dbailey11 said:
Sorry, I was feeling extra self important and gloomy last night. Mostly I roll with it. ^^^^
"the author of this text must be incredibly lonely and will likely die that way." by Ximot
You may be right. But that doesn't mean I deserve it. I've conditioned myself to bring that about. It's hard to undo.
dbailey just needs some lovin'
*hugs*
It would be hard to snap out of the victim mentality, I don't envy you. Once you're used to throwing yourself a Pity party for One every day, it probably becomes ingrained in your psyche right? (and I didn't mean to sound facetious there, I just really wanted to write Pity Party for One 'cause i think it's funny
)
The first thing I guess you've got to realise that these feelings of inadequacy are just that - feelings. They're not the truth. Just emotions. You can recognise they're there but then choose to ignore them and get about the business of life anyway. Challenge those thoughts when they pop up - it's bullshit! Who
said that's you? Where's the proof? It's all just thoughts, man. Intangible thoughts. Nothing more than a fart in the wind, it's all shit your mind has made up about yourself.
But unfortunately by entertaining and indulging them, you're creating yourself into what you don't want to be, every day.
What you're doing now is allowing one hurt to dictate your whole life, and through the destructive habit of introspection you've gotten everything completely out of perspective. At least you haven't directed your anger outwards towards women, but internalising it is probably just as destructive.
The author of the article didn't know what to do with his hurt so he projected it outwards; yours inwards. Better solution? Surround that incident with a red line and mark it "anomoly". Everything outside that, which is all of your life and everyone in it, is still good and trustworthy until proven otherwise.
And hey: Allow people the chance to get to know you and like you before you convince them otherwise, okay? That's where self esteem begins.
