I am again at a cross-roads with my life. My contract ends in march, and as I have mentioned before, it has been pre-determined that I am not pretty enough to be a teacher and therefore said contract will not be renewed.
So I have a number of choices:
- Stay in Thailand
a. Stay in Bangshit and do my best to find a decent job at a decent place and remain here a while longer... (most convenient, but I'll have to put up with the sub-human Thais).
b. Go to Isaan, an area of Thailand where the majority are actually Laotian (and therefore slightly less vulgar than the Thais). Negatives include having much less access to Gems and cheap medication. Positives include being close to both Cambodia and Laos.
- Go back to Canada
There is a big risk of me becoming suicidal again if I go to Canada. That place is just infested with the worst memories and emotions for me. There is the option of trying to get a weighter job in Toronto (something I always dreamt of, but was never able to do for some reason... yeah, I've always dreamt about being a weighter, but no place ever considered hiring me!!). There is also the possibility of doing the same in Montreal, something I've always wanted to do...
Positives include Canada being another gem country and therefore having the chance to do gemmological work there...
- Find another Country
Said country would require three things:
a. People who are a bit more civilized than the Thai.
b. Gemstones.
c. Pay at least as much as Thailand does, so around $1k/month
One possibility that came to mind was Colombia, but my parents won't have it. From what I hear, Columbia has calmed down a LOT recently and many people are having a great time teaching English there. Failing that, perhaps Brazil would be fine. The problem with Brazil is that its language is Portuguese, and my whole point of going to South America is to learn Spanish!!
Other countries are too difficult and/or too low-paying. Why do I worry so much for the pay? I don't want a black-hole situation to happen, where I'm stuck in the country because I can never save up enough to get out...
Ugh, this is all too fast. I have not yet settled in here
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So I have a number of choices:
- Stay in Thailand
a. Stay in Bangshit and do my best to find a decent job at a decent place and remain here a while longer... (most convenient, but I'll have to put up with the sub-human Thais).
b. Go to Isaan, an area of Thailand where the majority are actually Laotian (and therefore slightly less vulgar than the Thais). Negatives include having much less access to Gems and cheap medication. Positives include being close to both Cambodia and Laos.
- Go back to Canada
There is a big risk of me becoming suicidal again if I go to Canada. That place is just infested with the worst memories and emotions for me. There is the option of trying to get a weighter job in Toronto (something I always dreamt of, but was never able to do for some reason... yeah, I've always dreamt about being a weighter, but no place ever considered hiring me!!). There is also the possibility of doing the same in Montreal, something I've always wanted to do...
Positives include Canada being another gem country and therefore having the chance to do gemmological work there...
- Find another Country
Said country would require three things:
a. People who are a bit more civilized than the Thai.
b. Gemstones.
c. Pay at least as much as Thailand does, so around $1k/month
One possibility that came to mind was Colombia, but my parents won't have it. From what I hear, Columbia has calmed down a LOT recently and many people are having a great time teaching English there. Failing that, perhaps Brazil would be fine. The problem with Brazil is that its language is Portuguese, and my whole point of going to South America is to learn Spanish!!
Other countries are too difficult and/or too low-paying. Why do I worry so much for the pay? I don't want a black-hole situation to happen, where I'm stuck in the country because I can never save up enough to get out...
Ugh, this is all too fast. I have not yet settled in here
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The job situation here is looking a lot more grim than a year ago though. I don't know if that was the direction that you were thinking, but Diavik just laid off a bunch of their people, and I'm guessing that the other big mines will likely be doing the same.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. I lack local experience, I lack desirable race, I lack an easy name, I lack GQ-looks. Like I said, I'd die for a weighter job. But if I was never able to get ANY job in Canada back when all was well with the Economy, how can I dream about dreaming of getting a job now??
