Fuck knows where I'm going with this or if I?ll even finish this
document at all, stimulant-induced manual override of typing will
commence and I will try to finish. I'm doing my Masters in
Neuro-Psychopharmacology atthis year after all, this is peasant
literate shit compared to my end-of-year dissertation after all. I am
on page 211 now and my area of study: ?The physical experience that
biologically and inorganically, artificially induced states of
consciousness has on the perception of the mental ego and self-sensing
demographic-specific lifestyle and geographically baised culturally
induced perceptions by the initial first-experience response of
non-addictive, non-substance abusing humans falling into all normal
states/categories of an adult E.Q. at 90-110points, and an adult I.Q
at 90-110points, an E.M.S.S. scale of 5points or less and a
Rorchard-Wissheinz-Halbrun test at 4-6points per unit scale.
Prerequisites applicable to and/or preference for all; pre-, mono-,
and poly-substance use/abuse subjects. Screening and determination of
subjects to be physically healthy, by intelligence, (must be within
local populous? average, with a 2.5%-5.0% degree of maximum variance
permitted) and emotionally stable factors of neutrality established,
(must be within local populous? average, with a 2.5%-5.0% degree of
maximum variance permitted). Final acknowledgements reached and
closing conclusion via integrating individual experiences per
subject?s post-study interview and also acknowledgements reached and
closing conclusions whilst disregarding all nature and nurture
induced-, pre-conceived biased?.
.....basically the initial psychic and physical effects experience
that people have whilst high or tripping on their first dose of first
initial administration ever of various drugs. I don?t have access to
a proper place or unlimited access to a USD 2million FMRI scanner to
do a properly preformed, administrative, double-blind, control and
non-control, pier-review for academically sound post publish
editing....so my study comes from studying many, many, many previously
performed human trials. No rats, no monkeys, actual willing human
subjects taking their very first trip into altered consciousness
Hahaha got to love it...my mentor said it is fine and to go with it as
long as it will hold up to a panel of neuroscientists? grading and
final assessments.
Some will understand all information given fourth with immediate
effect (ie. This thread?s initializer Cotcha for one, accept my friend
request dude!) and others will have to take a second read-through but
all will come to know. Now mentally take in and process these
following paragraphs and try to come to accept this viewpoint.
Personally except my theorem and fathom the state of understanding
accompanying the competence of this visual external stimulus. Through
Occam's Razor basically I will present and connect these various data
sources of information for you, so you don't have to spend your
valuable time of your drugged-upselves passing the time, it is easy
just read. I will, at some time or another finally clearly conclude
this thread, as you will come to accept it as well, by using all of
the facts, perfectly ontological in post-processed form, unbiased in a
nice black-on-white (blue-on-grey?) 2-dimensional, in a language that
spells colour and flavour and flavour as it initially was when the
words were invented with an Epidemiologic correct fucking ?u?, I love
ye old, U.K. Oxford?s Internationally Standardised linguistic
spelling/grammar format of British English (established and grounded
within about less than 50 years through widespread occurrence and
practical installation of the N.K.J?s version of the Christian Bible,
fuck me this book has been edited enough now leave it be, it was fine
already with the one printed by Guttenburg oh my soul) I will make you
also perceive it my conclusions as factual, personally some will know
it to be structured right and ultimately a read worthy of a
publishable dissertation of at least honourary Ph.D. quality...this is
to say that If I actually finish it sometime this century hahahahaha.
