i've fucked up....big time

everything ive done lately ive fucked up.

now i might have lost everything i love.

my daughter
my bestfriend

I sit here holding back tears, i cant cry i cant cry i have to be strong.

i never meant to be anything but a good mother, a good friend.

btw, i never meant to come off as stalkerish or anything but a friend.....and to my kid.....a good mother.

seems i can't do anything right.

i cant cry, i cant cry, i MUST be strong.
crying is a weakness.

i fail at everything.

i cant cry i cant cry i cant.

 

hey, there isn't anything wrong with crying, excessive crying, maybe but i'm one of those dude's who always thought crying showed weakness. It doesn't.

I've seen some real tough motherfuckers bawl their eyes out. Never lost a drop of respect for them and actually respect them more for it

 

Sometimes a good cry is JUST what you need to release a little bit of the pressure.

 

i cant stop bawling is the issue. ive lost mybestfriend to stpupidity on my part and he was my ONLY friend, the best and awesomest ..... now i got no one but an ex that hates me and a 4yr old.

i fucked up bad and now i cant fix it......i cant stop bawling.

i cant.
i fucking cant.

 

*big hugs* I'm so sorry to hear about all this shit you're going through, Crevan. Have a good cry - it does help to release the emotions. I really hope things work out in the end. Remember, I'm only a PM away if you need to talk. I'm always happy to offer some support.