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Is it normal to feel depressed and like life has no meaning after quitting hydro?

johnf0457 said:
Well now that you finally made it past them you should never use again then.. easier said than done i know... For me i think it is all over, haven't been depressed in almost 48 hrs, and that's with being bored and thinking about it for a long time today... I'm sure the physical symptoms suck a lot but in my case, the depression was the worst by far.. The only physical symptoms i got were just feeling with absolutely no energy, sweats and this fucking leg pain that still wont go away damn it... First time i had stop during this 2 months in which i only stopped for 2 days i got a cold, and a fever and depression... this time just the depression
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Yeah I'm definitely gonna try my hardest to stay away from them but I lve already got it in my head that I'll use again one day on a special occasion like my birthday. It's not til November but I'm gonna wanna do something. Hopefully I won't do opiates and just smoke a fat ass blunt or something. But idk, I have a needle stashed away, I can't bring myself to throw it away right now. I mean I could cuz I could easily get more. All I gotta do is walk into my local grocery store and ask for them and I'll get a bag of like 10 or 15 1cc insulin needles, no questions asked

And yeah the physical shit sucks. My knees are absolutely killing me right now but I hunk it's cuz I've had them bent sitting in a chair for the past 8 hours playin Xbox hahaha but for me the mental shit like the depression and seperation anxiety has been worse than the physical shit. I've never been through mental shit like this before. I never go through it again either. All the more reason to stay clean:)
 
Oxy_Ghost said:
Yeah I'm definitely gonna try my hardest to stay away from them but I lve already got it in my head that I'll use again one day on a special occasion like my birthday. It's not til November but I'm gonna wanna do something. Hopefully I won't do opiates and just smoke a fat ass blunt or something. But idk, I have a needle stashed away, I can't bring myself to throw it away right now. I mean I could cuz I could easily get more. All I gotta do is walk into my local grocery store and ask for them and I'll get a bag of like 10 or 15 1cc insulin needles, no questions asked

And yeah the physical shit sucks. My knees are absolutely killing me right now but I hunk it's cuz I've had them bent sitting in a chair for the past 8 hours playin Xbox hahaha but for me the mental shit like the depression and seperation anxiety has been worse than the physical shit. I've never been through mental shit like this before. I never go through it again either. All the more reason to stay clean:)
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Yeah I feel the pain like right on top of my knees, Idk if that is RLS or what but it fucking hurts so much that I can't sleep.. I took benadryl to sleep and still I can't which was stupid cause i read it makes RLS worse but idk i haven't been sleeping and wanted to try something... been trying to sleep for 2 hours and no luck

You really should NEVER use again, I mean you used for a looong time u've had ur fun, you got a daughter man, if i were u i'd use that as my incentive to never ever touch that shit again

I think all the time that I will take them again sometime, keep on thinking how in a few weeks when I'm 100% myself which I almost am except for my fucking legS!!!! that i'll just ask this girl for the remainder 5 but i shouldn't and i won't
 
johnf0457 said:
Yeah I feel the pain like right on top of my knees, Idk if that is RLS or what but it fucking hurts so much that I can't sleep.. I took benadryl to sleep and still I can't which was stupid cause i read it makes RLS worse but idk i haven't been sleeping and wanted to try something... been trying to sleep for 2 hours and no luck

You really should NEVER use again, I mean you used for a looong time u've had ur fun, you got a daughter man, if i were u i'd use that as my incentive to never ever touch that shit again

I think all the time that I will take them again sometime, keep on thinking how in a few weeks when I'm 100% myself which I almost am except for my fucking legS!!!! that i'll just ask this girl for the remainder 5 but i shouldn't and i won't
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Well I think leg pains AND RLS are associated with withdrawals and yeah Benadryl makes it worse haha. I took some Nyquil last night to go to sleep but honestly I was being a dumb fuck and tried to get "high" off it but after a few good gulps I couldn't take it anymore, it was too nasty and I didn't want to be taking all that acetaminophen either. Don't ask why i did it haha, I guess I was having bad cravings and just wanted to get high. I've never been one to try to get high off NyQuil or DXM(last night was the first time). I know what the shit does to you. I just wasn't thinking right. I did feel a little something from it and I did end up sleeping like a baby haha.

But nah man, I don't think ill ever touch opi's again. I think I've lost all my dealers anyways. One of my dealers that I've know for like 18 years(and I consider him a friend, I used to play T-ball with him when we were kids) messaged me and said he was good. I told him I was getting clean and he supported me. He's even told me about a program that helps with addiction and recovery. So I'm sure if I ever tried askin him for pills or heroin than he wouldn't give me any.

But idk if I've said this before but I've made my decision to start smoking weed again. I can control my weed "use". I smoked for years before I even tried pills. I believe that there's nothing wrong with smoking a little weed as long as you can be responsible, keep a job, do the shit you gotta do and not let it control you than go ahead and smoke. And that's exactly how I was when I smoked. I will use if for "medicinal" purposes like controlling insnomnia since i could get the greatest nights of sleep after smoking and use it to jus let the stresses of the day go so I can just chill and relax:) but who knows, I might not smoke. It depends on how my my fiancé feels about it when I tell her that's what I wanna do. But if course I wouldn't make her do it too if she didn't want to and I wouldn't do it around her but I've told her in the past that smoking is something I will not give up any time soon. And I've told her many times in the past that whenever we got off the pills that I would continue to smoke.

I'm glad your doing better though man. It's good to hear you feel almost back to your normal self. It only gets better from here on out if you let it. Keep up the good work!
 
