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Lack of motivation/creativity - After coming off Opiates finally (10 year user)

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hotmoonsauce

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I finally managed to kick Opiates after using them for 10+ years. I've been off of them going on 3 years now. Probably the hardest thing I ever did and I really have no wish to go back.

However....

I am a graphic artist and it has been incredibly difficult to find that "motivated high" I used to get with Opiates. I use to feel like I could create anything while I was on them. It was great and I REALLY MISS IT. It's an intense struggle to try and be creative on even a simple poster design.

Is there any alternative to Opiates to get that again?
Benzos, Lyrica, Muscle Relax meds seem to do nothing for me. The only med that ever seemed to work on me was Oxycodone/Cotin and Dilaudid.

Thank you for any replies.
 
hotmoonsauce said:
I finally managed to kick Opiates after using them for 10+ years. I've been off of them going on 3 years now. Probably the hardest thing I ever did and I really have no wish to go back.

However....

I am a graphic artist and it has been incredibly difficult to find that "motivated high" I used to get with Opiates. I use to feel like I could create anything while I was on them. It was great and I REALLY MISS IT. It's an intense struggle to try and be creative on even a simple poster design.

Is there any alternative to Opiates to get that again?
Benzos, Lyrica, Muscle Relax meds seem to do nothing for me. The only med that ever seemed to work on me was Oxycodone/Cotin and Dilaudid.

Thank you for any replies.
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“Time for a shot of the old Jorkins Genius Juice”
*shoots up black tar heroin*

I would say that there isn’t a solution to this problem. You just have to stay clean and one day you’ll find yourself creating again. But that calm fluidity of body and mind will never return.

What may work is relearning how to process your feelings through your artistic medium. But, no, the sense of flow that comes with manually downregulating your body into a subdued flow of consciousness type state, that only opioids can do, will never happen again. Unless you use opiates.

So, don’t use opiates, relearn your creative impulse. Experience real pain, sadness, joy, whatever you feel, create out of that feeling.

You have to relearn how to be an artist.

Junk rewires your brain. Now you have to rewire it as well
 
helpingout said:
“Time for a shot of the old Jorkins Genius Juice”
*shoots up black tar heroin*

I would say that there isn’t a solution to this problem. You just have to stay clean and one day you’ll find yourself creating again. But that calm fluidity of body and mind will never return.

What may work is relearning how to process your feelings through your artistic medium. But, no, the sense of flow that comes with manually downregulating your body into a subdued flow of consciousness type state, that only opioids can do, will never happen again. Unless you use opiates.

So, don’t use opiates, relearn your creative impulse. Experience real pain, sadness, joy, whatever you feel, create out of that feeling.

You have to relearn how to be an artist.

Junk rewires your brain. Now you have to rewire it as well
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Thanks for the reply. I was really hoping after all these years it would return but it's so weird how those opiates have, like you said, rewired my brain. It's so hard to find... joy. I do appreciate your response though, at least I know there isn't some other "magical" drug out there that can do that same feeling.
 
MedicinalUser247 said:
There are ways of expanding the mind. Psychedelics for instance.
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I wouldn't even know how to go back getting something like that. All of my drugs were through scripts via a pain doctor. Pain still sucks but I just don't want to get addicted to opiates again. If I knew I could do them once in awhile I would attempt it but I fear once I have them I won't want to stop. And not knowing how to get them via the street probably helps as well. I wouldn't even know where to look and I should probably keep it that way.

I just know from the feedback I've been getting that my current design work has been lacking. I hate it. It's as if my tools, ability, and desire have been taken away from me. I don't mean to complain on here, people have it way worse off then me. Was just wondering if any of these current scripts in the cabinet would help but I think they are just all anti anxiety and muscle relaxer type stuff that don't exactly work for what I am looking for.
 
He's been off for 3 years....I would say his brain has rewired...Maybe try Kratom which is way a lesser evil but does have potential for similar abuse just not in the same ballpark imo...just my 2 cents others might have some different views on this and I have never had to withdrawal off Kratom..But opiates yes I feel your pain
 
hotmoonsauce said:
I finally managed to kick Opiates after using them for 10+ years. I've been off of them going on 3 years now. Probably the hardest thing I ever did and I really have no wish to go back.

However....

I am a graphic artist and it has been incredibly difficult to find that "motivated high" I used to get with Opiates. I use to feel like I could create anything while I was on them. It was great and I REALLY MISS IT. It's an intense struggle to try and be creative on even a simple poster design.

Is there any alternative to Opiates to get that again?
Benzos, Lyrica, Muscle Relax meds seem to do nothing for me. The only med that ever seemed to work on me was Oxycodone/Cotin and Dilaudid.

Thank you for any replies.
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Good for you, but maybe you need Methadone.
 
I hear you, I had a HUGE problem with benzos and alcohol but wanted to get off of them. After a year and a half I had to take them for epilepsy..the irony. Still clean from alcohol though. I have just started to get them offline again like I used to. I also managed to fanangle a script for 120 .5 clonazepam and 30 1 mg xanax for 8 years before i quit.I would not start taking opiates again. It slowly developed to where I am back at the start.

I have to just echo all that @helpingout says.
 
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