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June Getting/Staying Clean/Sober Thread vs It's Finally Beach Weather!

So I spent about a month completely clean and I loved it. Then I thought I was God and got back on oxys for a couple months. My wife caught me and I nearly lost what little I had left. I went through the full run of withdrawals again (this time with her knowledge and support) and then relapsed for 3 days at really low dosage. I, of course, feel like an idiot for doing so.....anyway, I'm 3 days in after that short relapse and I have very very minor withdrawals but overall I feel great. June is my month for sure.
 
Ruby Slippers said:
So l have fallen off a bit. Have taken some Norcos and a few methadone over the weekend. So here is to a new day one for me tomorrow:) Congrats to everyone who is doing such a good job...l need to figure out what's contributing to my slip ups and start fresh. Overall l have been feeling pretty positive, but l would like to achieve complete abstinence at this point. Hope everyone enjoyed their weekends!
Ruby
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@Ruby, this is part of our recovery. Start again and don't look back. It's okay! You can do this! :)
 
Day 15.

It seems that the first week after acute withdrawal the whole notion of having naturally-occurring emotions again was such a novel and wonderful feeling, but now its novelty is wearing off and I'm kind of remembering why I fell back in to opioids a couple years ago. Granted this time around it's much easier & I'm much more determined. Plus I wasn't using any long-acting opiates like before, but it's still a situation where I need to hear someone tell me that 'it gets better' on a daily basis.
 
In a few days I will have 2 months clean from psychedelics! Plus I will have almost a week clean from weed. I'm doing sooo much better than when I was using, and I can't help but attribute much of this to staying clean, so I will continue to stay clean. I normally don't have an issue with weed but my girlfriend wants me to quit so I shall honor her wish as long as I am with her, hopefully for the rest of my life because we love each other . But the psychedelics I shall never do again just for my own sake, I hate the way they change my brain chemistry so much. Even though I do enjoy smoking weed, I am getting a lot of satisfaction from quitting it, I think it will open new doors for me now that I will be able to pass a drug test, plus it gives me more time to do other things, expanding my horizons. I am so happy right now, my life now is so much better than when I was using. Also, my brother is about to get 8 months clean from opiates and all drugs and alcohol! I'm so proud of him and myself. Let's all keep focusing on being clean and good things will come!
 
Hey snort and CH-congratulations to both of you on such awesome achievements.
CH-looking forward to seeing you get 8 months-will that be the longest you've gone?
i guess I less than a week away from one month

im going through a pretty tough time right now dealing with some issues with my daughter, and she sent me this link. I thought it was profound. For some reason I can't get it to link properly. Can anyone figure it out and post it for me?
or maybe I'm not allowed to post a link?
anyway, thanks for whatever help you can give
www.youtube.com/watch?v=V7OGY1Jxp3o
 
Hey Imtryin,
Congrats on your clean time.. you are doing great! I do want to throw this out there, take it or leave it, but getting clean is only the beginning of the journey we call recovery.
It sounds like you need a program to learn to begin to live your life emotionally sober. They call the 12 steps a "design for living", and I found that to be true when I worked the 12 step programs my first time in recovery. It was crucial in giving me a way to manage my problems, emotions, feelings, thoughts, baggage, etc. There are other pathways to emotional recovery: you can go to individual therapy, check out SMART recovery, and I think there are other methods. Life is gonna happen, and I think Phactor's posts reflect the help he is getting through the program of NA. I think BL is wonderful, and yet, there is a lot to be said for f2f support as an adjunct to BL when we are in emotional crisis. You might want to think about what your next step in your recovery program is going to be.
My prayers go out to you and your daughter.
 
Erikmen said:
@Ruby, this is part of our recovery. Start again and don't look back. It's okay! You can do this! :)
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Thanks Eric that means a lot:). Congrats to Captain H and Smoky on the huge amount of months of sobriety, l will think of you both when l need some inspiration. I slipped up a little on the opiates but l haven't had any benzos in a couple weeks. Hope everyone is having a good week! :)
 
Smoky, CH, Totach, Phactor, pinpoint, and snort: Congrats on the clean time re: your various drugs of choice and more!
Ruby: you sound so positive and upbeat... you are doing great!
I have my pain management appt later today (Thursday)... it is weird to have a bunch of pills left at the end of the month... my taper plan is working well at this time. I will see how things go at my appointment and then revise my plan to continue to taper slowly. I will be having major changes to my living situation the beginning of next week that will definitely impact my level of pain - I may need to go into a holding pattern re: my current level of meds... as long as I am trending downward over the long term in quantity and intensity I am happy. Thanks to all the BL's who have been supportive and encouraging.
 
Congrats Smoky!! I remember your first week.
I'm still 4,5 months off. Hope I can get past 1 year.
The lack of Methadone still makes me suffer almost everyday.
 
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Hi there!!
ruby and poke mama -you both sound so positive, I'm glad things are going so well!!
26 days for me today, and I had a really good day!!!!
 
Thanks you guys, and Phactor I remember you from when I first joined. :) <3

Erik, Congratulations! Try not to focus on a year… It's amazing, you have come so far. Methadone is a beast to come off of. Hang in there… just look at how far you've come and the progress you made. <3
 
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I guess I'm somewhere around two months off benzos and opiates now. I've basically completely given up drinking too (drunk on a couple of occasions in that time) and over the last month or so I've only used cannabis a couple of times (although actually I keep intending to do that more often and then not getting round to it=D). I haven't consumed an intoxicant of any kind in weeks, although I'm not actually trying to be completely abstinent. I feel kind of stable and comfortable in the path I'm taking which is very very strange. I'm enjoying living the way I am, and even when I've had longer periods of being abstinent that hasn't been the case it has been alien and harsh.
 
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