liquidocean
Bluelighter
Jeez, the bloodbath continues. I am really unable to move forward with my heart towards someone new. I need a new girlfriend. I love my ex and am willing to give it a good second try, but she is complacent and not confident it could be good, but she misses and cherishes our relationship at its peak, but now it is tough, and i am the only one trying.
Single life for me has sucked, and i'd like to give it another try before becoming involved with another woman. At this point she has cut me off from lovemaking and may be interested in another man............
I am reduced to a beggar for love, and her stubbornness and apparent heartlessness is so consuming.
Yet i continue on, so is my devotion.
Read on, thanks........
L/O
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you are taking something i see as heaven's mercy,
our dual cultivation,
our lovemaking,
our tenderness,
our release,
our dance......
and you are sacrificing it on the full moon
on the 14th full moon since we came together,
and it pains me DEEPLY, and it is a hard thing for me to swallow....
but i do, with blessings, because i care about you
and i want you to be strong
and i want you to have every advantage
accepting this is a gift from me to you
it is one of the hardest things i think i will ever do
please RESPECT it, do something with it,
make it liberate you the way you expect it,
because you put so much weight on it,
it should be worth something.
this is the most beautiful coming together,
the happiest bliss
the warmest compassion
the loviest smiles
the deepest hug
from the person i love the most
and i don't see it as the poison
i see it as a cure
but you see differently
and i will compromise what i value most for you.
I hope you stay accountable
and re-examine this compromise
and judge its effects on you
in the weeks and months and moons to come
and reconsider what the boy had to say
what your heart has to say
and consider being flexible with your options.....
nothing is the same forever,
grab the blessings while they're there
----------
you will surely feel a new man inside you
i feel that is what you silently need
to make your closure, you may disagree
but some day it will happen
and some day you will love another besides me
i am training myself to come to terms with this
it is hard, sweetheart
i have wanted to be good with you
i have been trying to resusucitate the magic
bring warmth to the light
that once existed in our warm glow
but if you have decided that it will not exist anymore
it will not, perhaps in the next life, or the next, or never
i am the slave of fate, and subject to the will of destiny
i hope you find happiness
within yourself, and with whoever you decide to be with
as much as i may feel remorse and pain
i hope it does not detract from your happiness
that is what i consider true love...........
and perhaps this opportunity will push me out of the womb
and into something better that i've always hoped for
so be it, if it is to be
but accept the purity of my love and devotion
that against all odds, i hold the torch high for you
and with my ailing spirit, and tired hands
i have tried to pump life into our terminal child
when the spirit was long passed away
refusing to believe the love was officially over
--------------
my heart changes directions slowly
and i'm trying real hard
but it's so hard to flow against what was my true calling
the calling of my truest love..........
i hope you understand, because i think you don't
or maybe life will make this a good thing in the end
because it seems so hopeless
so devoid of real closure, emotion, and warmth
such an avoidance of our souls
that is just my opinion, as i am entitled to
have........
------------
when he slides into you, when he pumps you
when he kisses you, and explodes in your womb;
just don't hold back, explode with emotion
like we did under our first full moon
cry and break open
experience love as if it were new..........
--------------
i ask you to remember me at some point
and to cherish what we had
and to only separate yourself from the bad
all i want is for you to honor what was sacred between us
the process that made us what we are today
don't bury it, plant it, and let it breathe the same clean air you do
keep a sanctuary in your heart that is just for me
as i have been doing for you
containing only the most cherished feelings,
and memories,
and images,
and sensations
because they were true and will always be true
no matter what may happen in our life paths
we were together at one point,
and it was undeniably love,
and may it reverberate forever
through the canyons of time,
the bliss of wholeness and union
that we experienced together
it is over, but it will remain alive with me
as i hope it does with you
it is a blessing, please honor it
as you do your own soul
as i am a creation of that very same soul,
standing before you in contemplation,
patiently awaiting my other half, my reflection
to some day come to the same conclusion
praying for the paradise of oneness
with my arms wide open,
waiting for the day
you can once again consider us home..........
-------------
i love you
please keep a place for me in your heart
i hope we come together again
or find a better happiness
life and love are precious
use them wisely
-------------
liquidocean
12/13/1999 - this is when our love was born
3/8/2001 - this was when it was laid to rest
we were there
never forget that..........
i
love
you
always
http://www.geocities.com/onazif/images/omar/loandpf.jpg
[This message has been edited by liquidocean (edited 14 March 2001).]
