KratomDemon
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jul 17, 2014
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Thanks guys - rational brain has saved the day the last couple days. Almost caving to the prospect of "just a little more"
Well done on the ability to resist the temptation man! I as well turned down a free 10mg oxy today at work on my 3rd day off the pills. Still can't believe I did that. Sitting at home now after the day's work, I'm really glad I did.
Well it’s been more than 2.5 years since my last post and well, you guessed it. Fell back into my old ways in mid Jan of 2016. Broke all the trust of my wife (who doesn’t know or maybe she does that I’m back on Kratom). My saving grace is I’ve worked to “limit” my intake so it didn’t get as high as last time. That being said, I’m still dosing 5-6 times per day, averaging 60 caps each day.
Last week I told myself enough - again. Setup a taper plan this go around because recalling the terrible withdrawals last time I quit has me wanting to avoid that at all costs.
I plan on checking in here daily. Today is my 3rd day of taper and has me at I believe 52 caps total (spread over 5 doses).
I’m 38 years old and have been on this shit now for more than a decade. I feel truly fortunate I’ve been able to maintain a career but relationships have all gone to shit. Time feels like it’s running out for me to make permanent changes in my life....
You got this!! If you taper slowly than it should be relatively painless. I just quit a kratom habit and I'm on day 23 and I feel so much better. I still have a bit of anxiety and blues but that is more indicative of my current situation. I only used kratom for 4 months at about 15-30 grams per day but that was on the tail end of another heroin relapse. I have been a heroin addict for 20 years. I am now over 4mths clean from that. Fuck opiates!! You will start to feel so much more alive when you are off that shit. Filling the time and finding energy and motivation might be a challenge in the beginning but once you reacclimate and start saving that money you'll feel like a champ...
If you can get gabapentin it will be a life saver.
Hey man, you got this! You did it before. Just keep in mind how good it felt once you were done, all that energy and motivation and no need to sneak around... living your life in the open is a great feeling.![]()
Thanks Xorkoth. I’m not giving up on the idea of beating this shit. At a minimum I’m going to ensure dosage doesn’t escalate and I can get continue to step down. I think I was too aggressive out of the gate dropping 2-3 caps each day when daily total was 60 to start. It got me unnecessarily anxious.I was addicted to opiates for 10 years and I've been addicted to phenibut, too. Every time you get physically dependent and go through withdrawals, it gets easier to get dependent again the next time, and the withdrawals are worse. It's a phenomenon known as "kindling". So it actually does get harder. However, after 10 years of opiates (the first 6 were primarily kratom and then I moved to harder opiates when it basically just stopped doing anything but preventing withdrawal), I have been clean for 6 years and it's been a long time since I even struggled with it. It takes a while to feel 100% normal but it's totally worth it.![]()
If you can get ahold of some gabapentin, it can help a whole lot with the withdrawals. If you just take it for like a week, you'll be past almost all of the kratom withdrawals and it won't be long enough to get dependent on gabapentin.