Eligiu
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I don't low dose meth, but thanks to my medical conditions I have a superbly high tolerance to it to start with, I just feel awake and alert on meth, without feeling tweaked out and obviously cooked. I might get slightly more talkative, but in reality the reason I enjoy doing meth is because it gives me a reprieve from the relentless life consuming fatigue which destroys my will to live (because of my narcolepsy) and I don't need to dose my Dexedrine for a couple of days while the meth still has an effect.
I know it isn't healthy, and I also can't continue to afford this, but I so rarely get to feel anything approaching normal in terms of my energy levels that I don't really want to give up the one day/night a fortnight that I feel like a person without narcolepsy.
I mean, Desoxyn is literally used as a treatment for my condition in the US so it wouldn't be too absurd to say if I lived in America I could have ended up on that drug itself just for my condition and wouldn't find myself basically self medicating with it.
Even the Dexedrine doesn't work some days. Some days it hits the spot, but I've had a string where my last 3 days it's done nothing for my fatigue and I get annoyed when that happens because it does sometimes work.
I know it isn't healthy, and I also can't continue to afford this, but I so rarely get to feel anything approaching normal in terms of my energy levels that I don't really want to give up the one day/night a fortnight that I feel like a person without narcolepsy.
I mean, Desoxyn is literally used as a treatment for my condition in the US so it wouldn't be too absurd to say if I lived in America I could have ended up on that drug itself just for my condition and wouldn't find myself basically self medicating with it.
Even the Dexedrine doesn't work some days. Some days it hits the spot, but I've had a string where my last 3 days it's done nothing for my fatigue and I get annoyed when that happens because it does sometimes work.