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Is there something more we can do?

KurtAurelius

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Hi all.

Another morning where I’ve let my ruminations lament.

I again wonder if writing a few silly words and songs is enough, I don’t think so.

I’m finding it hard to trust anyone or anything I read, I only really come here these days as the rest of the internet is just such bullshit.

But I generally feel like I need to do more, I’ve applied to volunteer but nothing of yet. But even so, that doesn’t feel enough.

I stepped away from politics for many reasons, mainly it making me ill and I believed that it becomes mob mentality and even those the most clever are manipulated.

But honestly what am I doing? I’ve done some art but what about something more. I’m sick of just strumming a guitar and cleaning my house and cooking for my family.

Wanting to be a part of something without it being another echo chamber. All my friends are lost to their jobs and screens. Apathetic to change as a screen and cannabis can help them forget.

I can’t forget this shit.
 
I feel very similarly. I'm watching TV when i can handle it / as background noise while i play video games and go on BL. Sort of keeping my eyes and ears peeled in case there is something urgent. But i often ask myself if im simply not looking or thinking hard enough to find things to do, which brings me back to your original question.

I value "free time" now more than ever. I am really grateful that i even have the privilege of having very little obligations. I just want to put my time to good use. So i'm interested in thinking and hearing more about this topic.
 
I feel very similarly. I'm watching TV when i can handle it / as background noise while i play video games and go on BL. Sort of keeping my eyes and ears peeled in case there is something urgent. But i often ask myself if im simply not looking or thinking hard enough to find things to do, which brings me back to your original question.

I value "free time" now more than ever. I am really grateful that i even have the privilege of having very little obligations. I just want to put my time to good use. So i'm interested in thinking and hearing more about this topic.

I’m glad I’m not alone. I gave up everything so I could have free time, and not have any energy taken from me. I don’t regret it and I’m proud of myself Everday for being brave to do what I know I wanted and needed.

It ain’t easy however no matter how many people would see it as that.

In regards to the inner voice, it’s a fine line between being firm to growing the inner critic. I think I’m being a little hard on myself when I’ve just finished a book and working on a third album of music.

It just is knowing I want to do more than that, and I think it is fair to give myself a push. I did a few YouTube videos even though I hate the platform to share my thoughts. I find I have something to say or write, they aren’t actually mutually exclusive same with music. Something new comes from a different way of expressing it.

I’m at the point now where any content makes me get agitated and annoyed, so much of it is shite and I believe as paranoid as I sound even subconsciously it will affect you. I try and go with just silence else it’s music, or a video from someone I really respect but that’s rare.

It’s been months with no tv shows. I watch film if it fits my super arsehole criteria of being avant garde and provactive.

Else I consume near nothing, I even feel guilty for reading a book on CAESAR atm, I only read it when I’m near passing out but as much as a old part of me enjoys it, history is the same tale of power addicted men. I used to love Rome but really it was an institution like ours today. Just for glory. Never a good reason same as today.

^conjecture of a cynic mind you.
 
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It seems that you're pretty much doing all that you can do. I'm in a similar situation and due to constraints i can't volunteer as much as I'd like to. But if we keep working on it we can do better.

You do so much with your words too. I love that. Just keep trying, baby. All that you can do.

<3:heart3::heart3::heart3:
 
Hi all.

Another morning where I’ve let my ruminations lament.

I again wonder if writing a few silly words and songs is enough, I don’t think so.

I’m finding it hard to trust anyone or anything I read, I only really come here these days as the rest of the internet is just such bullshit.

But I generally feel like I need to do more, I’ve applied to volunteer but nothing of yet. But even so, that doesn’t feel enough.

I stepped away from politics for many reasons, mainly it making me ill and I believed that it becomes mob mentality and even those the most clever are manipulated.

But honestly what am I doing? I’ve done some art but what about something more. I’m sick of just strumming a guitar and cleaning my house and cooking for my family.

Wanting to be a part of something without it being another echo chamber. All my friends are lost to their jobs and screens. Apathetic to change as a screen and cannabis can help them forget.

I can’t forget this shit.
Yeah, I also have a tendency for my mind to start turning kind of unruly if I don't constantly keep it busy or occupied, with one thing or another.

Especially if you are young, too much free time isn't necessarily a good thing. I have found that having the structure of work, helps free time to feel more valuable.

Volunteering could be even more helpful in terms of it potentially being much more rewarding, for your mental health and self esteem, even if not financially.

If you have your own creative outlets, I guess that kind of different, but that's not really anything I can really comment on.
 
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Have you considered becoming antisemitic and joining your local chapter of the Aryan Brotherhood?

It's really rather rewarding.

Satire moderators, don't get your tampon in a twist. Much love 💌
 
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