I am positive it's true that they miss you :)

And I LOVE it when my kitties do that squinty purry love thing!! =D <3
 
woke up and for first time in months my knee didn't click, thank god.

also found 30ml of test I had lost, phew.

oh AND ANDERSON SILVA WON - Cheaaaa for you MMA fans STILL THE BEST !!!!!
 
theartofwar said:
woke up and for first time in months my knee didn't click, thank god.

also found 30ml of test I had lost, phew.

oh AND ANDERSON SILVA WON - Cheaaaa for you MMA fans STILL THE BEST !!!!!
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Yes! What a great night of fights...Silva still the best P4P in the world. I'm also loving Jonny Bones Jones, can't wait to see him fight for the title. The pure emotion he showed when he heard he was getting a title shot was a great moment.

On thread topic:

I work for a large corporation and I'm constantly "putting out fires". Had a three hour meeting scheduled for Friday afternoon and anyone who works in corporate knows how badly that sucks. To my surprise it was actually one of the most productive and positive meetings of which I've ever been a part. Met some really cool people too. I guess it's just nice to work with people who aren't bitter or constantly trying to sabotage each others efforts.

I like this thread. Thanks PIP. :)
 
Well an old friend hit'd me up on facebook, she saw that I was doing good and going to meetings. she told me that she has a problem her self, and is going to come to a meeting with me this week.

it was out of no where. made me smile :)
 
nothing little about it - but a msg on FB also helped me tremendously, I am fighting so hard to not cut atm and I really needed the msg.
 
Hey man if I can get through the night without cutting, so can you. Just keep distracting yourself until the urges subside. Take care man <3
 
A message from a person who i really love telling me she was ok and that she was trying to find out about how i was doing helped give me abit of hope in another wise dark day :)
 
i played video games with someone who's been feeling distant from me who i love so very much. small, but it made me feel better for a little while at least.
 
although it was near 4am - still was today - a msg on FB from one I love. Brief due to time constraint, but always makes me smile and I know she is safe and having a terrific time. <3
 
I had a really rough day today and took ten mins to go stand on the beach and take pictures- We're in the middle of a big windstorm........
My mom came down to take photos with me and it was really the first time she ever experienced wind and big waves here and she was so cute screaming in excitement. We were giggly and excited seeing the water churn like crazy- waves as tall as us crashed onto the beach- the wind was picking up the sea foam and it was around us like butterflies.........
It was perfect.
A really innocent, sweet moment.

Made me happy my mom has fallen in love with the water.
 
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