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June Staying Clean thread vs. Summer breeze, makes me feel fiiiine.

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Still going strong but I keep giving myself triggering thoughts for some reason. IDK why it always happens at NA meetings too lol. Nothing to act on though.
 
^^i had that issue when I first got clean. People telling and elaborating on their war stories would trigger me sometimes, but it reinforced identification with them. It gets better my friend.
 
11 days today. It seems to be getting easier and I am less concerned about whether or not I will be drinking today. I do have to admit I almost did cave in but then lucky enough something got the better of me and I decided against it. Now when I feel like a drink I remind myself of what will happen and where I will be at tomorrow, this thought alone scares me - all for a few hours of numbness which leaves me in a shitter state than I need to be in.

Unfortunately having been an almost daily heavy drinker my brain is still readjusting and I still feel dazed some days. I've been told by some recovering alcoholics from AA that this is quite normal as you are going through an identity change so to say.

Any how it does get better and you end up having to worry about less which is good. Also with the money I would of pissed up on booze I got some toys for my nephews and embraced a good bonding session with them. Much better to see them smile than the fucks who sell the booze and pocket all the cash :)
 
Congrats everyone on sobriety and keep pushing, 4 years clean for me as of last month! feels good :)
 
Hi guys.

Got clean for about three months, had a couple slips, now it's been a week clean.
I'm determined to persevere.

God work everybody!

rx_prn said:
I need to cut down in benzos big time- If I quit opiates ct I can taper off benzos I hope...
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I did it several years ago and the urge to use never came back, I can even take one once in a while when I am super stressed.
Anyway, if you stretch it out several weeks and stick to the taper, it's not hard to do, just "weird," is how I would put it.
 
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Neversickanymore, "addiction" is misspelled in your signature. :P

I'm doing alright today. On lunch break from work, browsing SD, got pumped by the Arnold Schwarzenegger motivational video posted there, and am ready to kick ass when I clock back in. Then tomorrow during my split shift, gonna watch the video again and lift so hard.
 
Day 2 no alcohol. It's been ruining my relationships and my life big time as have etizolam and meth and just drugs in general. Stupidly shot up my subutex again (after having complications from IV'ing last week) yesterday evening after my last drink. Didn't feel nothing. What a waste of my health. Still tapering sub and really starting to taper by taking a full 24hrs off then taking half or a quarter my regular dose and doing a quick taper. Started taking small amounts of clonazepam for benzo withdrawal and panic and to help the sub withdrawal. The clonaz is a short term thing (5 day script) as I don't want to get addicted to it again (been on it on and off for over 10 years and I am 23). I am getting into a 15 month dual diagnosis rehab in Poland here within the next few weeks!! Very excited :) Can't wait to tell you guys a real clean date without all these meds in my system. Keep up all the good work. Nobody knows how hard it is to do this besides us and it's the hardest thing in the world. If we can do this we can do anything.
 
Hey everyone. It's always great to read about people moving forward one day at a time and conquering there addictions. I will be 2 years sober on June the 18th. Peace :) x
 
Hardly my biggest problem, but today is 2 weeks clean off the green. Been a long while since I could say that as, with anything else, I can't control my usage.
Not planning on abstaining permanently, but right now isn't a good time. Now I'm trying to tackle alcohol, had a week free then messed up bad 4 days. On day 4 now and hoping I can carry the month which would be a minor miracle.
 
SilverFeniks said:
Hardly my biggest problem, but today is 2 weeks clean off the green. Been a long while since I could say that as, with anything else, I can't control my usage.
Not planning on abstaining permanently, but right now isn't a good time. Now I'm trying to tackle alcohol, had a week free then messed up bad 4 days. On day 4 now and hoping I can carry the month which would be a minor miracle.
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congrats on your sober time!

how does having 4 days sober from alcohol feel?
 
Hey davy.. way to keep at it and the best of luck in the dual diagnoses.. if i were entering rehab thats the way I would go as I feel there is always an underlying cause that made is enjoy drugs so much in the beginning. You can do this and you should be able to reach an amazing place where you are at peace most of the time.

Hey bartman, welcome the SL.. congratulations on the clean time, you should be able offer some wisdom around here.

yo silver, every months a miracle.. and there are a bunch of miracles on this thread.. just take it for the day, a couple days equal a month, but just remain in today, it helps with the emotional part of the paws, if we get into yesterday we get hit with remorse, shame, guilt.. and if we get into tomorrow, we get hit with fear, apprehension, self doubt, panic.. just hang in today and stay sober for it.. all we need to do, and todays all we ever have anyway.. way to keep at it.

I'm really having a pretty damn good day today:) b
 
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congrats on your sober time!

how does having 4 days sober from alcohol feel?
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Pretty strange .. not used to coming home from a rough day at work and pouring a glass of iced tea, or being sober at sunset.
Feels great to feel healthy though.
Trying to concentrate on just taking my meds & eating healthy.

Thnx for the advice neversickanymore ... I usually do dwell on the past and obsess about the future, so living in a sober present is going to require adjustment and focus.

First day of Summer is just around the corner, good time for a fresh start :)
 
I'm really attempting the same thing over and over again - trying to deny that I feel so much better when I take stimulants. I keep trying to sustain from using because of my inability to focus on the things I really need while on them, and then realize the issues are the same with/with out them. I may as well feel better if I'm going to be trying, right?

-dp
 
Been off Subutex something like four months now. Haven't exactly been a perfectly good boy in that time, per se, but no major relapses.

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I don't know. I'm trying, I really am...
 
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