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Life after Heroin

I thought fent was an exceedingly rare "cut/lace" nowadays too after the OD/death outbreak...but that last DEA microgram made me think otherwise...
 
^^It is still VERY common in Detroit and I have seen it a few times in Lansing and Kalamazoo, MI.
 
I was strung out for like 6 years, I finally kicked in September. Running is fun, but the shit takes its toll and life really does pass you by. I think about all the shit I missed out on those 6 years, but then I remember how much fun it was and all the people I met. The detox is the easy part, and this is coming from someone that kicked 80 mgs of methadone and 3 mgs of xanax in jail, staying sober is much harder. Now that I'm sober though I pretty much do the same shit that I did when I was getting high, I go clubbing a lot in the city, I watch a lot of anime, hang out with friends, work, and I dick around on the computer. Its wierd though living clean of opiates is a lot different, I actually feel depressed again, I actually feel again. I'm not numb to problems like when I'm getting high, and it sucks.
As much as I dislike NA philosophy on sobriety, I still goto meetings to talk to people. The cool thing about NA is that the people there are the same people I was getting high with, except sober. I do still drink like twice a month, I will eat lsd, mushrooms, and e on occasion but I don't regularly use drugs. I didn't use anything during the first 4 months either cause I lived in a halfway house, which was an experience itself. All and all life is pretty good though, but I still miss getting high and I know chipping never works so I choose to stay clean from opiates.
 
mikemikemike said:
If heroin "aint shit" then what is?
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As far as what do I think is a drug more worth doing?
amphetamines, benzos, dissociatives, to name a few

As far as it aint shit with respect to problems in life?
when people are having problems in their life and they're taking heroin everyday, I'd say that heroin isn't their biggest problem at all, but that they are definitely wasting their time with it
 
i stopped using heroin early april, with 2 relapses with iv heroin. i've had 4 total relapses from the needle since including iv mdma and iv cocaine.

honestly i never understand how hte detox could be the easy part, it had me on hte floor crying in pain.... and in 3 days it was over... though it consumed my mind day after day, the cravings weren't bad, i wasn't desperate enough to go cop... then my life got busy and sped up.... and recently maybe 3 days ago it started to hit me again.... the craving for a hit... i'mnot sure what triggered it if anything.... it just started itchin my brain... that i want to shoot up 1 more time... but i know that 1 hit will turn into shootin up for multiple weeks/months so i don't go cop.... but how i'd love to feel one more hit, the feeling not to feel again......
 
Im in search of a "good" girlfriend, Someone I can devote all my anxious energy to when Im so close to wanting to cop a good hit, I always used to be around beautiful women but when I found my true love all I wanted her to do was course through my veins. I would always chose good smack over good pussy, but now that my head isnt so clouded im starting to see light between the beatiful girls' legs
 
Thru my runs, I've probably detoxed close to 10 times, and been sick 1 or 2 days even more. It sucks, but you learn to live with it. Most people can't always hustle money together and end up being sick a few days, that and jail and trying to get clean. Detox sucks, but its still easier than staying clean. The mental cravings are really hard, especially when shit starts going right in your life.
 
thugpassion said:
Im in search of a "good" girlfriend, Someone I can devote all my anxious energy to when Im so close to wanting to cop a good hit, I always used to be around beautiful women but when I found my true love all I wanted her to do was course through my veins. I would always chose good smack over good pussy, but now that my head isnt so clouded im starting to see light between the beatiful girls' legs
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Hear Hear. Though I'd even choose shitty smack over good pussy. Those days are no more. Now I just need to get the pussy flowing again.
(PM me if you'd like)
 
Adrenochrome said:
As far as what do I think is a drug more worth doing?
amphetamines, benzos, dissociatives, to name a few

As far as it aint shit with respect to problems in life?
when people are having problems in their life and they're taking heroin everyday, I'd say that heroin isn't their biggest problem at all, but that they are definitely wasting their time with it
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Sometimes Heroun use is the only thing holding a person back, and I wouldnt say "herion isn't their biggest problem at all". Sometimes when peolpe stop using heroin they go back to being career minded people. Herion can get the best of anybody, and people get hooked because it IS the best drug on earth. But I think people can be goal oriented and career minded on herion, Its got a bad a rap because its fucked up so many people, for good reason. It takes a strong person to be able to chip and still be able to save cash.
 
As far as what do I think is a drug more worth doing?
amphetamines, benzos, dissociatives, to name a few
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They will all fuck you up mentally more than heroin. At least faster. Maybe you didn't get deep into any of these but that's the truth. You can go on heroin for a longer period of time without losing your completely. Amphetamine will make you paranoid vest fast. Benzodiazepines will make holes in your brain so you don't remember what you did two days ago even if you stop doing them. It's hard to use dissociatives daily but it's asking for serious mental disorders.

Benzodiazepines are probably the worst of all these. They can fuck up your memory permanently, leave you with everlasting depression, anxiety, and phobias.

What opiates can do is just make you depressed for a long time. This is shitty as depression can pursue to do a lot of dangerous things but it's not like your IQ goes down drastically. I mean, in months or a few years. Benzodiazepines are worse.
 
What heroin lacks as far as mental withdrawals go it makes up for with the physical symptoms...

That said, I'd still rather be forced to kick a daily H habit over a daily methamphetamine habit. Heroin won't permanently strip your mind of it's ability to feel. In my opinion, at least heroin leaves you with the opportunity to live a normal life again.

Not saying it's impossible with speed, but that shit sure will make it alot harder.

In the end it's all subjective anyway...
 
People that do speed every day look like shit, because of the drug itself. They look like they were ridden hard and put away wet. A junkie can look relitivly healthy, and its the Heroin lifestyle that hurts a person, not the smack itself. I shoot all over my hands, wrists, and arms and I always ware short sleeved shirts because I take care of myself and dont fuck around and miss shots. So a person who dosent know me cant see any thing resembling tracks.
 
eon_blue said:
What heroin lacks as far as mental withdrawals go it makes up for with the physical symptoms...

That said, I'd still rather be forced to kick a daily H habit over a daily methamphetamine habit. Heroin won't permanently strip your mind of it's ability to feel. In my opinion, at least heroin leaves you with the opportunity to live a normal life again.

Not saying it's impossible with speed, but that shit sure will make it alot harder.

In the end it's all subjective anyway...
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it literally is impossible after a certain point. Eventually the dopemine pathways change their base mark. I know I haven't done nearly as much speed as some people but sometimes it scares me to think how much my brain is fucked. But I have friends who have done 8balls several times a week and I think if they can still be happy then I should be perfectly fine.
 
[ But I have friends who have done 8balls several times a week and I think if they can still be happy then I should be perfectly fine.[/QUOTE]
Amen!
 
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