Is this for real?

I dont know what to write this entry about so many things are happening at once in my life and I dont know what I should share and what I should keep private. I have had some swollen lymph nodes in my kneck for a few months and over the last two weeks I have seen a few doctors each one reffering me to another till now I have an appointment with a hematologist/oncologist next week. I found out I dont have hep c I dont know how thats possible I shot up with the same needle as someone who said he was infected and why would you lie about that?
Anyway that seemingly good luck was shocking cause that narrows the list of what could be wrong with that oncology word scarring the fuck out of me. I have a really strong urge to go crazy shooting as much dope as possible as quickly as possible but its being tempered by the thought that if I play the game I may be able to survive and get some nice scripts out of the deal. Thats how fucking sick I still am thinking of the fentanyl patches and dillauded that could be in the mix. Ive never told anyone this but when I was a senior in high school I told everyone my wisdom teeth hurt just to get the painkillers I knew the surgery would entail. I dunno I feel like it cant be true I cant have cancer im always wrong about these medical things its a shitty time to start being right.

Im ok right now I got some xanax and plenty of bud to drown my nervousness but its the first thing I think about every morning and the last I think about at night. I havent told anyone in my life except my parents cause I dont want to end up being fine and people thinking I just want attention or some shit plus I am not ready to acknowlege the reality. Im gonna be in denial till I cant be no more. This whole thing has really numbed me life has become kind of sureal ill be thinking this could be my last time to play basketball or go walk in the park im thinking I should be going balls out to get a girl cause I might not get another chance things like that. I dunno im kinda lost right now im gonna write more about this soon as I can process it a little more.

 

You're lucky, but I think its 30% or 60% of people with hep clear the infection without major hepatic issues. They will however test positive for the antibody but have no active infection.

As someone with a science background this has always interested me with TB tests, youd think after several antigen presentations youd test positive with a local inflammation even though you have no infection by the very nature of the test... Anyhow, Hi.

 

I had hep c from my years of abuse. never shared neddles cause they were very easy to get back then. I must have gotten it from not cleaning my rigs all the time and leaving some blood in there. anyway I went thru the treatments and got rid of it. Luckily no liver damage and the treatments werent that bad. just lost some weight. the docs did tell me that your immune system can get rid of hep if it isnt too bad. understand? they said my body almost beat it but couldnt quite finish it off so I did the treatments. lots of shots in the belly and tons of pills. my body fighting it is why i have no liver damage. at least thats what the docs said. i hate that now a days they make it so hard for people to get needles. it just spreads disease big time. be careful man.