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June Getting/Staying Clean/Sober Thread vs It's Finally Beach Weather!

Congratulations to everyone for fighting the good fight against addiction! Even if you don't have much clean time, it's still a good thing for you that you are even taking steps to get clean! Tomorrow I will have 9 weeks clean from psychedelics and 6 days clean from weed! I am doing so much better than when I was using! My life is so much more pleasant, I can't believe I was in a using rut for so long when I could have been living happily sober like I am now. But I am content with how my life is right now, so in a weird way I have no regrets, because maybe I had to go through the hell of using to get to the heaven of what my life is right now. However, I can confidently say that I will never use again. I just have too much to stay sane and stable and clean for. I am thankful for so many things right now: my loving girlfriend, my loving family and friends, my carpentry job, my fruitful garden, my good health, my skills and hobbies, my awesome car, and my dreams and aspirations which, now that I am off drugs, I believe that I can and will accomplish! I will never jeopardize any of that just to get high for a few hours. I have so much in my future that I want to do and I won't let drug use get in my way! It's not that I didn't enjoy the highs of using. I really did. But, now that I have so much love and good in my life, I am constantly feeling naturally more high than I ever did from any drug. And I believe that if I were to use now it would only bring me down because it might take away from me the good things in my life that I have thanks in large part to my sobriety. Thank you everyone on this forum for the support that you all have given me and each other, you all have inspired me and helped me so much with your posts. May we all win this battle with addiction! I know that I am winning it. But it wasn't long ago that I was hopelessly losing the battle, in and out of mental hospitals and doctor's offices, mentally ill from using too much ecstasy and acid. And one of the worst parts about when I was using was how empty my life was compared to how full my life is now. Now my life has righted itself and I am really coming into my own. I am so proud of myself for this, and I owe a fair share of gratitude to all you folks on this forum for giving me inspiration and hope to turn to when I was trying to come out of my dark days of active addiction. May we all feel as good as I feel right now, loving life and thankful to be sober! PLUR to all!
 
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THECATINTHEHAT said:
I guess I'm somewhere around two months off benzos and opiates now. I've basically completely given up drinking too (drunk on a couple of occasions in that time) and over the last month or so I've only used cannabis a couple of times (although actually I keep intending to do that more often and then not getting round to it=D). I haven't consumed an intoxicant of any kind in weeks, although I'm not actually trying to be completely abstinent. I feel kind of stable and comfortable in the path I'm taking which is very very strange. I'm enjoying living the way I am, and even when I've had longer periods of being abstinent that hasn't been the case it has been alien and harsh.
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Congrats Cat in the Hat on two months! Those were the hardest for me to quit, opiates/benzos. Awesome!
 
Had a therapy appointment yesterday and it really helped put things into perspective for me. Still really miss my GF (or is she an ex) but I will be okay with whatever happens.

Now going to the gym and a little latter meeting up with the sponsor to go over my 10th step.
 
^Congratulations on 8 months clean from H, opiates, opioids, etc!!
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thanks!!

to be honest, the only drugs I've used in this time period are...

cannabis (and its extracts, i.e. shatter)
alcohol
salvia 80x extract
caffeine

so basically (with the exception of alcohol), I gave up all hard drugs. :)

and I don't drink regularly, and am able to drink normal amounts. my significant other, on the other hand, is not - and normally cannot stop drinking once they start
 
Congrats on 8 months clean from opiates Captain. My brother will also have 8 months clean (opiates were his DOC too) in a couple days. I'm so proud of him, as you must be of yourself
 
Hi, everyone... sorry for the long silence! My NA sponsor told me that I had to stop frequenting BL because it was too tied up with my using. There's probably some truth in that, but I wanted to drop in and see how folks are doing. And not surprisingly, I'm impressed: you all are kicking ass and taking names.

I'm in a bit of a quandary right now. I had gotten really committed to NA--got a generous sponsor, made meetings, did lots of reading and stepwork. But I kept relapsing each time I got a few weeks clean. After a few months of this, the chorus of people telling me that I wasn't "surrendering to the Program" started to piss me off. The response was always the same: you need more meetings, more service work. I was OK with this until I was going to two or three meetings a day and spending most of my other time with NA literature (I've got time off from work right now). I simply *can't* go to more meetings than this or devote more of my time to NA. More importantly, I started to feel that things were getting creepy. I won't go into too much detail, other than to say that in order to continue in NA I was going to have to surrender aspects of myself that I simply don't believe are liabilities and that I'm not willing to trade away. So I've decided to take at least a temporary break from NA.

I do want to make clear that I'm not indicting NA in general... I know that for some people it works great. But I gave it as good a try as I could, and all I can say is that for now anyway, it's not for me.

So, now I'm back to trying to stay clean without a local support network (NA is the only game in town where I live). I was very happy to see so many familiar names when I read this thread!

PS: today is day 21 clean for me.

-Sim
 
Congrats simco for 21 days!

I start tomorrow a 5 week sober season. Is so hot this days hard to sleep with 35ºc:X,...

I GO FOR IT, 5 week clean, body and mind preparation for mountain biking, see you in july thread ok???
 
Captain.Heroin said:
thanks!!

to be honest, the only drugs I've used in this time period are...

cannabis (and its extracts, i.e. shatter)
alcohol
salvia 80x extract
caffeine

so basically (with the exception of alcohol), I gave up all hard drugs. :)

and I don't drink regularly, and am able to drink normal amounts. my significant other, on the other hand, is not - and normally cannot stop drinking once they start
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Hey trip, the goal is to cushion your impact. Now that you know you're falling, try to decelerate, know what I mean? Sometimes you can't bend your mind around a free-fall, but maybe since you know what's happening, you can do something to help slow you down. You might do so many somethings that you can pick yourself right back up and continue with your life. :) God bless you.
 
Hi there
ONE MONTH CLEAN!!!
31 days today
congeats to everyone that is fighting the good fight
it doesn't matter whether you have 10 years, 1 year, 1month or 1day. Just trying to live a better life, do things a bit differntly-it all matters. It shows that we care about ourselves, or at the very least, we care about something
thanks for all your support this month-I would never have gotten through month one without you
 
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