Stay.Blazed.420
Bluelighter
So I was using opiates every day or second day for a solid 2 months (intravenously). I started feeling some acute withdrawal, so i cut back. I was 4 days sober, then my dad gives me a full bottle of oxy 60's and says 'here make some money', but instead I just binged for two straight weeks.
I then went 3 days sober
I then went another 5 days sober
now i'm on day one of being sober again.
Is it possible to still be able to enjoy opiates recreationally even though i've becoome physically addicted and am experiencing some moderate acute withdrawals? (lethargy, depression, cold sweats, lack of appetite, etc.) No nausea or vomitting though.. It never got that bad.
Suddenly today (after getting in a major car accident) i get a job. And not just any job - I'm getting salary-paid, $2700/month after taxes. I think it's safe to say I'll be able to afford my habit, however that's the thing - I don't want it to be a habit. I want it to be like drinking.. I only drink maybe once a week, do you think it's possible to use opiates in the same way without having to go through withdrawal again?
And my other question:
Since I went 3 days, got high, went 5 days, got high and now i'm starting being sober again, are the withdrawals weakening or staying the same? Yesterday after the 5 days of being sober I didn't get cold sweats anymore (constant feeling like i need to shiver), but after doing only ~40mg oxy IV last night (peer pressured me, fuck =[ ) I've got them again. It's like - I detoxed and made it through the worst parts of my acute post withdrawals but then that one use started it all over from day one again. Is this statement true or is it in my head?
Also, will it ever be possible to go back to just insufflating opiates even though I've been slamming oxy and hydro for months now? Or am I trapped in a never-ending cycle of needles only? Is it possible to go back to just snorting it? Or did i ruin that forever?
I then went 3 days sober
I then went another 5 days sober
now i'm on day one of being sober again.
Is it possible to still be able to enjoy opiates recreationally even though i've becoome physically addicted and am experiencing some moderate acute withdrawals? (lethargy, depression, cold sweats, lack of appetite, etc.) No nausea or vomitting though.. It never got that bad.
Suddenly today (after getting in a major car accident) i get a job. And not just any job - I'm getting salary-paid, $2700/month after taxes. I think it's safe to say I'll be able to afford my habit, however that's the thing - I don't want it to be a habit. I want it to be like drinking.. I only drink maybe once a week, do you think it's possible to use opiates in the same way without having to go through withdrawal again?
And my other question:
Since I went 3 days, got high, went 5 days, got high and now i'm starting being sober again, are the withdrawals weakening or staying the same? Yesterday after the 5 days of being sober I didn't get cold sweats anymore (constant feeling like i need to shiver), but after doing only ~40mg oxy IV last night (peer pressured me, fuck =[ ) I've got them again. It's like - I detoxed and made it through the worst parts of my acute post withdrawals but then that one use started it all over from day one again. Is this statement true or is it in my head?
Also, will it ever be possible to go back to just insufflating opiates even though I've been slamming oxy and hydro for months now? Or am I trapped in a never-ending cycle of needles only? Is it possible to go back to just snorting it? Or did i ruin that forever?