Oxy_Ghost said:
Well I think leg pains AND RLS are associated with withdrawals and yeah Benadryl makes it worse haha. I took some Nyquil last night to go to sleep but honestly I was being a dumb fuck and tried to get "high" off it but after a few good gulps I couldn't take it anymore, it was too nasty and I didn't want to be taking all that acetaminophen either. Don't ask why i did it haha, I guess I was having bad cravings and just wanted to get high. I've never been one to try to get high off NyQuil or DXM(last night was the first time). I know what the shit does to you. I just wasn't thinking right. I did feel a little something from it and I did end up sleeping like a baby haha.

But nah man, I don't think ill ever touch opi's again. I think I've lost all my dealers anyways. One of my dealers that I've know for like 18 years(and I consider him a friend, I used to play T-ball with him when we were kids) messaged me and said he was good. I told him I was getting clean and he supported me. He's even told me about a program that helps with addiction and recovery. So I'm sure if I ever tried askin him for pills or heroin than he wouldn't give me any.

But idk if I've said this before but I've made my decision to start smoking weed again. I can control my weed "use". I smoked for years before I even tried pills. I believe that there's nothing wrong with smoking a little weed as long as you can be responsible, keep a job, do the shit you gotta do and not let it control you than go ahead and smoke. And that's exactly how I was when I smoked. I will use if for "medicinal" purposes like controlling insnomnia since i could get the greatest nights of sleep after smoking and use it to jus let the stresses of the day go so I can just chill and relax:) but who knows, I might not smoke. It depends on how my my fiancé feels about it when I tell her that's what I wanna do. But if course I wouldn't make her do it too if she didn't want to and I wouldn't do it around her but I've told her in the past that smoking is something I will not give up any time soon. And I've told her many times in the past that whenever we got off the pills that I would continue to smoke.

I'm glad your doing better though man. It's good to hear you feel almost back to your normal self. It only gets better from here on out if you let it. Keep up the good work!
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Funny you say that, yesterday I almost bought dxm to get high, I've done it a few times before and I never like it too much but I just wanted it to kill time... I didn't do it though

Yeah there's nothing wrong with weed IMO, I don't do it cause I simply hate smoking so I could never get into it.

Yeah I'm totally normal the only thing is that I still don't know how I'll be able to say no when my dealer contacts me, I really hope I do, but it'll be hard knowing I can feel so good again
 
Well just think of what could happen to yourself if you start using again, it only gets worse:/

But keep us updated on how you are man, I hope all the best for ya!
 
Oxy_Ghost said:
Well just think of what could happen to yourself if you start using again, it only gets worse:/

But keep us updated on how you are man, I hope all the best for ya!
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So I'm on my 12th day now and since the 7th day I haven't felt bad for a second, I am 100% recovered for those who didn't think it was possible... How are you man? after 2 weeks? I hope that after this long you're back to your full self, but so many people say it takes up to a year? so how you feeling?

I still keep on arguing with myself on whether or not I'll buy some more when my dealer gets some, I mean I am fully recovered and it took me only 7 days, but that was only cause I used a lot, If I just get less I can still have fun and not get addicted again
 
johnf0457 said:
So I'm on my 12th day now and since the 7th day I haven't felt bad for a second, I am 100% recovered for those who didn't think it was possible... How are you man? after 2 weeks? I hope that after this long you're back to your full self, but so many people say it takes up to a year? so how you feeling?

I still keep on arguing with myself on whether or not I'll buy some more when my dealer gets some, I mean I am fully recovered and it took me only 7 days, but that was only cause I used a lot, If I just get less I can still have fun and not get addicted again
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I'm doing good. I still got leg pains and insomnia but mentally I've made almost a complete turn around. I'm not really depressed anymore. I've made some new friends over Xbox, I'm in a gaming clan with them. They've really picked up my mood. I have a great time with them and they are hilarious people. One guy inparticular I've hit it off with(no homo). We talk shit to each other but it's AV in good fun. He's even been very supportive of me getting clean. He's there for me if I ever need it. He knows kinda what I was going through with depression and anxiety and stuff. He was in a motorcycle crash in October, he should be dead right now. He was in a coma for two weeks and then was put in a medically induced comma for a month. The docs said he wouldn't live and that if he did he'd be a vegetable. But he's almost completely normal except some minor memory problems. So in a weird way we've got stuff in common even though our situations are totally different.

I also got a job today, well not officially yet. I just gotta pass a drug test and background check and the job is mine. So I'm pretty excited about that. My life has improved immensely over the past week. Only a couple more weeks til im reunited with my fiancé and my mom gets home from rehab tomorrow.

I don't really feel like my old self but that's because I don't remember what my old self was like. For the past 4 1/2 - 5 years all I've know is the drug user me and my fiancé as a drug user. I don't remember how we were before that. I'm nervous to see how we are and how we become. I don't think things between us will be bad, I think it'll change for the better. Right now in loving my life and I'm ready to continue to see what lies ahead of me.

I'm glad to here your doing good, keep it man. And yeah if you start usin again just keep it controlled and have the will power to say no if you feel like it's getting bad. Opiates will grab ahold of you quick and it's easy to get out of control. But yeah it may be a long time until I'm back to my old self. It can take people years before they return back to normal, some don't. But I'm doing everything I can to get comfortable with myself.
 
I'm 23 & also into dros.
I can't give you advice because I'm still struggling.
What I will say is stop while you're ahead! I've been at this for 9 years straight! Yes 9 years with a small break now and then. It's messed my life up bad.
Stop while you're ahead & don't look back.
Good luck!
 
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