Okay let's try to do this in one sitting/day/binge or 14-30hz state of
consciousness until sometime when an inevitable 4-8hz Theta state
ofconsciousness finally comesand R.E.M. tries to make sense of the
previous days of actual WTF, (most likely and always due to deliberate
lowering ofbrainwave patterns, perfectlytimed to ride the wave from
5-day peak to passout, I don't ever fall asleep, I pass the-FUCK-out,
preferably. Using druggie knowledge topreciselydosea most
pleasantlyexperienced come-down, 02:00hr first feel the
muscle-relaxants, 01:30 then arterial-vensodialation with
Theophen?sbronchi-dilation loosens days of lungs? shit where it works
in symbiosis with the medulla-oblongata and autonomous manual
stimulation of breathing effective for 15-20 hours, don?t worry about
them blue-lips, early 6-foot-under scenes, 01:25-01:15 feel them
Diazepam molecules release what is left of any remaining tension
states, then 00:45 MST Continus kicks all pains away, then at 00:30
take them 2-4 x 15mg Midazolam tabs, chew and down with 250ml of fresh
Grapefruit juice, the big daddies of all known anaesthetics, these
little fuckers, once downed there is no turning back, no eating or
driving or smoking or bathing (never fucking bathing) nor showering.
If you down them little Blue Roche?s as the slang for them goes, you
HAVE TO BE NEAR OR ON OR IN your designated chosen pass out spot, they
can kick in from 5 minutes anywhere to 25 minutes, never made it past
25 minutes following an oral dose administration with emphasis on
sedation?.note to also kindly disregard cases of very high stimulant
intoxication where they just bring you down to competent sobriety and
low doses of bits of 2-5mg bitten off pieces?just because you can.
Regarding the brains way of coping with complete SERT depletion
throughout all inter-cranial parts and neuralpathways including the
very bottom of the brain stem before we hit the first vertebrae,
creating normal stainable biosynthesis of SERT post-MDMA
administration by the means of neuralplasticity is not a hypothetical
situation, it is actual and applicable immediately after MDMA
neuraltoxicity.
Looking at a "normal", post-adolencent, just-old-enough to fall into
adult-age human pre-drug/trauma brain contains roughly 82,1-, to
110-billion neurons, this number (still argued over pfffft, I think
we're ballpark-over it already here) was calculated by -Maxwell et.
al. 2001- studying hundreds of FMRI's, PETS, normal X-Rays and
advanced MRI's from inception circa 1970 to present and using
countless mathematical formulae and synthetic models and many methods
of calculation almost always naturally comes up with and leads us to
this number that is averaged to the estimation of between 86-, and
110-billion neurons, give or take 11-billion.
Examples of formulae such as 1.) theorems of naturally-occurring,
observational-dependent living unit dispersion, 2.) super-imposed and
quantity-estimational result of pinpointed positional micro-, and
macro-systems' impositions and also more basic biological calculations
for estimations and results on organisms and natural area dispersion
3.) taking a sample size ie. 1cm(2) x 1cm(2) and using surface area x
sporadic spread x possible occurrence x factor of time etc. etc.
Okay. Now each neurons' dendrites' nerve endings may have the ability
to connect with 4,000 to 21,000 other neurons' dendrites' nerve
endings through creating and sustaining synapses. These pathways
connect relatively distant areas of the brain and the entirety of the
nervous system throughout life and these specific connections
ultimately makes up your consciousness as memories, experiences etc.
Lets look also into the biological arena that is the ability of
separately contained biological systems' ability (i.e. organs) for
auto-restoratitive, self-repairing abilities and phenomenon, such as
the obvious regenerative properties of the liver as one example.
Let us look into the biological arena that is the ability of
separately contained biological systems' mono induced-expression for
auto-restoratitive, self-repairing abilities and phenomenon with
obvious regenerative properties such as those of the liver as one
example thereof. Now looking at a ?fresh? brain/cluster of neurons.
The normally occurring biological and physiological prosess of
Neurogenesis starts roughly between weeks 2 and 3 post-conception,
pre-foetus, and continues until birth at the rate of 250,000 new
neurons per minute.
