nile: from what you're saying, it just sounds like you arn't ready yet. If you're using the OC 80s and 10/325s from the street, you should try to get help soon. Maybe this w/d session won't motivate you, but guarenteed there will be one in the future soon. It won't ruin your chances of being prescribed anything, as if you are truely in pain and on suboxone or something, ideally there should be some communication between the two doctors to get you on something to take care of your pain. If you go on methadone, and you come across a legit pain problem, they'd probably just up your dose of methadone. From what it sounds like, no offense, is that you're uncertain of whether or not you want to stop using. It's okay, I'm not judging, because I have been on legit painkiller scripts for pain for years and I have had the same fears. Don't worry. Depending on where you are, doctors in clinics are very understanding and forgiving and are there for more than just a 9-5 (or a 7-7). Talk to someone. I couldn't imagine being addicted to PKs from the street; so fucking expensive and way too much uncertainty. Good luck
and people robbing CVS'es are the reason I get hasseled so much for my script. In nyc most pharmacies (CVS especially) won't tell you over the phone if they have a CII or CIII in stock! Because of them getting robbed! Even if you go there EVERY MONTH. This leads me to drudge around the whole fucking city looking for a pharmacy to fill my script! It sucks! I know you were joking, but I'm just sayin'. Some pharmacies have security guards with guns here too.