Jay Arel, I love you.

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

I can't even begin to tell you,
how much I love you.
I've used this word so many times before,
and even used a different one,
to justify something different
than anyone else has ever said.
But I find
reguardless of what I say,
it still wouldn't give you the best definition
of how I feel for you.
And a few times
you'd made a comment on how
I get out of bed to go to the computer.
I'm sorry I can't sleep.
We're on different schedules.
But tonight,
while I was holding you
watching tv while you feel asleep,
I didn't want to move from that
moment of perfection.
I reached my arm around you
and gripped semi-tight
and whispered the words
"I LOVE YOU"
and you mumbled back,
"I LOVE YOU TOO"
I didn't think you heard me.
It's not that you weren't meant to....
it's just that, I didn't want to wake you.
And the only reason this evening,
that I crawl away from you
is just to sit on this floor
with my beer and cigarettes
and write a few lines
to express to you,
just how it is I feel.
There's nothing catchy here.
Nothing rhyming,
no double meaning.
I know you'll read this eventually.
And all it is simply,
is just to tell you,
once again,
how much I fucking love you.

 

[katmeow]

But tonight,
while I was holding you
watching tv while you feel asleep,
I didn't want to move from that
moment of perfection.

It's amazing how the moments of 'just being' can be among the most perfect in life

Nice work!!

 

[SnowFrog]

I have read every piece that u have posted on this site-I am very intigued by ur writing. Through the last couple of months u have written so many times about a certain someone and I am assuming that "jay" is the subject of almost all those other pieces.

I think it is very beautiful to watch someone or urself grow into a conclusion all by urself. Even though I haven't the faintist idea of u, it was very pretty to read ur growth.

B :D

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

 

[E-girl]

I didn't think you heard me.
It's not that you weren't meant to....
it's just that, I didn't want to wake you.

there are a lot of times i watch my sweet boy sleeping too, and i just want to tell him all those things while he sleeps.
somehow i think he'd still hear me.

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

Yes, I have to agree that I think they really do hear everything.
That whole selective hearing crap is really, umm... selective.

It's funny, ya know, he could be sleeping and I could ask him if he wants a drink, or to move over, or to give me my favorite pillow back, or even some more covers for that matter....
and for some darned reason, he doesn't hear me. 8(

But.... subconsciencly I can get him with the i love you's


tehe.