Single life for me has sucked, and i'd like to give it another try before becoming involved with another woman. At this point she has cut me off from lovemaking and may be interested in another man............
I am reduced to a beggar for love, and her stubbornness and apparent heartlessness is so consuming.
Yet i continue on, so is my devotion.
Read on, thanks........
L/O
-----------------
you are taking something i see as heaven's mercy,
our dual cultivation,
our lovemaking,
our tenderness,
our release,
our dance......
and you are sacrificing it on the full moon
on the 14th full moon since we came together,
and it pains me DEEPLY, and it is a hard thing for me to swallow....
but i do, with blessings, because i care about you
and i want you to be strong
and i want you to have every advantage
accepting this is a gift from me to you
it is one of the hardest things i think i will ever do
please RESPECT it, do something with it,
make it liberate you the way you expect it,
because you put so much weight on it,
it should be worth something.
this is the most beautiful coming together,
the happiest bliss
the warmest compassion
the loviest smiles
the deepest hug
from the person i love the most
and i don't see it as the poison
i see it as a cure
but you see differently
and i will compromise what i value most for you.
I hope you stay accountable
and re-examine this compromise
and judge its effects on you
in the weeks and months and moons to come
and reconsider what the boy had to say
what your heart has to say
and consider being flexible with your options.....
nothing is the same forever,
grab the blessings while they're there
----------
you will surely feel a new man inside you
i feel that is what you silently need
to make your closure, you may disagree
but some day it will happen
and some day you will love another besides me
i am training myself to come to terms with this
it is hard, sweetheart
i have wanted to be good with you
i have been trying to resusucitate the magic
bring warmth to the light
that once existed in our warm glow
but if you have decided that it will not exist anymore
it will not, perhaps in the next life, or the next, or never
i am the slave of fate, and subject to the will of destiny
i hope you find happiness
within yourself, and with whoever you decide to be with
as much as i may feel remorse and pain
i hope it does not detract from your happiness
that is what i consider true love...........
and perhaps this opportunity will push me out of the womb
and into something better that i've always hoped for
so be it, if it is to be
but accept the purity of my love and devotion
that against all odds, i hold the torch high for you
and with my ailing spirit, and tired hands
i have tried to pump life into our terminal child
when the spirit was long passed away
refusing to believe the love was officially over
--------------
my heart changes directions slowly
and i'm trying real hard
but it's so hard to flow against what was my true calling
the calling of my truest love..........
i hope you understand, because i think you don't
or maybe life will make this a good thing in the end
because it seems so hopeless
so devoid of real closure, emotion, and warmth
such an avoidance of our souls
that is just my opinion, as i am entitled to
have........
------------
when he slides into you, when he pumps you
when he kisses you, and explodes in your womb;
just don't hold back, explode with emotion
like we did under our first full moon
cry and break open
experience love as if it were new..........
--------------
i ask you to remember me at some point
and to cherish what we had
and to only separate yourself from the bad
all i want is for you to honor what was sacred between us
the process that made us what we are today
don't bury it, plant it, and let it breathe the same clean air you do
keep a sanctuary in your heart that is just for me
as i have been doing for you
containing only the most cherished feelings,
and memories,
and images,
and sensations
because they were true and will always be true
no matter what may happen in our life paths
we were together at one point,
and it was undeniably love,
and may it reverberate forever
through the canyons of time,
the bliss of wholeness and union
that we experienced together
it is over, but it will remain alive with me
as i hope it does with you
it is a blessing, please honor it
as you do your own soul
as i am a creation of that very same soul,
standing before you in contemplation,
patiently awaiting my other half, my reflection
to some day come to the same conclusion
praying for the paradise of oneness
with my arms wide open,
waiting for the day
you can once again consider us home..........
-------------
i love you
please keep a place for me in your heart
i hope we come together again
or find a better happiness
life and love are precious
use them wisely
-------------
liquidocean
12/13/1999 - this is when our love was born
3/8/2001 - this was when it was laid to rest
we were there
never forget that..........
i
love
you
always
http://www.geocities.com/onazif/images/omar/loandpf.jpg
[This message has been edited by liquidocean (edited 14 March 2001).]
