CytocHromE
Bluelighter
Stepping in the doorway, I hear your painful cries. I drop everything and run towards the sound of your voice, but the bedroom door is locked
With one swift kick, its wood splinters and the hinges break free
Suddenly, my heart stops beating and my palms turn to ice
Enraged in a fit of passion, the stranger and you continue in the lustful act
I fall to my knees
"Why?" I whisper
with no reply, your ravenous moans and his meaningless thrusts stab deeper and deeper into my heart
"Why!?" I say, now screaming
My presence remains unknown
My eyes, now flooded with salty tears, catch a glimpse of a shiny golden object that rests on your finger
Now tainted with adultery, the symbol of our love glimmers no more
Every promise I uttered, every vow I made, is kept in that ring which you wear upon your finger
I raise my hands to my face to wipe away the tears, and see the ring you gave to me
the symbolism now lost, its promises broken, A meaningless piece of metal
It burns a hole in my finger, so I remove it without hesitation and throw it in your direction
"clank" it strikes the brass bedpost as it rocks back and forth rhythmically with his strokes
A small pause
"What was that?" you say
"Nothing, don't stop" he orders
That was it! I couldn't handle anymore
"Enough!" I shouted as I ran into the room
No reply.
"Do you not see me?"
Your face is locked in a lustful trance
I ran out of the room, through the hallway, out the door and to my car
The car coughs out a pathetic whimper as I turn the ignition
Finally the engine fires and revves loudly as my foot floors the gas pedal
I twist the radio knob until music blares throughout the cab
The sound of my own sorrowful whimpers rise above the noise
I lean over and open the glovebox
My hand fumbles around inside until it finds what it is looking for
Cold, hard steel...A welcoming sensation
I slowly cock the hammer.
Such a beautiful piece of work, with such an evil intention
My eyes burn into the steel as it slowly raises to my temple
Your love is all I knew
Your embrace is all that I lived for
Your love is the only thing I could call my own, and now it was poisoned
The trigger gave heavy resistance as my finger slowly squeezed...and squeezed...and squeezed
NO! I can't do it!...She's not worth it!
The realization hit me and I threw the gun into the passenger seat
I have to regain my composure...Take a deep breath
I opened my eyes and dried my tears
I tilted the rearview mirror to see my despicable face
My breath no longer came forth
My tears no longer gushed down my face
My heart no longer pumped life through my veins
I blinked my eyes for one last time to confirm the image that they saw
The driver side window was sprayed with blood, bone fragments, and brains
The left side of my head was completely removed, and blood gushed from the large opening created by the exiting bullet
I now saw the police lights, ambulences and paramedics
2 men wheeled away a stretcher with a black body bag
I looked down at my feet, which were not touching the ground, and I was no longer in my car
No, I was floating above everyone, but no one saw me
No one answered my cries
No one heart my scream
and then...Black.
It was all over
Or was it?
Stepping in the doorway, I hear your painful cries
I drop everything and run towards the sound of your voice, but the bedroom door is locked
With one swift kick, its wood splinters and the hinges breakfree
Suddenly, my heart stops beating and my palms turn to ice
Enraged in a fit of passion, the stranger and you continue in the lustful act...
I swear I have been here before.
I wrote this last night...living out my worst nightmare. What would I do if I ever saw my true love with another man? I would be devastated.
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What is it I feel? What is it I see? Could it be real? Or is the X-ta-C?
With one swift kick, its wood splinters and the hinges break free
Suddenly, my heart stops beating and my palms turn to ice
Enraged in a fit of passion, the stranger and you continue in the lustful act
I fall to my knees
"Why?" I whisper
with no reply, your ravenous moans and his meaningless thrusts stab deeper and deeper into my heart
"Why!?" I say, now screaming
My presence remains unknown
My eyes, now flooded with salty tears, catch a glimpse of a shiny golden object that rests on your finger
Now tainted with adultery, the symbol of our love glimmers no more
Every promise I uttered, every vow I made, is kept in that ring which you wear upon your finger
I raise my hands to my face to wipe away the tears, and see the ring you gave to me
the symbolism now lost, its promises broken, A meaningless piece of metal
It burns a hole in my finger, so I remove it without hesitation and throw it in your direction
"clank" it strikes the brass bedpost as it rocks back and forth rhythmically with his strokes
A small pause
"What was that?" you say
"Nothing, don't stop" he orders
That was it! I couldn't handle anymore
"Enough!" I shouted as I ran into the room
No reply.
"Do you not see me?"
Your face is locked in a lustful trance
I ran out of the room, through the hallway, out the door and to my car
The car coughs out a pathetic whimper as I turn the ignition
Finally the engine fires and revves loudly as my foot floors the gas pedal
I twist the radio knob until music blares throughout the cab
The sound of my own sorrowful whimpers rise above the noise
I lean over and open the glovebox
My hand fumbles around inside until it finds what it is looking for
Cold, hard steel...A welcoming sensation
I slowly cock the hammer.
Such a beautiful piece of work, with such an evil intention
My eyes burn into the steel as it slowly raises to my temple
Your love is all I knew
Your embrace is all that I lived for
Your love is the only thing I could call my own, and now it was poisoned
The trigger gave heavy resistance as my finger slowly squeezed...and squeezed...and squeezed
NO! I can't do it!...She's not worth it!
The realization hit me and I threw the gun into the passenger seat
I have to regain my composure...Take a deep breath
I opened my eyes and dried my tears
I tilted the rearview mirror to see my despicable face
My breath no longer came forth
My tears no longer gushed down my face
My heart no longer pumped life through my veins
I blinked my eyes for one last time to confirm the image that they saw
The driver side window was sprayed with blood, bone fragments, and brains
The left side of my head was completely removed, and blood gushed from the large opening created by the exiting bullet
I now saw the police lights, ambulences and paramedics
2 men wheeled away a stretcher with a black body bag
I looked down at my feet, which were not touching the ground, and I was no longer in my car
No, I was floating above everyone, but no one saw me
No one answered my cries
No one heart my scream
and then...Black.
It was all over
Or was it?
Stepping in the doorway, I hear your painful cries
I drop everything and run towards the sound of your voice, but the bedroom door is locked
With one swift kick, its wood splinters and the hinges breakfree
Suddenly, my heart stops beating and my palms turn to ice
Enraged in a fit of passion, the stranger and you continue in the lustful act...
I swear I have been here before.
I wrote this last night...living out my worst nightmare. What would I do if I ever saw my true love with another man? I would be devastated.
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What is it I feel? What is it I see? Could it be real? Or is the X-ta-C?
