Oh ya, my sex life is about to get way better real soon. I cannot believe what happened today...
About a month ago, I logged into Facebook, and as I've done almost daily now for the past five years, I browsed the page of "the one who got away." When I was 21, I had this quick and passionate romance with this slightly-older woman, let's call her "K" for the rest of this post. K and I connected instantly on an intellectual level and we felt like we were long-lost best friends before we even really got to know one another. And then once we started sleeping together, it was just like icing on the cake. I felt like I met a soul-mate at just 21. Unfortunately, I had no choice but to move across the globe for about a year, and our young romance wasn't able to stand the test of time. She was emotionally fragile and someone was able to steal her away from me. I then got distracted by school, addiction and other women. K and I didn't speak for nearly 5 years having went separate ways on silly but yet still rather hostile and uncomfortable terms...
So ya, about a month ago while browsing her page, I noticed that she had finally ended her (5 year) relationship with the dude she left me for years back. I also noticd that for the first time in a long while, she and I were living in the same city again. So I messaged her, I said "what's going on?" and we ended up talking for about 4 hours straight from that point. We got coffee the next day and she was just as beautiful as ever. I missed her so much and it all came rushing back, but I was polite and I gave her a couple of respectful hugs before we parted ways. Over the past month, we've talked pretty much everyday and ni depth, and it's great being there for each other again and to have that special friend who understands and gets everything. I was even easing my way into telling her about my heroin addiction, which actually felt rather comfortble and I know that she won't judge me for it when I do get it completely off of my chest.
Anyway, today we get on the topic of "nice guys" and I make some tongue-in-cheek comment about nice guys finishing last. I was totally joking and just trying to make her laugh through social sarcasm, but somehow I got myself into a conversation with K about sex and how both of us were kinda lacking in that department lately. The heroin had me talking, I think she had a few cocktails in her, and before ya know it we're plotting our mutual relapse on each others' bodies together. That's right, K, my "girl that got away" for five years, wants to start having casual sex with me. And I want to do the same with her. She told me that this dude she's been with has turned her into a pornstar in the bedroom (she's a gorgeous girl with a body that always turned me on instantly, but she was always so shy, so bashful in bed when I intimately knew her). She's telling me that if I want to start sleeping with (er..."fucking her," as she insisted it would be), that I would need to tie her up, spank her, do anal with her, and a bunch of other crazy sex acts that I have fantasized about doing with any women, let alone the one who got away, for a good amount of time now.
She wants to draft up a few erotic scenarios with me and then start the casual sex within the week. We both cannot wait to start FUCKING EACH OTHER LIKE KINKY RABBITS very soon. Good god, this is a fantasy-come-true, this is SERIOUSLY GOOD STUFF. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT THIS IS REALLY HAPPENING TO ME. I hope I can live up to her expectations, my gosh...and the heroin has killed my sex-drive over the past little bit. I mean it's all but gone. I've already got the Suboxone and the detox plan, I cannot wait for my sex drive to come roaring back and my dream girl, my K who left me 5 years ago and is now back, being the warm body that welcomes me back to the world where sex is better than drugs.
THIS IS SUCH A GOOD THING. I still need pinched. I mean this is possibly the best thing that's ever happened to me sexually (and it hasn't really even gotten started...).