John_Burrows
Bluelighter
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- Jul 31, 2008
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I must be a freak, or else a high tolerance just does weird shit - I did an experiment and literally the (minor) high I get is no different whether I shoot 4mg or 16mg. Just a mild rush.
However, if I'm withdrawing the "transformation" feeling will still knock me on my ass, even with a minimal (4mg) dose. At this point that's the best feeling the dillies give me, which is really a catch 22 since the feeling of being in WD sucks, but the worse my wd, the better the rush when I inject that first shot!
Its probably a discussion for another thread, but for the life of me I can't figure out why I still bother to shoot up, and even still look forward to it! I mean if at random intervals the dilaudid still occasionally got me high even that would make it worthwhile, but it doesn't work on me anymore - so why do i still bother?
The thought of my doc taking me off meds scares me, and I don't want to taper down and quit... But why? It's like being afraid of my mom taking away my spinach when I hate spinach!
However, if I'm withdrawing the "transformation" feeling will still knock me on my ass, even with a minimal (4mg) dose. At this point that's the best feeling the dillies give me, which is really a catch 22 since the feeling of being in WD sucks, but the worse my wd, the better the rush when I inject that first shot!
Its probably a discussion for another thread, but for the life of me I can't figure out why I still bother to shoot up, and even still look forward to it! I mean if at random intervals the dilaudid still occasionally got me high even that would make it worthwhile, but it doesn't work on me anymore - so why do i still bother?
The thought of my doc taking me off meds scares me, and I don't want to taper down and quit... But why? It's like being afraid of my mom taking away my spinach when I hate spinach!

I fucking despise spending so much and risking so much and not getting high.