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Bluelighter
Hey guys, I've posted on TDS with a similar question/situation before, and everyone has been great and given me some good suggestions, which I'm very thankful for. This post, albeit in the same vein as my previous ones, I think deserves it's own thread.
Basically, I've been climbing the stimulant ladder for the past two or so years (started on ADHD meds, you know the deal,) and eventually started doing several grams of coke per week just to feel like I care about ANYTHING. I'm TERRIFIED that, at just 16 years old, I've felt as good as I'll ever feel, and that without these drugs I'll never feel any motivation again, terrified that I won't be able to deal with life that feels dulled out by sobriety...
I can't believe I've fucked myself over so early in life
Basically, I've been climbing the stimulant ladder for the past two or so years (started on ADHD meds, you know the deal,) and eventually started doing several grams of coke per week just to feel like I care about ANYTHING. I'm TERRIFIED that, at just 16 years old, I've felt as good as I'll ever feel, and that without these drugs I'll never feel any motivation again, terrified that I won't be able to deal with life that feels dulled out by sobriety...
I can't believe I've fucked myself over so early in life