Neurogenesis is coined as the brain's ability to create new neurons
independently. After MDMA-induced neurotoxicity it is not just
repairing the damage done through chemically-induced degeneration, oh
fucking no, but it has the full capacity the ability to actually grow
entirely new and fresh neuron-sites, formations also of completely and
entirely new, independently located neuron-clustered areas, all with
new cells with new dendrites with new axions and new nerve endings
void of defects with perfect bio-synthetical synaptic
electro-magnetically induced relay and absorption capabilities never
used and ready for immediate training and rewiring-applicable
assossioations of 10 to the 10th degree squared ready for data packet
handeling via and through its neighbouring neuron-cluster. Most people
think this is it. Even orthodox amd new-school academics in the field
still insist that we are born with x-amount of neurons for life,
full-stop. This limits neurobiology in its entirety and is also an
ignorant approach to the most complex accumulation of cells that forms
this biological supercomputer that is used and/or abused for your
personal pleasure. This ignorance is no longer acceptable in my eyes
following a paper and study done at the -SALK Inst. in San Diego et.
al 1999- when the neuroscientists there discovered neurogenesis
happening in a 72-year-old's brain! Dude, at 72 you can still take up
and master the violin and become a master of it within 5-10 years (or
10,000 hours as Malcolm Gladwell asserted is the average amount of
practice/input/involvement/man-hours necessary to master any field of
study or any doctrine or any type of any physical activity) As
professor of Neurology at Harvard Medical School, Dr. A. Pascual-Leone
hypothesized: you only need to do a certain action/think a certain
though/experience an event or new environments, and by regular
practice/mindfulness/repetition neurogenesis can, does and will occur
up until physical bodily death.
This ignorance is no longer acceptable in my eyes. One specific paper
published about a study done at the -SALK Inst. in San Diego et. al
1999- when the neuroscientists there discovered neurogenesis happening
spontaneously within the frontal and lateral brain tissues in a
72-year-old's brain!!! Dude, at 72 you can still take up and master
the violin and come to master it within 5-10 years (or 10,000-hours as
Malcolm Gladwell asserted as the average amount of
practice/input/involvement/man-hours necessary to master any field of
study or any doctrine or any type of any physical activity and master
it completely)
As professor of Neurology at Harvard Medical School, Dr. A.
Pascual-Leone hypothesized: you only need to do a certain action/think
a certain though/experience an event or new environments in a constant
manner, and by regular practice/mindfulness/repetition neurogenesis
can, does and will occur up until physical bodily death.
Imagine the experience of physical-bodily death, your entire source
energy matrix detached from the body, all personal experiences from
all previous lifetimes are accessible and are experienced at once, no
pain, nothing but pure source energy vibrations, 4-7th dimension
existence throughout all time experienced simultaneously and also not
so. Just a state of bliss...okay way off the path here let's get back
to the point I was making. I think I was concluding the following, I
think.......fuck knows where am I again? What day is it today....?
Phuza Thursday! In South Africa there is such an overwhelming alcohol
abuse situation that spreads country wide haha. Mieliemeel beer
Mondays, Tequila Tuesdays, Wacky Wednesdays, Phuza Thursday (ethnic
slang for ?to drink alcohol profusely?), and then the obvious Hoza
Hoza Weenend! Dude fuck Ireland, during the FIFA Football world cup
in 2010 I saw first hand how 4 or 5 black ethnis grandfathers above
the age of 60-70 drink the Irish spectators under the fucking table
they could no longer grasp onto none the less actually sit at.
