Just said to goodbye to crystal meth a week ago, crushing depression now..

Stimlover22

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So I have been completely clean from shard for about a week now. I had been using (mostly smoking it) about weekly for two months straight and have had to quit abruptly when my dealer said he's done and gettin clean so no more. He was my only source so I quit too, I am glad now because I did major thinking and I need to quit and walk away from it and never look back, I have spent over 2k on it in two months, and it's time I clean up and get with it so I have been clean a week today. I lost my job because I have done nothing but sleep since I quit and ended up sleeping my shift away, my appetite has been in full force and I just have the most debilitating depression right now it's driving me insane.I keep trying to hit my pipe even though I know damn well I will never get another hit because it's been washed and clean but still haven't been able to dispose of my syringes and pipes discreetly so it's messing with my head having them in my possession still. I have Chelated Magnesium, algal 900 DHA supplements and a Wellbutrin prescription, so how long will it take to get over this hump and will any of these supplements help me in the long run?
 
I don't know about the supplements, but what I can say is that the depression you're feeling is perfectly normal and anyone who's been through a withdrawal has experienced it. It's tough a first, but it does get better with time and you just need to focus on yourself/on other things and let time pass. Eventually you'll be extremely happy you decided to quit (congrats by the way).
 
pagey knows whats up...good advice

how is that hunger hey...its like you eat but you dont get full, its like to food isnt just filling your belly its filling your whole greasy shell of a body...i fucking loved having my appetite back

smash the pipe dude...smash the fucker up and enjoy smashing it up. i ended up going down to the ocean and throwing my pipe off a cliff...it was either the pipe or me and the pipe got it...it was sort of like a personal ceremony for me the break up no turning back...hopefully

good luck and stay strong, hopefully you will feel a lot better soon!!! exercise helped me greatly too once i had any strength back
 
Good work quitting for a week stimlover, that's a massive feat when you've been using frequently.

Personally I found it took two months until the acute withdrawal from meth was over - when I started to feel somewhat 'normal' and stopped craving intensely. I agree with laugh that exercise is really useful, don't feel that you have to force yourself in the first week or two either. Take that time to sleep and eat and recuperate, though a walk outside would still be really beneficial at this stage. Getting into stronger exercise can really get your natural pleasure centres working. I love running and it takes me a hard run to get that 'runner's high' but I can get there - if I jog until I'm exhausted and at that point of exhaustion, sprint as fast as I can, pretend the cops are behind me, and run until I feel like I'm going to collapse.

I took fish oil, magnesium, vitamin b complex, and multivitamin when I quit. I don't know how beneficial vitamins are, but b vitamins and magnesium are claimed to be particularly useful for methamphetamine addicts. Fish oil is beneficial for everyone, and I'd recommend everyone take it (if they don't eat oily fish a couple times a week).

I gave my pipes away because I didn't want to smash them, I had so many pipe smashing ceremonies over the years though.

The toughest part can be the psychological aspect, the craving to use can be very strong. I still get intense cravings even over a year and a half down the track. Do you have any mental tactics that you use when the cravings get strong? I think that without these it could be hard to stay off, even though you don't have a source, us addicts can be very resourceful and I know it wouldn't take me long to find a dealer if I was desperate. I would recommend mindfullness meditation - you don't even have to 'meditate' to practice this, although that is extremely beneficial too. It's about fully being in the present - rather than living in the past or the future, where anxiety, depression and often cravings reside. If you notice yourself thinking about the future - maybe worrying about how long you'll feel depressed, feeling your whole life without meth stretch interminably long in front of you or wondering and planning when you can get on, or living in the past - stressing about how much money you've spent or how much damage you've caused - bring yourself back to the present by focussing on what's happening right now - what you can hear, what you can see, what sensations you can feel in your body. It can really help make bad feelings more manageable.

All the best.
 
i ended up going down to the ocean and throwing my pipe off a cliff...it was either the pipe or me and the pipe got it...it was sort of like a personal ceremony for me the break up no turning back...hopefully

That is very powerful, Laugh. Congratulations.<3

OP, massive congratulations to you, too. Footscrazy just gave the same advice I was going to. Mindfulness is a very useful philosophy for life's hard times--this one you are going through right now as well as any that will inevitably come in the future. <3
 
It will take some time to get back to the baseline, especially w/ meth. But that doesn't mean it will be terrible the whole way there. It is very fortunate your dealer bowed out when they did, b/c while you weren't abusing for a long duration, it sounds like you were doing a lion's head worth of the stuff. You may have narrowly escaped some psychosis, which is permanent - there are some trips you just don't come back from. Keep that in mind when you are desperately craving, that you can fuck up your mind lastingly w/ this drug, and when you do it is noticeable outwardly. If you've ever seen behavioral symptoms of meth psychosis (the gyrating jaw, the spasms, the facial twitches and the shuffling gait) you ought to keep them in mind. The reason I mention these isn't to scare you, but in case you haven't, you need to find reasons aside from finances and your dealer bailing to stay off. Other dealers will come, and there are always ways to make money when push comes to shove - and a lot of that becomes incomprehensibly depleting on the soul or psyche, whichever you prefer. It sounds like you know your habit wasn't sustainable and it has already led you places undesired.

footcrazy's advice is sound. The best thing you can do is build your neurochemisty and physiology back day-by-day. Investigate a diet for recovering meth addicts, exercise plans, and meditation. Try to get out to see and do new things you never would consider before. Your cells are highly responsive to everything you allow into your body and sometimes healthy nutrition, activity, new experiences, and personal quiet time can do more than meds. Supplements are a good start.

Personally, it took me about 18 months before I felt revived from meth abuse - but I believe this is largely b/c I didn't change anything in my body's chemistry other than relieving it of the amphetamine abuse.

Best of luck, and know that you can do this.
 
Thank you all for the advice, I will take it all in and shoot for the best. I am noticing that each day is getting a tad bit better, and I am enjoying having my appetite it's just that it's came back so hard that I am now getting low on food, with no more income since losing my fucking job but I am starting to see a faint, but visible, light at the end of the tunnel. I am getting better, and I will be damned if I ever decide to go back to the gear now. Thanks to you all, again :)
 
Hey Stlim, how did it work out? I've been so depressed since I stopped shooting opiates that I'm wondering if speed is the only way to feel good. I guess I'll go for a run in a sec that usually does the trick. Ever since the AA hall burned down it's been rough. Hope you are here still.
 
motherofearth;10873295[FONT=Century Gothic said:
If you've ever seen behavioral symptoms of meth psychosis (the gyrating jaw, the spasms, the facial twitches and the shuffling gait) you ought to keep them in mind. [/FONT]

what do facial twitches and jaw clenching have to do with psychosis? i don't understand..... Your advice is sound though.

Ever since the AA hall burned down it's been rough.

did you have anything to do with it? :)

Stimlover22, proud of you mate. Incorporate intense/hardcore exercise into your routine, watch how amazing life gets after this. Go light on the work out in the beginning week, but after the first week make sure you work out like a champ. Skies the limit. It works for everyone, watch the difference it will make in your life.
 
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