Its gettin' bad

[chucky1432]

popped 6 more ativan, 6 more 150mg lyrica, 2 hydrocodone and 2 unknowns with a b12 shot in my ass. I'm hoping the vodka will assist in knocking me out quicker. I sure would love to feel a high before I zonk.

Never really got into pills but this may help

Dude you're really not making your situation any better by taking all that shit. You need to get some major help before it's too late...

 

[stimutant]

you wrote that your guy is cool - maybe you should tell him whats up as soon as possible & tell him to cut you down.
and then go to rehab.

for sure thats not a nice perspective, but i think thats the best you can do.

 

[`pr0digy]

I hope your okay man...

Please check yourself into rehab - deal with any shit you gotta deal with AFTER you go in, else your never get there! Inpatient and CA are/is saving my life, 42 days today by the grace of God, and I was hopeless, empty, soulless... I can relate. Getting yourself into rehab is the best thing you can do right now!

 

[opiatekrzy]

Can you believe i filtered the remains of blood left in old syringes and shot it? What the fuck is wrong with me?

um...that is fairly normal for any IV user that is an addict, i cant count how many times i tried soaking cottons, sucking up the water, rinsing my spoons, caps, etc...its part of the game with IV, just like a pothead scrapes resin out of a bowl, or when a crackhead, keeps shifting the choreboy up and down the stem...nothing is wrong with you dude! dont be so hard on urself bro

 

[opiatekrzy]

Overdone, well from what i read on your original post, this guy obviously seems to of found a liking to you since he was giving you mad drugs on credit. just be a straight shooter with him, give him a call and tell him that you dont have all of the money right now, but you will hit him off with cash every paycheck you get/or however u get money, make sure u DONT ignore his calls, or wait too long to tell him, because then he may sense you are trying to get over on him..i think it will all work out for you as long as ur completely honest with him, talk to him in a timely fashion, and stop getting high, or u will dig a deeper hole. money is the root of all evil and dangerous things could possibly happen to you if you jerk this guy. in my opinion he doesnt seem like your average street runner./drug dealer, he fronted you $10,000 worth of drugs, obviously he is well respected and his street credibility is probably up to par, all it takes is a bundle or 2 of heroin he can give to a feign and shut the lights on you, i hate to be blunt, and dont mean to scare you-but um dude u gotta realize this is a dangerous game and ANYTHING can happen. ok bo take it easy

 

[drug_wench]

^ill agree with this
but i also want to say dont give up hope yet!
u say u want to help ppl - u can still help ppl!
u just hav to deal wiv ur own shit as well - and put that first atm
get into rehab no matter wat - u hav a serious problem! starting on the downers just cos its not coke is not going to help u in any way
r u truly having suicidal urges? or did u just need to relieve the pain?
again i say start going to meetings - u can go along high at first
oneday u will b helping ppl like u want to by sharing at meetings
dont let it get u down - the drugs r fucking with ur head
if u need to talk plz PM me!

 

[opiatekrzy]

^ill agree with this
but i also want to say dont give up hope yet!
u say u want to help ppl - u can still help ppl!
u just hav to deal wiv ur own shit as well - and put that first atm
get into rehab no matter wat - u hav a serious problem! starting on the downers just cos its not coke is not going to help u in any way
r u truly having suicidal urges? or did u just need to relieve the pain?
again i say start going to meetings - u can go along high at first
oneday u will b helping ppl like u want to by sharing at meetings
dont let it get u down - the drugs r fucking with ur head
if u need to talk plz PM me!

are you referring to me as far as these suicidial urges? im a bit confused but PM me if you are, and off the record im going through a lot of pain with addiction , but never suicidial..if ur talking about someone else..i apologize.

 

[AfterGlow]

There is no easy way to stop now. It's going to be hard. But, it's really very simple. You make up your mind that this is what you have to do. And then you do it. It's not easy, but it's that simple. If you're not ready to stop yet, then you'll continue to rack up more consequences. And you'll deal with them eventually. The sooner you make up your mind to stop, the sooner you can put this hell behind you. Good luck!

