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PhatKat726

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Hey BL,
This is my first time posting on blue light so bear with me, I've always used this site for info but can't find much for my particular situation. I need some input as I feel I'm one of the few who is addicted to shooting Molly. This has developed over the last month. I used to be an IV opiate addict for about 2 years..I'm a diabetic so I always have syringes. About 2 years ago I had a month binge of E pills (taken orally) almost everyday, so I'm wondering if I'm still recovering from that? But this is getting out of control now...I definitely had mild serotonin syndrome last night...hallucinations continued for 8 hours after the fact. And I went to work the last week 70+ hours each day after the minimum gram of Molly the night before. Maybe 2-3 hours of sleep each night sometimes none. the serotonin syndrome symptoms last night (sweating, cev's/oev's , shaking hands, tremors, eyes shaking, etc..) seriously scared me and I said this has to be it. But after work today i went and got another gram and a half! Crazy! The most I've done in a night is 3.5 grams, sickening. I know the redosing doesn't help anything and trying to roll at all is pointless due to the frequency with which I've used over the last month. So I don't know what I'm really asking but this seems like the place get feedback, maybe someone here has experience or can shed some light. Thanks!!
 
You're going to fuck up your CNS in ways that are incredibly unpleasant. Keep this up and you'll be another one amongst many pleading for info about how to recover from it. MDMA is definitely going to be neurotoxic at your rate of abuse.
 
If I stop now what are my chances at not seeing much damage? What measures do i take to help the loooonnngg (i know) recovery from this recklessness?
 
Mmm, send a private message to Folley, you'll get more help with this in the ecstacy subforums.
 
I'm sending this to ED. Move to one of the recovery forums if you guise prefer :).




OP: I sincerely hope you slow your roll & things get better. It's hard--I know--but later you'll be grateful.
 
Your best bet, IMO, is to discontinue use immediately, and hope that you're one of the people who are more resilient to the effects of MDMA toxicity. The more you continue to use it the worse off you're going to be.
 
Oh my... you need to stop this. NOW.


There are very high chances that the "Molly" you are shooting is NOT MDMA. The only people I know of who go on binges like that are the ones shooting "bath salts" that they think is MDMA..

In that case, untold damage could have already been caused. This will only increase exponentially with every dose. You need to stop, ASAP.
 
It's crazy I can't not do it it seems like...all I can think about is the rush and not what it's wrecking inside. I'm somewhat self-educated regarding MDMA neurotoxicity thanks to forums like this and other websites, but somehow I justify it..I read about people taking all sorts I precautions for a 250mg initial dose and I don't know what to make of myself with how I dose which is insane, I can't find any other forums where someone IVs this much on a regular basis like I do. I've seen some say 3g two days, but that's oral! IV has to be way way more neurotoxic....why why knowing this do I still continue to want to do it and justify it and suffer the ever augmenting side effects every morning???
 
IMO you should stop now and not touch the stuff for years, but in this case probably ever. With that use you could probably be sure you have some long term damage, so the more you use the more severe it will get. Also if you have legit mdma I'd be more worried about overdosing with those type of doses more than anything. Reason I question your stuff is because my highest dose was about 850 grams in a night, if I doubled that I'm certain I would have ended up in the hospital.
 
You might want to think about rehab if you can phatkat, it doesn't sound like you can quit by yourself, and if you don't stop asap as others have said you are walking a very fine line of either doing severe long term damage to yourself, or possibly dying.
 
ive had some issues Iving mdma....but the difference was that I stopped after going through a gram in a few days because, the side effects became so awful and the high was minimal. it was nice at first, but after the 2nd or 3rd day there was not really a high, just a nauseous weak feeling whenever I would do it. So it was pretty easy to stop...I did a 2nd 3 day binge a month or so later and the comedown last a week and was pretty bad so I never did it again ( havn't even done it orrally since then.

I'm thinking you might be IVing a serotonergic stimulant that isn't mdma, if you are still getting a rush from it...bc as I said, I stopped getting anything remotley pleasant by the 2nd day after I would push.

Any how, it is serotonergic whatever the drug is, and like everyone has said this is an addiction MUCH worse than shooting meth or cocaine. I can't really think of a more dangerous addiction in terms of doing permanent damage to your body. What you are doing is much worrse for your brain and body than pretty much ANY addiction that I can think of, worse than any drug. If you cant stop and cannot afford to check yourself into rehab I would say you need to come out to your family and friends and tell them what is going on....coming out of the closet as an addict to those that care about you is a very good first step to quitting, you need the help of other people, obviously, you can't do it alone.
 
ah seek help. I remember that feeling well. I had to be stopped by being in rehab. Even though I went back for a little after it gave me enough clear minded time to start figuring out a plan that works for me to stop.

Just having a little time to break the ritual of iv use will help break the cycle.
 
Are you even eating properly? What type of diabetes do you have? I come from a family of diabetics and two great uncles had severe drinking problems tripled by their blood sugar issues.
 
I have type 1 diabetes....I've been eating pretty decently lately but I know I'm gonna crash hard if I keep this up...my body can only handle so much. As for rehab that's not really an option and neither is coming out to family...my opiate history has landed me in multiple rehabs already and I can't go back again or break the false hope I've built up....this last month has been eye opening though... Anyone have any supplement/diet regimen that may help?
 
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