it always ends this way...

[chrissy]

i wonder why i care
and i wonder why i'm going...
booked my tickets,
about to call the hotel
will pack my bags in 2 weeks
and the journey will take 10 hours.

only to go to see you
a you that probably no longer cares
a you that probably has changed.
an us that may no longer be a pair;
an us that you may want to end,
as we go for coffee or when you hold my hand.

i called you last night
it seems our talks are getting shorter.
we no longer have anything to say.
we're too tired
or rushed
or short of money to waste on longsome calls.
but i said i loved you
and you said it back. is there any point? i was drunk.

and it's not doubt, don't get me wrong.
because i know... i know.
i've been told this and i know.
i shouldn't place importance on things like these.
so i won't let it bother me.
i'll put in on top of that great big pile called "experience".

it seems you won't have time for me
you have so many errands to run
i haven't seen you in nearly 3 months
you could take some time off
but no
and it's ok
because one night with my head on your chest
will suffice...
for now.

 

[Living_Proof]

I really liked this a lot. There is so much much truth in your words, that I'm at a loss for them right now. This really hit a nerve for me; I know exactly how you feel. All I can really say is that everything gets better in time; it's just a question of how long it will take. Keep your head up. You are not alone.

~Proof

 

[E-girl]

wow...

when i started reading this, the 10-hour drive, coffee, and the wondering how things have changed, all made me think of someone...

and then as i read more, my thoughts turned to someone else... my boyfriend who went away this summer and i just wanted to spend time with him when he came back but he was always so BUSY, so distant... and you're right,... at that point i could have settled for just falling asleep with my head on his chest... something i have to do every night or else i cant sleep.

we have very parallel lives.

and i still dont know where things are going with him, but that's what i look forward to at the end of a long day when i dont have any of the answers...

 

[ice-9]

wow.