Aww gross, that fucking big yellow ball in the sky of glowing hydrogen
fusion reactions? cunt of an energy source is illuminating the outside
courtyards already, fuck this, curtains' auto-censors off, bloop! See
yourselves closed and kept thusly at all times throughout this round
of binging kindly if you please....Lock doors leading to the voyeur,
click-click. Fuck off trusty but not-too-bright man servant Babu, I
will buzz If I have to use you when the necessity for it arises. Go
outside and take some maids and use your anal sphincters to suck up
and clean what remains of the patio chairs I broke and set alight in
the middle of pool house?s lapa area from a no-sleep techno makietie,
poes woes Injambanenge party night with the Buthelezi's and their
visitors Monday. I think? Monday was it, pggg who cares I?m in
hermit mode until further notice. WhatsApp...sleep...facebook....pggg
who still uses it....instagram.....sleep.....twitter.....what?s my
password again....latest update was the Tiesto Smirnoff Trance
Experience circa 2009ish? (...closed private invate only airplane
hanger party, very selective...just dropping that in there, only
celebs, athletes and the cr?me de la cr?me of Johannesburg?s elites
was in attendance, also some peasants arrived in Ferraris and Lambos,
Austin-Martins and SLS types also arrived uninvited but got in, I
confess I would also allow them in, some may have taken the keys
whilst sneaking out the rear terraced wall-facing east-wing and will
get the autos home with drug-induced marks and scrapes off all shapes
and colours. I love drugs and this whole culture hey....A and I
arrived in her mother?s 1970-ish perfectly restored museum condition
old-school Jaguar S-Type[?] fuck knows but it is loooooong and dark
royal blue and vary spacious, without drinks fridge though...one time
9 of us fitted in there with legroom and arms space to spare, also 1
of the 2 times I ever fingered a girl was in the back seat...no thank
you...me prefer foggotism and I will walk over 99 tight virgin pussies
to get to 1 asshole).
uuuurg, that thing in the sky emitting protons that makes your
light-sensitive photoreceptor-retinal cells see, the same sight of
this daylight equals death to me. You see the moon you see the stars,
but the shit that I'm on will send you to Mars hahaha. I'm
multitasking like 6 botched-abortions in a cabbage patch over
Christmas. I'm typing this in MS.Word, also I'm cutting my finger
nails, Jesus at the rate of 1 an hour, whilst a randomised playlist
pumping full blast through the Seinheisser's (are my parents even
home? should call Babu and get the latest on who's where) ranging from
Cardinne du Violins de Bah?ra to SlipKnot to Andre Rieu's "Best-Of" to
the techno king Boras Brejcha's 2017 set at the Chateau de
Fontainebleau to Bob Marley, I'm watching Bloomberg muted on one
screen across the bed, some Amsterdam based Vocal Trance satellite
radio station's podcast on full blast balling through 2000watt Bose
ceiling tweaters the bathroom and wardrobe...Oh shit fuck
man-bear-pig, Oh my Fucking soul no no no no privacy infraction
pussy-red level 5 alert all that can stand and fight...Skype is still
windowed open on this fucking Galaxy tab behind a flimsy sleep screen,
why don't people hang up first? Jesus I can't hang up evey time
gahhhh, fucking hate tablets, all of them, wannabes trying to fill a
non-existent void between the desktop and the smartphone...this is one
reason why all my detest, you forget about the thing and you put it
down and poof! live video streaming still here open and exposed for
the world's I.T. dark side to peruse at their leisure, now only
showing a distant wall with presumably either an excellent copy/remake
of or could also be a legit 100% original piece mind you of something
seen before, this is the P.C. nook in the library at the Thomson's.
Not the travel Thomsons no no no, the Z.A.R. Thomsons as in personal
physical insurance/body guards and such Thomsons...I remember now my
vriend M told me her father, uncle C sold the Pty. Ltd. to a mega
international security conglomerate few years back and at least 3-4
generations of Thomsons will live it up in absolute opulence. After M
married she hyphenated the 2 surnames so her 2 year old still has
access to some real deal "new money" money. Uncle C wasn't up for the
whole I.P.O. process or something ...from here it looks like a
surrealist Kentridge?/Irma Stern? -ish rendition of the Paul Kruger
Memorial in Pretoria? I think, oil on canvas, big also, maybe 90cm x
230cm?...50's to late 60's...let's sreenshot and format-cut that to
Google search/photos/lens that shit, don't know how long that has
still been streaming I last remeber talking to her before I opened
Adobe pdf-viewer at midnight hahahaha fuck me....Galaxy Tab shutdown
in 3, 2, and 1....Also tabs and tabs of always downloading porn
-always, always downloading porn hey, also I'm going through some
20-odd open MDMA relevant pdf files, trying to crush some Crystal
using a metal pill crusher for what seems like an eternity, also
chain-smoking Camel Lights and trying to focus my energy into one
stream, fuck where was I heading...
