Hi guys!
English is not my first language, sorry
I’ve always had problems with my emotions/feelings. I can’t describe them and I don’t know what I really want. Because of this, my life is pretty shitty and I’m going grey. People must think I’m stiff, emotionless or even mentally ill. I did many bad things to my family, also. You really wouldn’t like to live like that.
I consulted some specialists, but it didn’t work. I don’t want to take any prescribed medicines which are very harmful and addictive (I mean physical dependence).
But there is a solution for me and it’s called cannabis. When I smoke, I know how I feel at the moment and I know what I really want. Even if I’m experiencing the worst bad trip, I know this is how reality looks like. I feel the real life. I don’t use it for sheer pleasure – I use it to know what reality is. I just feel like a man who is sane. I am not a typical stoner and I am not an addict (I haven’t smoked for almost a month).
All I need from my life is emotions/feelings. I know that love and friends/family are the most important, but if you can’t feel or express your emotions, it means nothing. I know that many people feel bad and that’s why they smoke. But they FEEL…
Should I keep using cannabis as a medicine? Is it justified? Why/why not? I really don’t want to live like that any longer.
English is not my first language, sorry
I’ve always had problems with my emotions/feelings. I can’t describe them and I don’t know what I really want. Because of this, my life is pretty shitty and I’m going grey. People must think I’m stiff, emotionless or even mentally ill. I did many bad things to my family, also. You really wouldn’t like to live like that.
I consulted some specialists, but it didn’t work. I don’t want to take any prescribed medicines which are very harmful and addictive (I mean physical dependence).
But there is a solution for me and it’s called cannabis. When I smoke, I know how I feel at the moment and I know what I really want. Even if I’m experiencing the worst bad trip, I know this is how reality looks like. I feel the real life. I don’t use it for sheer pleasure – I use it to know what reality is. I just feel like a man who is sane. I am not a typical stoner and I am not an addict (I haven’t smoked for almost a month).
All I need from my life is emotions/feelings. I know that love and friends/family are the most important, but if you can’t feel or express your emotions, it means nothing. I know that many people feel bad and that’s why they smoke. But they FEEL…
Should I keep using cannabis as a medicine? Is it justified? Why/why not? I really don’t want to live like that any longer.
