wow. i was just thinking the same thing a few minutes ago. yeah i wish that maybe i could do my 30's over again, so some times , but the past is the past and its really hard to leave behind all the bad that has happened. god. good luck with your de-tox. sounds like u are doing good though. i just finished wd's from H but it was only a 3 month habit and i just used it medicinally because of my depression. then my dealer ripper be off. great. so i feel better. ready to go to work tomorrow and see if my shrink has any thing new. meanwhile i suffer. wish H was available for this soul purpose instead of shitty ssri's . need to find an opium den. lol you can do it. its just a lose lose situation and it really doesn't get you anywhere. its a false sense of reality that we can be in sometimes, maybe, but not always. at least you dont have a mental illness. that is really the worst. be good. be well. dont be a slave to any drug. good luck.