 

[MORPHINE4PAIN]

well the way I beat the drug's I was doing back in 88 thru 91 then 95 thru 97 was to move away from the area you are in the people around you are not helping and I bet you got a bunch of people high and then when you need something they are not there and they won't be they are there to get high they could careless about you

get out of the area for a while if you can't check into a rehab if that does not work this may sound stupid to most but if all else fails then grab a misdemeanor bid for 6 months ( it's better than catching a bid that will get U a felony and end up doing a 3 to 5 yrs ) I did that 3 times but the second one turned out to get me in some big trouble but I bailed out after 26 months now the coke habit is gone

I am now on morphine for the pain from the injuries I got while in the military this is the reason I started the coke to ease the pain in my back ( 4 detonative disc ) legs left and right ankles screw plates severe DJD neck 3 degenative disc with arthritis through out back neck knee's ankle's so yes I am in pain and on disability but I am not abusing anything nor doing illegal drugs plus I moved half way across the country to get away from the people " I partied with "

 

[OverDone]

you wrote that your guy is cool - maybe you should tell him whats up as soon as possible & tell him to cut you down.
and then go to rehab.

for sure thats not a nice perspective, but i think thats the best you can do.

I made it worse by stealingh his pills. I have 3 100mg Kadian{morphine pills) tht I want to inject. I'm gonna use a mortal and pestle to grind it and then research its solubility.

I'm cut off from coke. Now I'm going to have to get shady. I used to be a kind person

 

[chucky1432]

I'm cut off from coke. Now I'm going to have to get shady. I used to be a kind person

I would have to say this route will make everything a whole fucking a lot worse. Now, you're gonna turn into a shady person that people won't be able to trust. The people you screw will be less sympathetic about your situation, but it's your life.

 

[mitragyna]

This place saved my life. I've been to some of the best rehabs in the world, and nothing came close to Holistic, the one I posted in the link. It's gonna cost ya though, and it'll be more than 10K.

Sobriety is a great thing though...give it a try . Best of luck to ya man.

 

[chucky1432]

This place saved my life. I've been to some of the best rehabs in the world, and nothing came close to Holistic, the one I posted in the link. It's gonna cost ya though, and it'll be more than 10K.

Sobriety is a great thing though...give it a try . Best of luck to ya man.

Sorry, but I guess you haven't been reading the whole thread. He already owes his dealer 10K and can't pay him, so this place would be out of the question.

 

[mitragyna]

^
You are absolutely right . Maybe at a different time.

 

[drug_wench]

are you referring to me as far as these suicidial urges? im a bit confused but PM me if you are, and off the record im going through a lot of pain with addiction , but never suicidial..if ur talking about someone else..i apologize.

no i was talking about the OP - but im sorry to hear ur going thru addiction issues too
OD - wat can i say? it doesnt sound like ur actually ready to give up
i dont recommend stealing off ur dealer or anyone else - it will only fuck up ur situation worse
but uve got to get to the point where u figure all that out for urself
if u ever decide to take the plunge and give it a go at giving up, im always happy to talk with u
good luck

 

[OverDone]

Well, my roomate came home and found me laying on the living room floor. I threw up a bunch and about an hour later paramedics and the police were at my door.

There's a light at the end of the tunnel. My folks called the police to check up on me since I hadn't returned any of their calls, hence, a visit from the paramedics.

After I got back from the hospital, I called them and told them everything (my constant IV use, my debt, my unpaid bills, etc) This is one of the things that was fucking me up about getting help. I didn't want them to worry.

The decision has been made to move b ack east and go to rehab. I'll have some loot from selling my place so I can get a cheap apartment after rehab. I won't be leaving for 3 weeks and my dad says that even if the house doesn't sell by then, my realtor can still do all the work to get it sold even though i'll be in a different state.

Thanks BL, all of you have been helpful (addicts like me don't listen to good advice).

I have good friends back east and I know where all the NA meetings are.

This IV shit certainly fucks with a persons world

 

[chucky1432]

Good to hear that you finally have a plan and will be getting some much deserved help. I hope you're not forgetting about your dealer, because I'm sure he won't be forgetting about you.

 

[alicat72]

so glad you decided to seek help....i have found that being back home has helped me tremendously.....the love of family and old friends definatley helps the recovery process.....good luck...keep us posted

 

[danalprazolam]

No man you dont sound like a pussy. Almost everyone here on this forum has had addiction problems. It's soo natrual to be afraid to face reality. No drugs means actually dealing with problems in life.

Fuckin sucks, I just suddenly realized the other day that I was fully addicted to tramadol and NEEDED it to live a normal life... the second I realized that, it scared the shit outta me even tho I was high at that time.

Sorry for all the negative vibes in my post, just hope you get through this shit.
Peace out

Dont underestimate tramadol. It is a weak opiate. But the withdrawls are like all in your mind. There so weird.

 

[danalprazolam]

To the guy in this thread. Pay your friend the money you owe him.

Go see a freaking dr. Get a prescription to dexedrine. Save your self alot of money.