mal3volent
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I mean truly happy.
The more I think about this, the more unsure I am. Do humans really need a long term companion to have a fulfilling life, or is that just an artificial social construct? I find myself becoming more introverted as I get older which is the opposite of what I expected in my teenage years. And now that I honestly consider it, I can't really imagine being that intimate, every day, year after year. Constantly having someone around me, having to share feelings and emotions. I've never felt the thing people describe as "true love". I've of course been physically attracted to people, been infatuated with them, had on again off again sexual relationships...but never felt the desire to spend the rest of my life with someone or committ to anything that would involve me having to open myself up in such a way. I feel like I'm the kind of person that comes off as cold and distant to most people even when I'm feeling great. I guess I'm also skeptical that anyone could endure my bouts with depression, anxiety, and detatchment without becoming depressed themselves and resenting me for it.
Anyone else felt this way?
The more I think about this, the more unsure I am. Do humans really need a long term companion to have a fulfilling life, or is that just an artificial social construct? I find myself becoming more introverted as I get older which is the opposite of what I expected in my teenage years. And now that I honestly consider it, I can't really imagine being that intimate, every day, year after year. Constantly having someone around me, having to share feelings and emotions. I've never felt the thing people describe as "true love". I've of course been physically attracted to people, been infatuated with them, had on again off again sexual relationships...but never felt the desire to spend the rest of my life with someone or committ to anything that would involve me having to open myself up in such a way. I feel like I'm the kind of person that comes off as cold and distant to most people even when I'm feeling great. I guess I'm also skeptical that anyone could endure my bouts with depression, anxiety, and detatchment without becoming depressed themselves and resenting me for it.
Anyone else felt this way?