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June Staying Clean thread vs. Summer breeze, makes me feel fiiiine.

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ad lib said:
That's awesome, congrats on your clean time! :) Awesome bracelet too. I love colors lol.
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Thank you :) and I gave it to him today and he liked it. Other than that, family group therapy helped a lot and hearing what other addicts/family members had to say... its helping my boyfriend and I out a lot.
 
Hey hope everyone is well. June wen't well for me, 110 days clean. Changed sober houses, love my new one and it's just me and my 2 best friends and our house manager who is also our friends. Life is really good haha just hitting the beach and NA meetings everyday. Parents are paying for rent to let me focus on my recovery, no complaints.
 
48 days off of everything, namely heroin and pot. I hope things start to improve... I'm going to meetings have a sponsor work the steps etc. Life isn't "bad", but I feel like shit physically and mentally. No motivation, no ability to sleep on a regular schedule. Anxiety, lack of focus. I've been on bupe (again...) for over a month and i'm still having hot flashes and sensitivity to temperature change as well as absolutely no energy. I'm getting a blood test done to see if it's fucked up hormones, thyroid or adrenal gland. I don't know. Lacking motivation. Only reason I havent used is living at an SLE and the disastrous consequences if I fail again. I got no friends really, i mean i have people to chill with at the sober house but none of them want to go out and fucking do anything on days when i actually feel like i have enough energy. I had to delete the phone number of everyone i've met since moving to california a few years ago because they all use. Im fucking bored.

Is there really a light at the end of the tunnel? Because right now it seems like the end of the tunnel is a black hole.
 
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